I had been busy uploading pictures for the past two days and now, back to telling the bits and pieces of what happened during the day of the celebration. This post will be long so bear with it. [[=

First thing first, the aces exercise. It was more like a hip-hop dance than an exercise. There's like no sweat. We are down there busy following the dancers and ya, it didnt went well, everyone's all over the place. In the end gt chilled by Mrs Oh. We took our very first photo of the day with our beloved Limama! We were dismissed and off to class we went and changed into our proudest class tee. It's striking too. We took three pictures in the toilet. hahas. With the bear! The bear was the attraction of the day. It was so so big. We walked around the school. Our class participated in all three students, teachers game. Basketball, Soccer and Captains ball. I wanna join basketball but yet, it's only for guys! Man. But, come to think of it, dont think any of the female teachers in the school knows how to play basketball. hahas. It was drizzling and we went back to class for our big breakfast. We hugged the bear so much that Evon and me thought that we both swallowed some of the fur. bleh. We continued taking photos with the bear. Cam whore through out in class and and, seriously, when we were looking for Linan mama, coincidently, Ms Neo, Ms Wong were there too. I can sense that Ms Neo is jealous of Linan mama laa! Her actions and everything. She's leaving you know! Not you.
We took photos with mama. [[=

Went for the concert, our last concert. This year, the class chairmans were to make a scrapbook for the teachers. Zi yun passed the scrapbook to Linan mama. I didnt cry and I saw Sharon, KaiWei, Shermeen, Cherie, KaiLin and Jade WangWang cried, I was stunned. But when I hugged Linan mama, she hugged me tight and I could hear her cry. I could no longer control and tears came rolling down. Every chinese student from our class went to hug mama. Ya, most cried. She was telling us to jiayou and everything. Mrs Oh said that three teachers are leaving and Mama was one of them. Mama say, "My English was not very good. But all I wanted to say, to those I loved and love me..." I didnt remembered the rest of it, we were busy crying. We stood up and applauded for her. Some girls from 2e6 cried too and KaiLin and me cry again when we saw their tears.

Scenes of Linan mama first came to school flooded my mind. I remembered disliking her because of Mr.Teo, our former chinese teacher. The whole class was rebellious, she was really angry with us. There were many times which we made her angry and disappointed in us. I remembered her telling us that she regreted coming here, even though how regretful she is, she had no choice. But when we started to understand her, liking her, she is going to leave us.

To LiNan mama:
MaMa, I'm sorry. Sorry for the many times which we made things hard for you. Sorry for the rebellious me. Sorry for the times which we really dont understand you and make things difficult for you. I'm sorry. Mama, sorry that I dont appreciate the things you had done for me. I wanted to tell you how much my gratitude for you is and how much I love you. But yet, during the time when I hugged you, I was speechless. I dont know what to tell you.
Mama, thank you for the many things you had taught me. Even though you're on sick leave, you still come to school just for us. Thank you mama. There are a lot of things which I wanted to tell you but all come to all, I just wanna say, I Love You.

When someone is here, we just dont appreciate it, it was until they are gone that we realised that they had always been there for us and how much we need them. Now that Li mama had to go back, even though it was just to deliever her baby, I am still worried about her. I remembered how many times which she almost fell down. I'm afraid that she will not take good care of herself. I'm worried. But, maybe it is the best way that she had to go back to China. She had said that she might not be back in Junyuan. But, wherever she will be, I still hope the best in her and hope that she will always take really good care of herself. She's leaving on the 9th of September, her flight is 10am and yet, I'm having my examination. I really wish to be able to send her off. There's still a lot of things which I wanna tell her. I will miss her forever and ever. Memories with her will always be etched deep in my heart.

"Goodbye..."




These are the photos taken. Actually there's more but yet, i will only upload these few. [=
Today spent the whole day accepting photos. hahas. I didnt study. Monday, gonna go school and study at Cherie's house. I wanna eat pasta!

As you cann see from my "darlinks" section, there's two more links added up. One is class 4e4'08 blog, made by my lovely monster Evon. And and, I had made a BianTai blog! hahas. [[=

"One week holiday... I so gonna........."







Peepo! These are the photos I've got from Evon! Thanks Evon Monster! There's still more which I'd not got my hands on. I will take from Shermeen jiejie and Cherie jie den I will upload it here. [=

First Photo: The Day started off with us taking photo with LiNan mama while we're all waiting for the mass exercise to start.

Second Photo: He's Guang Sheng. I've played basketball with him once. He's a guy whom Evon and me are mad about. =X opps. hahas. He's Sec2, he looks like a Sec3 student to us. When we saw him wearing short pants and black shoe, we were taken aback. hahas.

Third Photo: Guang Sheng taking photo with the grp of us. [=

Forth Photo: Guang Sheng and his so called twin, Iqbal.

Fifth Photo: Our beloved English Teacher, Mdm Saleha! [[=

Sixth Photo: Ms Zaleha! One of the many teachers whom I adored. [[= Thanks for believing in me always! [=

Seventh Photo: The four of us! The school was almost vacant. The teachers had left for their hightea. hahas.

