Usually the last day of the year I will be posting up a long long post cause it's Thanksgiving Day. But then, guess I'm not going to do that this year. haha. Cause I'm hooked to the teevee. hehe. Watching Channel 54, Taiwan's way of celebrating their New Year. Concert. haha.

Anyways, last day of 2009, how did I spent it? Hmmms. Well, went to check out the garden terrace. We went there via bike. My first time riding the park connector. It's fun! Especially the slope! hehe. Great workout. hahaha.

Well, looking back at this year, everything seems to pass by so fast. Maybe because we just started school at April. I had gained a lot and lose quite a lot. Gained is like, gaining new friends, gaining more knowledge of God. :) Everything that happened will always be kept noted down in my diary. :) As for unhappy stuff, I'm not going to think about it anymore because I will just leave it to God. No point worrying over bad things. :)

New year's resolutions! Hmmms. Sharon had her's. haha. For me, I think I will keep it simple and sweet. haha.

"Cherish everyone in my life; Walk the talk; listen to God(Very important!); Study hard and last but not least, Love everyone that God had placed in my life. :)"
I had made mine, had you? :)
Ohoh! Buy a pair of Chip and Dale for myself! haha. ;P

2010 is coming in just another 30mins. :)
It will be a better year, I believe. :)



Guess it's been quite a while since I last blogged. Hmmms. These few days were ok. But yet, still not really good. Firstly, it's results. I knew I could do better. But still, I think my gpa is going to drop a lot. HCDE is 5 credit units yet that is my worst subject. I have no talent for art. haha. As for Maths, I didnt really do well for it. Overall, everything drops and I got to work harder.

Projects are coming in. IntHT presentation and report due date is coming. PSPS due date is coming too. Then there's Public Speaking. I can't find a partner. :( Then there's HCDE.

Everything's going to be all right. :)
Not going to think about it as yet. Got to live through tmr first. :) Last day of 2009! :)

Got to go study for tmr's lab test. :)

Today's the first day of school and it's still the same as usual. Same old normal Monday routine for class.

Choosen my CDS already. First choice will be Introduction to Marketing, second will be Introduction to the law of Singapore, third is Introduction to Psychology, fourth is Business Chinese and PRC culture and last but not least, Introduction to Sociology. I am tempted to put Law on the first choice but afraid that it will be tough. But I don't think I could go in. I'm not sure about how they place us. But this time round, I choose something that doesnt require so much talking as Public Speaking. haha.

New Year is coming this Friday! Anyone going countdown? :)



Was dragged out of bed early in the morning by my little brother. Was suppose to accompany mom and dad and him to his new secondary school. He was posted to St Hildas' Sec. The moment when I reached his school, my reation is, "oh gosh, my little brother will be Sec1 next year." haha.
He was posted to class 1D. He was quite unhappy about it though cause he say he would prefer Junyuan and he was in a different class from all his classmates. There's a lot of unaffliated students from his class. He decided to not take Higher Mother Tongue, it was quite a pity though cause it will help him to deduct 2 marks from his O lvl and out of 22 students in St Hildas' who could take HMT, he did not wanted it. But, I respect his decision. :)

Afterwhich, time for project and off to school. Didnt really did much though. Home after that.

Elder brother wanted me to rent a horror and comedy movie for him. I don't watch horror so asked Evon for advice. So I rented "The Excorsist of Emily Rose" and "Where Got Ghost".
I had watched finished the "Where Got Ghost" last night with my family, even though I got scared a few times, and my little brother loves the third story which he will keep on repeating and repeating the scenes, when he watched it the 2nd time just now.

Hmms. Oh well. Time to go to church in a few hours time. :)

Merry Christmas Eve everyone. :D

Life is so full of choices. Whenever you had finished deciding on this set, life throws you another set of choices. Sometimes, I would rather things be more simpler and less complicated. Many would like it this way but life just don't gave it to you.

For the past one year plus, I had been questioning myself, is this wait worth it? Sometimes I had a firm Yes, it's worth the wait. But sometimes, well, a no just simply does it. This question just keep popping up.

Many a times, I really needed advises. But due to my character, I don't ask for it. I wanted it to come to me naturally. I don't ask for help, I rather wait and hope. In the end, I will get myself more hurt. I prayed to God every night asking Him, "God, should I? Continue or to give up?" that I think God is tired of this question. But everytime, God will show me signs that I should continue to wait. I would love to but I'm running out of patience.

