»Ho Ho Ho~
Sunday, December 25, 2011
HOHOHO! MERRY CHRISTMAS! Exactly 6 more days till the end of the Year 2011! This year had been a good one to me as I had tried many new things and experienced many never felt before feelings. :)
It's Jesus birthday today too! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS! Many years ago, you came to this Earth and this is the greatest miracle till now. I LOVE YOU! :)
My top Christmas wish will be, to grow more regardless of spiritually or psychologically. :)
Though I still did not get to experience my white Christmas but I hope one day I could, together with my families and friends. :)
It's not raining today, but it's windy. Great weather. :D
I really hope everyone will have a joyous Christmas! :D
Till then, MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D
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»So right now...
Sunday, December 18, 2011
So right now, just a few more hours away; in another 1 hour and 33 minutes, my Term Break starts. Another day has pass by mercilessly, yet again.
As I was sitting on the couch today, I can't help but think that, As I sit here, I am slowly growing up, but on the other hand, it also means that my life is also being reduced, bit by bit. 2012 is nearing, and as the first two numbers had reflected, I'm turning 20. I need some life catalysts to change or speed up my life with more colors. I will always find myself asking, till date, what have I achieved? Where am I heading to after this chapter of life in TP ends?
I always tell myself to buck up, time to make a different. Yet I always find the passion that I had ignited within myself just like a firework, gone in a flash. So radiating at that moment but gone in just a blink of an eye.
I want to pick up skills, skills that I really like and am really interested in, skills like learning a third language and being more musically inclined, till date, nothing much was done. Reason being, I am trying to hold too many things together that it starts to fall apart when I don't keep things running consistently. I am lazy, I should be more hardworking. I am stupid, I should be smarter.
I really like things relating to Korea. Kpop, K culture, etc. It is like a dimension where I can be myself. But what kind of things can I do or learn so that I can venture into such industry in the future? Events Management? At times like this, I always envy those Hallyu Stars, whereby at a tender age, they started practicing and now, they have a career and even though it's tiring but at least, they found the "thing" that is running in their life. They are heading to one direction, getting to the same destination and that is music.
I am always curious to want to know the feeling whereby you practice so hard and so long for a performance and finally, it's time to show case what you had been working hard for. I can't imagine the sense of achievement that they will feel.
Hmmmms. I guess all things ain't too late as yet. This time, I must really buck up. I want and hope to see the changes in my life. Whether is it musically, spiritually, physically, emotionally or verbally, I commit everything to God. :)
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»The fire within
Saturday, December 10, 2011
人的一生中总是有着许多的无奈。无奈是一种现实，一种我们知道问题的根本但却没有办法让它消失；无能为力。
我寻寻觅觅了很久，今天我大概了解如何把无奈当成一种推动力，让我在我的人生中写下使我满意的里程碑。心中的那把火，努力不断往前迈进的躯体和那份爱，变成了我生命中最重要的三件事。
It's been so long since I had written in Chinese. Ever since I enter Poly, English has somehow become a main language in my life. It's been a while since I had interacted with Chinese, to think and to express myself in my Mother Tongue.
I'm gonna work hard in maintaining the three languages I had learnt so far, English, Chinese and Korean. Wants to work hard to be able to speak fluently in all three languages.
How did I spend my 4th birthday~ I woke up at 11am and went to collect my The First album at City Hall. Yay to SHINee! :D
Bought lunch and spend the rest of my day in front of my laptop. I came upon a video which is "Star Life Theater" and the 4 particular episodes I had just finished watching is about SNSD. It's about their recent comeback and showing each member's life and thoughts. Their passion for music, their enthusiasm, their friendship bond and their hard work outshines any other things. It's unimaginable to see 9 girls of different characteristics to live harmoniously together but they can, putting aside differences, they work hard together.
I'm inspired by them. Living each day as if my last, I'm not going to wait anymore. I had always love to push everything to 'tomorrow'. I really hope that from tomorrow onwards, no more tomorrow but today. Father taught me a lot of things and this is one of it and I should also learn to share more. There's still so many things in life that I need to perfect it. I have to push muyself to attain it. I will work hard and I will want to be a better person. :)
Hope the next time you see me, I will be an even better Vanessa. :)
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»Numbers
Today I'm gonna talk about the numbers 4, 5 and 9. Coincidentally, the equation is such that 4 + 5 is equals to 9. But I'm gonna talk about the numbers separately~
4! Firstly, today is a big day, 4 years ago, on 10th December 2007, I made a major life changing decision. Accepting Christ! It's been 4 years and never had I once regretted making this choice! Though my life isn't exceptionally good or smooth or a bed of roses but I never had it hard either. Because I truly believe, it's God who had been blessing me, with those prayers.
4 years in Christ, I still have a lifetime to go! And I'm looking forward to it!