Eighth Photo: Still the four of us. We were at the West CC's hall's stage. Photo taken by MinNing.

Ninth Photo: Evon and me. [[=

Tenth Photo: Sharon and me. [[=

Eleventh Photo: The four of us in the West CC lift. [[=

Twelveth Photo: Class of 4e4'08! [[=

Thirtenth Photo: 4e4! [[=

Fourteenth Photo: Us with Mrs. Oh. =}

Fifteenth Photo: That's my name. [[= Vanessa.

"I so so gonna miss LiNan Mama, Ms Zaleha, Mdm Saleha, Mr.Ivan Tan, Mrs Sharon Tan, Ms Neo, Mdm Lee, Mdm Fara and those who had taught me. LiNan mama, dont cry anymore. But yet, I felt much better after crying today. [[="

Happy Teachers' Day in advanced. [[=

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Hey peepo. Today is Teachers' Day Celebration and we wore our class tee throughout the concert! wohoo. [= Our class tee is the nicest of all! It's striking too. [=

As usual, we took lots of photos and I'll upload them up here till I've got them. [=
Concert was great, the whole class almost cried. When ZiYun pass the card to LiNan mama, I saw kaiwei they all crying den I was not crying and I cried when I hugged mama. She was telling me to jiayou for the rest of the subjects and everything and I cried. This is the first time I cried till so crazy. I dont know when will I see her again. I really wish that we will still be able to stay in contact. I cried again when she went up to the stage. Man. I will miss you mama. [=
Mama's flying off at 9 September, 10am. Gt prelims or else I will skip school.

Went off when almost everyone in school had left. Was outside loitering and the guy cutting the grass was so so evil. He cut the grass and the grass hit my leg, causing it to bleed. ]=
hahas. Went Mac and we cam-whore again. hahas. [=

Played basketball! [=

"Many memories made, but, I wanna make more. [="

"Ever wonder what will it be like if time is reversible?"

Labels: Take care always

What the. School's really getting on my nerves. The most maddening thing is like they changed our co-form! To a teacher whom she had never taught me before. I believe her name is Ms Wong. She's a teacher who teaches Chemistry but yet, how can they replace LiNan mama! Mama is like leaving in a few days time and yet they replaced her! grrr.
And and tomorrow suppose to be a special day, Teachers' Day celebration and yet we cant wear class tee! I love me class tee! It looks so nice :D

Anyways, I shall start studying cause prelims the week after september holiday. I was sad that I could not send LiNan mama off. I will miss her... ]=

"What if time is reversible?"

Yawns... This week was quite an exhausting week, even though it had not ended yet. But I think it had been raining consecutively for the past few days.

hmms... Things had sort of cleared. I'm jubilated. hahas. Nothing more to say. hahas.

Today's PE was fun. Volleyball. [=
We had our class photo today. It was quite unique. We had formal, informal and also, the newest one, some sort of "wedding" photos. hahas. The photographer was saying that this year is the last year so we must make it nice. Sort of sad when that was mentioned. But, I enjoyed every moment spend with 4e4. [=
Tmr! Class Tee! wohoo. I hope it will turn out nice. [=
I also hope that Friday we will all enjoy ourselves.

I hugged LiNan mama today. I do not dare to hug her tight, afraid to hurt her baby and her. When I learned that she had slip and fell yesterday, I was very worried. She's going back to China on 8th September. It was very saddening that we could not go. It was our Emaths Prelims. Today, during Mother Tongue lesson, I didnt went out. I stayed in class cause this is the last lesson for us to be with LiNan mama. I will miss her. I will. Man, why does time pass so fast.

"I will learn to take things step by step. Time to let go... maybe, just maybe..."

It was like so fast, this week is already the last week of term 3. But, things aint as smooth as ever. Even KaiLin noticed the changes that was happening. I'm seriously sorry that if I had really neglected any of you. Just that these few days were just shitty.

Morning, went to school. I almost cried during national anthem. Something seriously unpleasant happens. Seriously stunned me and caught me off guard. There is no more I could say. No more. This year, maybe because of the years that we had spend together too long, friction started. Friendship problems are always the problems that disheartened me. I admit that I am always thinking too far away but I cant pretend that nothing is going to happen. If I keep thinking that none of the things happening is real, I might as well go blind. Faking innocence is of no use. No use. Hence, I keep crying this year. Like baby like that. eeks. so sucky.

But all I could say is sorry. I hope friends, you all will bear with me. Sorry that I'm not being a good enough friend. Sorry.

"I've got a lot to say, but I dont know what to say and how to start saying... Maybe I should keep mum and stop disturbing u..."

Wohoo. I had been blogging consecutively for these few days, it's not a good thing though.

Anyways, gonna change my tone abit. Something seriously is wrong these few days. Seriously, I really cannot take it anymore. Other than family, friends are my next closest kins. But, there's like something in between the few of us, even though it might not concern me but looking at the rate things are going, things are seriously going wrong.

At the start of the day, things aint going well with my headache acting up. Things started decelerates when there's friction occuring. I had always prayed for being able to have wisdom to counsol people. But rather, today I had found out that I am better being a listening ear. [=

Anyways, I will be drowning myself with studyings from today onwards, I do not want to be thinking of some things which I dont feel like thinking. Maybe sometimes, running away from a situation for awhile do helps.

"Constantly asking myself, am I wrong in making the judgement. I'm suffering seeing things going on like that. Maybe I should give up and..."

Twilight was seriously the best book I've ever come across. Even though I'm not even half way through it, just by reading the first few pages had already successfully captivated my heart. Ever wonder, if there's someone out there, knowing each and every movements of yours and was worried about you the moment you left his/her sight. It may be creepy but seriously, Stephanie Meyer had wrote the story line till it was superb. Just by reading it, I'm really envied that kind of romance Edward and Isabella had between each other. But in real life, there's nothing like those.
They like each other and they knew it. Yet, Edward was afraid to hurt her, he want to protect her. Edward was a vampire, he does not want Isabella to be drained by him. But yet, something incredulous can happen between them is seriously the kind of fairy tale kind of story.

Oh well, just have to slowly admire the book. hahas.

I cant believe that you're quitting. You are doing fine. I dont know what struggles you have in you. But I know that the post was given to you because you are capable of it. I know I have no rights to say it but, why? why do you keep degrading yourself?

"It had been raining these few days. Should my heart be raining too?"

Today went to Tampines Mall with my BianTai-ians, Evon and Cherie. I thought that it will only be awhile and therefore told my mum that I will be back home before she went to work but in the end, I didnt. But one good news is, we are done with the Class Tee-Shirt! [= The designs were done, only left sending for printing and collecting the money and the shirt and wearing it on Teachers' Day. [= It was nice, and I hope that the class will co-operate by giving us the money on monday. We went to look for Teachers' Day present afterward and went to lovely land. It was my most favourite place after it was located there. It had been my childhood dream to have lots of bears and having a bear land. [= Bears are the most faithful friend, I can confide to them, since young, I tell them my problems, I cried, I shared my joys with them. Even until now, I still hug a bear at night. hahas.

I reached home late, mum's not really happy abt it. Dad didnt scold or anything, Thank God. I could not go to church tmr, due to today's incident. ]= I didnt manage to do any homeworks today. So tmr had to rush for it. I dont feel like sleeping tonight. There were times when I dont feel like sleeping. Either I'm too hyper to sleep or I'm just feeling down.

As I was walking down my memory lane yesterday, I had realised that I had gain so much yet lose much too. So i'm back to square one. And as I think through, it had been a hard and rough jouney. I was a bad girl when I'm in Sec1. A seriously bad girl which many dislikes. But I think I had change when I came to Sec3. I began to learn to look at things from other people's kind of perspective. I no longer am a self-centered girl which I used to be. Maybe I am still one now, just that I didnt realised. hahas. I really want to know how my friends felt about me, whether good or bad. I admit, I'm nowhere near a good friend. I dont stay long with friends. I switch friends quite often. I tend to switch from this to the other but, I've got no intention of neglecting anyone. The heartbreaking times which I had went through, the fun times I had went through, the feelings which I had never felt before, all happens when I was in Sec3 and 4. Also, I had thought about the people whom I had liked to those whom I dont really like. I had thought through, I should not be hating any of them, even though I had been showing my dislike for them, but I try to understand them more. I promise not to bad-mouthed them anymore, no i will not. I will try. [=
As I think about the next few months, I was near to tears. I let no tears escape. I held on tight, I will remain as the dense and translucent cloud on the sky, not going to rain yet. In less than two months, the big O is coming and it shall end fast, at a blink of an eye. And this year will end gracefully. Goodbye to my friends, goodbye to my school, goodbye to my teachers, and many things. I dont want to lose contact with my friends. Whether will i end up in JC or Poly, I am sure that I will need a long long time to settle myself down. I could never get use to Poly life, simply because everyone's different. From good to bad, true to hyprocritical. Mum always told me, I cant judge a person by looks, the society is a very dangerous place to be. If I have the power, I will let everything stop, because I like the way it is now. I have my friends, my fun and everything that I had ever wanted. Neither will I be able to adapt to JC life, studying is the priority. I had been a girl who would slack at the slightest chance I could catch. Anyways, I think that I will live my life as it is now, no matter what will happen will worry on its own, things will fall into place as time goes by. My sonjourn in Junyuan, shall be a good one. [=

"Even though nothing last forever, I love the way it is now. [= Dont you think so?"

Today morning, I catapulted up the bed upon realising that it was 9.27am. I thought that I was late for school. It was then I realised that I didnt have to attend school today in the morning. I looked out of the window and found that it was raining outside. That explains why it was so nice to sleep. Went to bathe, had my breakfast and off to MacDonalds. I was late. When I arrived, Kok Soon and Sharon were already there. Started studying and can't get any informations into my brain. I was pinning most of my hopes on the Conflict of Sri Lanka and Northern Ireland. Everone's saying that this will surely come out but it didnt! Out of 5 themes, I studied 2themes. I was really lucky that one of the two themes came out! Bonding Singapore. There was diplomacy and deterrance and globalisation as well. I really thank God that it was bonding Singapore that came out. SBQ was quite ok. I didnt get to finish question 1d. 8 marks gone like that.
Shermeen came and Pris came after her. Had lunch and Sharon showed Pris the photo and Pris said shermeen and sharon looked like rabbits. hahas. Walked back to school. It was drizzling slightly.
While I was doing the SS, being a left hander, my left hand should be aching, but instead, my right hand turned numbed. I was staring at my hand and wondering, which hand is the one that is working. hahas.