But I had been quite inactive in church and bible study lately due to Major Project, projects, quizzes and assignments, but these shall not be an excuse anymore! Gonna be more active! :)
I will continue to serve Christ and I know, I will be ready no matter what happens! ^^
Still have so many self improvements I have to make! :)
5! Definitely goes to my five precious boys! SHINee! :D
This year had been an amazing year because I got to see them! Especially Onew! :D
This year had been an amazing year because I got to see them! Especially Onew! :D
Next time when they come, I will want to be at moshpit! But for now, I'm gonna start, really start saving up because they are making a comeback in Korea soon! People may think that it's a waste of money but so far, my life had been revolving around God, school, family, friends and them! :)
I really want to be with someone like Onew but there's only him that is special in his own ways. I guess it would take an entire lifetime of miracles to make things be right. But I guess, such things will never happen to me but I will continue to hope, believe and everything will be alright. :)
9! Just came back from SNSD concert! Ohgosh! They truly are goddess! So pretty, skinny and flawless! Others may say they are plastic, etc but I don't care. Human beings are subjective, ugly they will say, pretty they will say it's fake. I'm not gonna care about it, I'm immersed in my world of happiness. :D
Thought that I lost my voice but it came back again. :|
Also, 4 consecutive days of happiness! 7th - SHINee Japanese first album titled The First was released. 8th, Onew, Taemin and Key's Barcelona photobook was released, 9th, SNSD concert and lastly, 10th, my 4th years in Christ! :D
Alrights, I'm gonna collect my THE FIRST Album tomorrow! YES! :D
Waiting for my Barcelona photobook to come and also, my Onew style 2012 calendar! :D
Waiting for my Barcelona photobook to come and also, my Onew style 2012 calendar! :D
I'm so happy right now that no words can express the gratitude I had towards God! How I wish I could be more determine and show Him that I'm really am thankful! Father, give me an obedient and understanding heart to do Your wills! :)
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»Stress Breaker
Thursday, December 8, 2011
This week is the last week for this term. Next week will be Term Test week. One day of paper and I'm done! No more Main Exams or anything. But there's 3 group projects to be done over the 2 weeks of break.
The most madness and tedious week is over. Managed to get through it but hopefully my works will be alright!
Going to SNSD Concert tomorrow! Can't wait! But I will be thinking about SHINee concert! Hopefully everything will be alright! Gonna be at moshpit! Hope I won't get squashed!
Time for some relaxation! :)
Boy, only you have this magic to make me fall in love with you again and again.
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»Superman
Monday, December 5, 2011
My superman.
Though it's 4.17 in the morning and I'm only left with less than 2 hours to sleep, I still want to blog. I want to make it a point to update my blog from now on. To make myself aware of how did I spend each day.
Anyways, today's post is about my superman. Yupps, he's my dad. A gift that Father gave me. Why the sudden post about my dad, you may ask. It is because today, I went out with my dad and I had came to realize many things.
My dad, a man of few words. Someone whom when I talked about, tears will start forming. He worked so hard for all his life. Since young, he quit school just to provide for his little siblings, to let them go for further educations. But him? He stopped at Primary 6.
Ever since granny passed away last year. The moment when granny passed away, my dad lost his family. During the funeral, the siblings that he adore so much, disregarded him by not including him in any decision making. I don't know why they did that but my dad, is their eldest brother and yet they did that to him. That moment was really the most difficult time of his life, I can sense that. He never has it easy in his work too, ever since the boss which he had worked for had passed away. The current boss and colleagues now just simply suck. They tried many ways to get rid of my dad because having working for more than 30 years, the pension or whatever it is called, will be a lot of money. They tried to find ways to get my dad to quit on his own. Because he has to provide for us, he never quit. Even through the time when granny passed away, when his colleague verbally insulted him, he lost his cool back then. It's understandable.
My dad had always dote on me. I can sense that and I know that. Therefore I want to do my best to make him proud. Though he may not have a good life in the earlier part, when he was looked down by his own siblings, I want to make him happy at his later part of his life. I want to work hard and earn lots of money not because I want to revenge on my relatives that they looked down on my dad. I want to show them, love and family warmth is more than some shitty money.
Maybe a good thing from it is that my little brother started losing faith in buddhism. He find more assurance in God. I always wonder to myself, I can make people like kpop so easily by influencing them, why can't I do it so easily for Christianity. I think this kind of matter really needs time and need that particular person to really feel God's love for him/her.
My ultimate wish, my parents and my family members and my friends to know God and accept him. Because I really want to reunite with them again in Heaven. Won't it be nice to meet in Heaven again when everything is just pure happiness?
Anyways, my daddy, I love you. Though you seldom speak, but your actions warms me. You always want to spend more time with me but you never force me to, you will always ask me whether do I want to go anywhere with you. I will get the hint, daddy. I will want to stick to you. :) Though there are times when I am mad at you, I really am sorry. Because I know that no one loves me like you do. No one accepts me like you do. I will always remember that when I had troubles, the embrace that you gave me, the pain that you felt and the encouraging words. I had met many kinds of dad(s), to me, you are my superman. Thank you. From now on, I will work even harder to be a better girl to you. :')
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»Sunshine smile
Saturday, December 3, 2011
The sun that shines after a downpour will always leave a magnificent view.
Just like a smile after a setback. Nothing will last forever, so does those pain. With all the love that God gave me, I choose to smile.
The most tedious week of this semester is finally over. I guess the main culprit is the Club and Resort report. It's such a killer, makes me stay up 2 consecutive nights just to finish it. But I don't think the result will be a good one because I don't know how to answer those questions about service strategy, unique selling points, service culture, etc. I don't know how to articulate those thoughts out.
Alrights, two more reports to hand in and I have to prepare for my Term test, which falls on the 13th.
Christmas is approaching. If only the weather is like this during Christmas night. Raining and I will be indoor doing my favourite thing, whatever that is. :)
With all those assignments done, time to slowly pick up the things which I had dropped during the hectic period. Piano, Korean language, I will start forgetting them soon if I don't do revisions. Also, shall tune back those early nights and wake up in the early morning to go for my morning jog.
Life is beautiful because God is here. :)
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