After the SS Prelim, we went TM. While we are walking out of school with Ms Li Nam. She was chasing after the bus while we ran after her, worried that she will slip and fall. She's going back on 8September to give birth. I will miss her. She will only be back next yr, which means I could not see her. After the Prelims, we no longer need to go back to school anymore. We had a month study break. But think I'm going back to school to study. Ms Li Nam told us the wonders of having a baby. She had told us that when you use your fingers to poke the baby, there will be movements from the baby. hahas. And I had learnt a lot of the baby's true facts. It was so cool, yet tiring for the mother. But having a life in you, really was a great feeling. Ms Li Nam was all smiles when she was telling us abt her baby. I really hope that her baby will grow up healthly and be filial towards her mum. [=

Twilight is really a good book! I could continue reading it not wanting to stop. There's three more books, I hope I could save up and buy all four books. But each book is costly. It's a story about a girl name Isabella Swan, she moved to Forks to live with her dad and she met a guy, Edward Cullen in her school, he was a vampire. It was a romance novel. I really wonder what their ending will be. I heard from Shermeen JieJie that Edward proposes to Isabella and the ending she havent read yet. So cool. [=

"Letting go in life is inevitable. Sometimes, letting go someone you love is also another way of loving someone. So, whether you wanna let go or not, it's up to you. Jiayou, ok? [="

Today's PE was quite ok. I've always look forward to PE lesson but think nowadays dont really have the looking forward feeling. PE had turned into such a lesson that we are all practically slacking for those who do not enjoy soccer. Most of the boys were playing happily while the girls were either playing volleyball or soccer. But, next term! Basketball court shall be ours and I will once again look forward to PE! [=

During recess, something that happens really really some sort of spoilt my day. I no longer could face this particular someone with the same normal feeling. I hate myself for being such a meanie. arghh. Not gonna talk abt it anymore. I think sooner or later, friction will happen.

Mother Tongue lesson was quite ok, didnt do much. Was outside at the study corner. Sean was singing and slacking. He's making the rest of us unable to concentrate though. hahas. History lesson, normal things, SBQ. Went back to class for Sexuality Talk. It was a kind of forum where we can ask questions, clear our doubt. I cleared my doubt abt something. haha. Not only me wanted to know, ok! hahas.

After school, Sharon wanna eat Bento so Evon and me go with her. I was scared by the coffin laa! It was put on the marble table just like that. It was like a box, I thought what it was then Sharon told me it's a coffin, I got scared. Den we were walking, Sharon and me was still calming our nerves. Evon suddenly look up or stop, I've forgotten. Sharon was scared cause she thought Evon saw a ghost. hahas. I thought there's a corpse at the tree. Stupid me. hahas. I ate my apple pie for lunch. wohoo! I'm still calming my nerves la! Den i went to the toilet and Evon scared me! hahas. arghh. [=

Went to tuition 30minutes earlier. Did tests and as usual, failed. Anyways, I really hope I could pass my Amaths Prelim with flying colours. [= My friends too! [=
I ate apple pie again. With Shermeen. Thanks JieJie! We were queing up when something amusing happens. I was looking at the person in front of me, seeing that the logo was at the back and I told Shermeen that the person might be wearing the shirt the wrong side den Shermeen was thinking that the person had something wrong and we started laughing. Shermeen went to look at the guy and she told me, "you know what? He's my cousin." I was stunned. hahahahas. Such coincidence! hahahs. He treated me apple pie. Thanks! Even though I laughed at you. =P

We were waiting for the bus 293 to come when we were thinking about what happens in sch. Shermeen was saying that there was a time when she and WeiLing came across a newspaper report that a guy in uni because played computer game too much and went crazy and they started saying what if one day willy also play too much computer games and brought a knife to school. hahas. Sharon was saying that Louis will be the first to get chop on the head! hahaha. Crap la, the four of us. hahas.

Den, Home Sweet Home. [=

"Until the time is ripe..."

Today, was quite ok. Even though I dont feel really happy. Grandma's sick and was quite worried. Gonna go grandma hse later. During Chem lesson, I almost cried after Ms Zaleha talked to me. Sort of, she asked me what happen to my result, didnt I study. I told her I studied and I dont understand the questions. She said I could do better. Yes, I will do better.

"Just because of other's results better than you, you starts getting jealous and saying things that is so sacarstic, so hurtful. Do you know people are tolerating you. I know I am nowhere better but just that, your words often hurts. I could tolerate you but not others. All I could do was to tell them to bear with you because I knew you mean no harm. But, why must you be getting so sacarstic and started stabbing them at their backs. You appears to be so nice to them, but your saying bad things abt them. I knew that you said me once behind my back. So what? I dont care. Whatever you wanted to say, I'll just let you say. I dont know is it true that you had been copying my friend's test answers. She told me it does not happens once, but twice. Forget it."

Anyways, I miss apple pie.

"One day.. I shall want to be .... ..."

I'm famished. Dad didnt bought me dinner because of a Ping Pong match. Well, Singapore got Silver. Congrats. [=
Went to church today. I'm happy that in the morning, my didi msg-ed me and address me jiejie with block letters! hahas.
The bus drove off when I reached downstair! I waited very very long for the next one. It came at 8.28am. I'm late. Super duper late.
I've learnt new things today. It's awesome. The preacher was humorous. Time indeed flew past fast. hahas.

Went to TM and bought KaiLin's present. I was carrying a big box with me and I walked and walked around TM. I was dying in there! I seriously aint cut out for being a shopper.
Tmr gonna bring along a big big box along with me and tmr's bag is heavy! Well, the priority is whether will KaiLin like the present not though. [=

Tmr's another day. Another week closer to O lvl. And also another day, leaving sch soon. There's still like so much for me to do in the sch. Dont really feel like leaving sch.

"After I left school, will I be forgotten?"

Today was a normal day. I didnt go BS today, was kinda sad abt it. I was lacking sleep and I'm seriously tired and I had a dizzy spell today and thus, was unable to get out of bed. Think I had found out the sources of where my headaches occurs. Loud noises, Handphones near me when I'm sleeping, tonnes of studying to do and so on and so forth. I found panadols in the cupboard today and I ate one. Was feeling better after a panadol.

I studied today. hehe. Today's weather was quite cooling. It was raining quite heavily and there's lightning! I dont like! But the weather after the rain was quite cooling. [=

I had nothing to blog though. Going church tmr and gotto buy kailin's present. I've got no idea how big the eeyore is gonna be. I've only got $30 with me and I've got no money to fork out for those who havent give me the money. There's still like cake and everything. man. I dont like to plan this kind of thing. But since this is the last yr we're celebrating each other's birthday, gonna make it the best of it.

"I'm so sorry that I'm not a good counsilor that will counsol you. I dont know what to say. I'm sorry that i cant make you feel better. I'm sorry. But I will learn the technique of counsilling ppl. So next time I hope I will be able to make you feel better. I'm sorry"

Heyyo peepo. It's finally over. But think I gonna flunk my Eng Paper 2. It's kinda badly done. When I was reading through the questions I cant help feeling happy because I thought that it was gonna be an easy compre and that there's like only one passage to read! But, I'm wrong. Even though the questions are quite direct, the passage does not give a clear and obvious answer! I read so many so many times that in the end, I ended up tikam-ing. hahas. Compo was quite ok, section 2 is report writing.
The most unlucky thing is! I do my Paper 1 halfway and I stomache. I thought abt yesterday's mixed sauce. eeks! Let me tell you what sauce did my wonderful friends mixed. There's Sweet and something sauce, Barbecue sauce, Tomato sauce, Garlic chilli sauce, myonnise, curry sauce, salt, sugar, creamer and black pepper. It was so pain and unbearable that I could think of nothing and had no strength to write. I was breaking out in cold sweat and ya, pain. But in the end, I figured out that it was not the sauces, cause they were all edible. It was my gastric pain. After that, when I was doing my paper 2, I started to headache! Man, one after another. hahas.
Oral! I was so nervous that I stammered and showed no initiative in the conversation part. But, I'm happy that I could speak more of the picture than normal practises. [=

Anyways, today after the papers, I witnessed another fight. Louis and JianXin. Heard that it was JianXin who started hitting Louis and they started throwing fists at each other and shouting, "come la! I scared you ah! You dog! come la!" I was stunned and lucky that no teachers were around or else I dont know what will happen.

Anyways, everything's over. Going back to school tmr. BS! Long time no BS already. Oh ya, there's still KaiLin's present to be bought. No one's free tmr! And I dont wanna give her belated birthday present. hahas. Guess I will go on my own. [=

"I will never ever give up because I knew that there's always people who will help me along the way. Even if I fall, I will not be afraid. [="

Ok, today I went to sch feeling down, super duper uper down. I should be happy cause it's KaiWei's birthday. But I managed to forced out a happy smile. Sometimes, I'm quite happy with myself because I could hide my emotions especially when I'm sad. So people tends to only be able to look at my happy side. Today morning, the sec4 and 5s gt chided by Mdm Saleha for the Eng Oral that had started two days ago. She said that our Eng language were super duper bad. Our sentence struture and everything were like dont know what. Some annoymous girl cried yesterday and causing the group I am in to shift venue to Eureka. Min Ning said when she finished her oral the time is about 4 plus so I think I will finish about the same time as her. When we were being chided, I sort of cried. Suddenly felt so emotionally drained, I started to panic for my Oral and felt really really unprepared. Even though we had been given so many practises yet I will still feel nervous at the sight of the examiners. Breaking out in cold sweats, speaking too fast, tongue tied, all symptoms of nervousness will start surfacing.

Even though I had started studying a month or two ago, those informations were not in my head. I had forgotten every single thing that I had studied. And I'm not disciplined enough, I keep on dragging and dragging and not wanting to study. I seriously hate myself for being stupid. Why continue taking pure sciences when I know that I will end up failing flat. Like what WenSu had said, "Last time say want work hard together on pure sciences, even if drop also drop together, now I've dropped to combined science you still continue taking pure science, see la, now suffer already, who to blame?" Had been thinking this time and again. I seriously felt so dumb. I dont major in sciences nor maths. I still think that I could score well. What shit is that! Vanessa Quek, you're seriously a dumbo laa! I felt like scolding colourful words at myself.
There's really not much time left and I had to restudy everything. Think I really should not be acting smart next time round. "I can score well if I study. Shit you man, vanessa" I dont even have the discipline to study. Score well? Day Dream!

Anyways, tmr is English Day for me. There's English Prelim in the morning and Eng Oral in the afternoon. Just wish me luck. Just a C5 will be great. If I could, I hope I could get a B.

"Tired of studying. I will be more discipline from now on. I promise."

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Heyyo peepo! I'm seriously seriously jubilated! Got back my cheena result. I've got an A2, when I first saw it I felt like jumping for joy but I restrain myself from doing so. But I still got the urge to laugh out LOUD. =D So, pls bear with me if you think I'm too proud. Here goes, MUAHAHAHA! :D
I never expected myself to get an A2 because of my screwed up oral but I've got a distinction. Maybe the examiner's not that bad though. [=
Think I really must thank God for it! I've been praying hard for my results and also for my friends' results. Really must thank God! [= AMEN!
Anyways, had thought abt whether should I retake, so I not gonna retake cause I wanna focus more on my sciences and amaths. And and I dont have to take chinese prelim. [=
Anyways, all to these words. I'm jubilated, more than jubilated. [=

For those who didnt get the result which they desire:
Dont give up! There's still one more! I know what I say is of no use because practically saying I'm not the one retaking and whatever I say is nothing. But if there's something I could do to make you cheer up, I will do it! You can beat me up or scold me to vent your anger or anything. Just say and I'll be there for you! [= Must jiayou for your coming papers and I will be praying for you all, always think that God is by your side, He is cheering you on! [= (P.S. Vanessa's here too!) [=

To my dearest Pris:
I dont know if you will be reading this, but I really think that you deserve the A1! Congratulations! Jiayou jiayou jiayou! Continue to jiayou! Will be there for you if you need help! [=

To my dearest Shermeen jiejie:
I know that people are saying that it's unbelievable that you gt an A2 but it's true! hahas. JieJie, you rock girl! hahahs. But hor, you have to treat ting ting swensens. hahas. But its worth it! hahas. Jiayou JieJie! [=

To my dear friend:
I know you felt terrible. But I hope you will realised that the oral invigilator is not bias towards those who gt distinction and I can confirm that the teacher is not giving you a pass just because she doesnt like you. There's always someone stronger than us in any aspect of our life. We cant always be the top in life. Also, it's believable that people can get A even if you think that he/she is weak in chinese. Anything is possible. As long as you work hard, I believe you too, could get good grades. I've been your friend for years already and I think that you are smart. You have the potential to go into a JC. Even there's time which I think that I'm a nothing when compared to you. Even you say on your own, your strongest sub now is Chem. Indeed, your sciences and maths are always the best. Better than me. I admit defeat. But I dont want to compete with you, because I know that I will end up losing. The reason that I'm not competing with you is because I think that, why compete when I know that I will end up losing and making myself so angry and upset. I will just do my best in whatever I do and I know that I had given my best and that's the most important of all. So, I hope you will know that nothing stays the same always. There's always ups and downs. I truly treasure the friendship between us and there were times that I want to just give up our friendship but I know that I cant because I know that you are afraid of being alone. If I leave you, what abt you? Its alright if you say me, but it's not alright if you say others especially my other friends.

Anyways, all is over. I'm glad that we didnt squabble or quarrel or have a fight. I'm proud of you, Vanessa. [=
Anyways, think my blog post is horrible today. My eng was like mixing here and there. hahas. Sorry if there's a lot of gramatical mistakes. [=

"Yea, I owe you. hahas. [="

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Hello peepo. My finger tips were all numb now. Its always numb after a game of basketball and I hate the numbness. Anyways, today was fun. Met a new friend. His name is Guang Sheng. I think. hahas. It was quite fun today despite the number of ppl who had came.

Anyways, school is starting tmr and MT result is out tmr and I gonna pray hard for all of my friends. Hope they will get the results that they wanted.

Cleaned BaoBao's cage and hope he likes it. [=
hmms.. dont really have things to blog abt anymore. So, byes. [=

"It does not matter what the ending result will be, what matters the most is the process." [=

Vanessa Quek Yan Lin is being a baddie here. She didnt go to grandma hse AGAIN! But she vowed to go next week because her grandma missed her. Yea, I miss you too, grandma.

hahas. I'm being crappy here. It's been two days since I step out of my house. I didnt go out yesterday and today too. I think I'm not gonna have dinner because I dont feel like it and lazy to go out. But but I wan apple pie. [= I've found someone to eat with me but the time and place is not yet settled.

Basketball tmr and hope it doesnt rain and ya, hope its fun. Am watching Olympic matches after Olympics. I watched archery and gymnastic today. Archery, Korea was good. Despite the long distances, the archer could got a perfect 10 out of it. If it was me, I think the arrow will fly to nowhere and end up at someone else's butt! [=
Gymnastic. Those girls were pretty and brave despite the young age of theirs. There was this China girl which caught my attention. The aerobic styles were perfect and the coordinations were great but but at the last moment, she loses her grip and fall downnnnn! It was really a pity but her courage touched me. She did not cry on the spot. She got up and do it again. But after that, she cried. I remembered her name, she is He KeXin.
There were somersaults and a lot of spinning and turning, it left me with a wide opened mouth. hahas. [=

Well, talk about courage, I'm gonna nag again. hahas.
Life's full of obstacles. Life aint simple as ABCs or 123s. Life is full of paths and rocky situation. It depends on how you look at your life. Everyone will fell down on the way but if there's a helping hand to pick you up, it will help. No matter who the person is, let your heart be full of gratefullness towards that person, because he/she enters your life and let you see the light when you are at the most helpless and weak situation. Also, God is there for us, no matter what happens. He plans our life no matter good or bad. He leads us. There were times when I felt down but I will always remember His teachings, rejoice in whatever circumstances. Even if the whole world lets you down, never be discourage. You must show to others that you are happy even if there's no one to support you. Dont be afraid to stand up for what you think is right even if others loathes you. When there's someone who do not support you, there's always someone who will support you all the way till the end. Never be discourage.
I admit that I'm not feeling really happy now. I told others to rejoice in whatever circumstances but me, myself is not doing it. I'm trying to stay optimistic. I'm learning to be happy and rejoice. Every one learns. In the path of whatever thing I am facing now, I fell down. The helping hand which I once had, is the problem I am facing now. To make the helping hand to be my helping hand again, I've got to pray. I pray that everything will be back to the normal state. At least, I pray for the feelings to be real again. The End. [=

"Dont be afraid to stand up for what you think is right even if others loathes you. When there's someone who dont supports you, there's always someone who will support you all the way till the end." 'Yes, I've got it. Thanks. [='

Hey people. Happy National Day. [=

Today I spent the whole day in and out of my room. In the room, doing my homework. I wanted to finish every single homeworks by today! But was distracted laaa! hahas. I was out of my room watching the Olympic. Volleyball. hahas. It was nice! Their servings, spikes and everything. Even the players were tall tall people. There's like a few channels for me to select. There's gymanisium, volleyball, beach volleyball, soccer, basketball! swimming. I watched volleyball because I dont like watching basketball, I enjoy playing it.

I dont know if I should be happy about monday's basketball playing or not. When I was asked by monster whether if I wanna play basketball on monday, I'm elated. But, dont feel like playing anymore after some thing happens. I know that O levels' approaching or rather, Prelims. We should be concentrating on studying so BianTai is not full. BianTai is always not full. I know that not everyone is free. Not everyone is like me, nonchalent about studying. I know I know. I keep thinking that I should not be feeling like that but just cant help feeling sad about it. I cant help thinking that grouping BianTai might be a mistake. I know I'm selfish, I should be more understanding. Sorry people, sorry BianTai. I'm sorry.

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I'm elated! I'm playing basketball on mon! Yes! Amen! Now just hope that the weather's fine and the court got no people! Then, everything's settle! [= If you wanna come, 11am at Central Park Basketball court. [=

Anyways, I had a lot of fun today. Not the school's programmes! But the people I had encountered and I saw Mrs Quek! I miss her a lot! But too bad, I didnt manage to see benny! man! hahas. Cherie say he's still the same with his big big nose and everything. hahas. Anyways, well done girls! Three Cheers! [=

Went Tm with my BianTai C,E,P and S. [=
Seriously saying, I cant go shopping. My leg started to ache after less than 30mins. :) hahas.
Was playing the blocks that were given to us by the school. It was fun. hahas. It's good at using my brain juices. hahas.

Went lan shop with sharon. It's a place where there's a lot of people sitting in front of the computer screen and playing their favourite computer game. Quite fun, I think. (:

Send sharon to small mac and i walked home. (:

"It's not the same laa!):"

Heyyo peepo! I walked under the big big rain just now! I was totally drenched and and I had not bathe yet. hahas. Think I will not be sick cause cause, I just recovered from my sickness. I didnt go to tuition today. Cause it's raining and mum say dont go.

Tmr's national day celebration yet yet, we are only allowed to wear school half uni! No red tee! And and! we got no concert to watch! There's only 10 representative from each class and it's only for sec1s to 3s! Sec 4s gonna be rag-and-bone people which is also known as garang guni.

Today's last practice for the national day rehearsal. Really happy for my juniors and hope they will rest well after the parade.

I'm gonna study and also find one day to play basketball. [=

School was alright and have a lot of holiday homeworks and I think I gonna be dying of doing homeworks! English, Amaths, Chemistry, History blah blah blah. [=

"It's ok if others dont listen to you. Try it again and again until they feel guilty abt not listening to you! Jiayou!"

I could not resist the temptation of using the com, so i'm using it now instead of studying. I should be study the rise of Hitler yet I could get none of the informations into my head. There's gonna be a history test tmr and Emaths and Chem test on Thurs. Gonna be rag-and-bone girl for 1 hr on Friday. tehee.

Anyways, I think my lifespan had been cut short due to the massive headaches I had been having since last Friday. I believed that there's no need to go to see the doc, self-medication helps too. My sore throat was cured, thanks to my honey and lemon stepsil, even though it tastes yucky. eeeks!

I had been eating panadols after panadols, but I'm being good today, I gave my one and only panadol to my beloved junior, I cant stand seeing my junior sick. I gave up my panadol to her, even though the headache comes and goes today, I'm happy that I managed to stop thinking about the headaches.

Today's my mum's birthday, Happy Birthday, Mummy! I love you! [=

The whole class was going to be sick! The cold bug had been spreading and spreading and I'm glad that mine is almost over, I cant stand the feeling of being sick anymore. Anyways, I love my voice now. It sounds nice. [=

These few days were quite ok, my oral was over. Finally! When it was my turn, I had the urge to run away, leaving Mr.Vanan stunned. [= But I didnt, I managed to go through each components. Thank God. [=

Anyways, these few days had been thinking, what if the world is ending in just a few more days, I know it's stupid to think of this instead of focusing on my studies but, everyone had to die sooner or later and life's unpredictable. What if I just dropped dead tmr? Choy! But it's possible. But I will quite regret leaving because I still haven tell my friends that I really love them a lot! and I will never forget them. They all have a place in my tiny winny heart, and I love Them! Everyone of them! [= I also havent tell my family that I love them. Anyways, I love everyone and everything. [=
Anyways, I love you, to everyone of my friends and everyone who are reading my post. [= You are indeed someone special to me! [=
And and, I still havent satisfy my basketball cravings! Just a few days more and I will be able to play! [=

Gonna go study my History! Hitler, here I come! [= hahas.

"Panadols, tissue papers, bottles of water and lots of love is just what i wanted. [="

Remember the last post which I said that I wont be sick or will not want to be sick? Well, for some unknown reason, I started having sore throat and headache and I had the urge to vomit now and then after having my meal. Even now, it seems like the food is stuck at the throat there, I cant vomit it out.

I didnt study today, I only did my homeworks. That's the problem with being sick, I will end up not studying. I am seriously tired of studying. With truck loads of problems I cant seem to concentrate on the things which should be done. I wanted to play basketball. My mum dont allow. She say that I cant go out because I'm having a sore throat. She wants me to stay at home. I drank a lot of water therefore ended up visiting the toilet a lot of time.

Think I'm not going grandma hse tmr. Gonna study finish everything which I had planned to study.

Yoohoo peepo. It's August already. That's like fast? What can I say? Standing by, looking the world go by. I'm happy, because I managed to control myself to not use the com for like 2 days? Yea, two days. It's Friday today and I'm free to use it as long as I could. Nowadays, people are falling sick yet I'm not. I don't think I will be sick and I wont want to be sick. But now, there's like something stuck on my throat, making it very itchy. eeek!

Gonna have another English Oral on monday again! My invigilator is Mr.Vanan! But I'm lucky that my invigilator is not Mrs.Oh. phew. I don't wanna go to the Principal office to have my oral! Talked about Mr.Vanan, the school said that the teachers will be checking the girls' hair! Man, my fringe confirm cannot pass.

Ok, NDP training was okay today. Sort of? Seeing my juniors standing under the hot scorching sun, really was heartpain, there's nothing I could do to help them but help them to refill their empty water bottles. Anyways, to my dearest laogong gong, cheer up ya? [=

This week, not really a good week. Been feeling down but managed to have a smile whenever I go. Doing classwork, cried in class. I was thinking that I should have dropped both my pure sciences and also my Amaths. Also, there's other things too. Shall not say about it.

Anyways, I love Chip and Dale! [= hahas.

Talk about ChipAndDale, I realised I like it because yesterday, went TM with Monster Evon, Sharon, Cherie and Alien KaiLin. Was searching for present with KaiLin for her junior. I saw ChipAndDale and suddenly had a feeling that yes, I love chip and dale. [=

Talked about KaiLin, we are saying that we are seeing so many couples nowadays. Love is in the air? I dont know. hahas. I was walking to school on Thursday and I saw a total of 3 couples, all sec4. They look sweet. [=

"Yes, I'm jealous that you are talking to her."

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Hello,
I am Vanessa Quek!


I blog to pen down my thoughts and also to remember the important milestones in my life!

I'm someone who has faith in God and the God within me!

I'm working hard to be in likeness to Christ! Be radical for Him! Giving Him the best years of my life!

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