Someone once told me, just confess, if it don't turn out right, just treat it as an experience gained. But I don't want this to be just an experience gained. That's the postive way of thinking but always, I will turn to negative. What if I lost this friendship between us? So, I continue waiting. Wait and wait and wait. Things are starting to surface now, it's just a no result wait. Why not just give up? Why not? My mind is agreeing to this but yet my heart just don't. It's hurting, I can feel it but yet I don't want to let go, it's screaming for help yet I ignored it. Just what am I waiting for? I also don't know too. I convinced myself so many times, unconditioned love. Yea right, words and always louder than actions.

I used to think he is someone who could be a substitute from the past. I used to think that way but then, as time goes by, he is no longer someone substituting the someone in the past but he is someone who is taking away the pain I used to have in the past. Someone I really wanted to treasure, someone I really wanted to love. I felt the emptiness that I never felt before when he's not around. Instead, when he's not around for a long period of time, the past came haunting me, I had nightmares and I don't feel well.

I used to hate it when people keep telling me details about what they had done with their the other half, I hate it a lot, I can say, I really do. That is jealousy, yes, that is. But then, I came to realised that I can't do that. I can't let emotions get ahead of me, especially bad ones. I should be happy for my friend instead of shutting her away. At that moment, I threw myself in despair because I am heading to no direction, I can't see any way that I could go. But I am glad that, I no longer feels this way. Yet, I am happy that I am turning to God. I am also very desperate for His Words in fact. His Words are like a living machine for me. Without it, I know that I can't survive.

Someone once said before, if the person you like doesn't like you, why wait? Give up lah. I used to disagree but now, I am agreeing to it. Since that person don't like you already, there's no way he will change.
I guess I am giving up. Maybe just one last try. After this, I will stop giving myself false hopes. Even though I really wanted things to turn out to it's best but I know, when it's time to give up, no matter how pain it is, I have to.
If I really have to give up, I believe, time is what I needed. To forget someone, you have to use the same amount of time you had loved him to forget him. So yea, time.

One last try...

Went to Evon's house in the afternoon. Had been visiting her house lately with Sharon. hehe. ;)
We baked cookies, watched teevee. :) Nothing much, time passes fast. Then it's time to set off to Shermeen's house. :D

Walked over to jiejie's house with Evon while Sharon took yeye's bike. Saw Leongwei and Weisian at the void deck and we went up together. Pris, Ronney, Weiling and Kailin had already reached. We played a round of oldmaid plus donkey. Mama and Tingting came halfway. Never ending game. haha. So we stopped halfway and off I went for my Bible Study. :)

Learnt new things. I had been questioning myself though. "Is there something that is in the way for me to place God the first in my heart?" I answered a solid no. Because there's nothing that is going to stop me from putting God first. But then, I think back again and again just now on the way back to jiejie's house. There is something, or rather, someone that is, well, sometimes I place more importantly than God. I know this shouldn't be the way but yes, sometimes my emotions got ahead of me.

We exchanged present afterwhich. I'd gotten Ronney's green apple flavoured candles. Well, it's very aromatic. I didnt even light up and there's a faint smell of it in my room. haha. :) Yeye had gotten mine. haha. Thank you jiejie and Jami for their presents too. :D

Went home around 10pm. :)


"离开你 你会不会好一点
离开你 什么事都难一点
风来了 云就会少一点
你走了 我住在雨里面" - 陶晶莹-离开我

Changed of blogsong to Rihanna's Russian Roulette. :)

Hmms. So, went out with my younger brother on Thursday to the 3 malls in Tampines in the afternoon around 4plus. He was bored too so he dragged me out. First time shopping with him alone. haha. But still, shopping makes me dizzy. This time is really dizzy, guess there's too many people in the malls. Really dizzy. We walked home because I told him he might be able to find crows along the way home. haha. But yet, there isn't and he was looking at me, pouting, saying that I lied to him. Made me very very guilty. haha. He had been making me guilty these few days because dad and mom had been working a lot lately and he keep complaining to me that I keep leaving him alone at home. Aww. =[

Friday, went Christmas shopping with Evon, Sharon and Hanlin yeye. They did the shopping because I had already done mine the day before. Afterwhich, had lunch at Evon's house and did some stuff. :)

I forgot what I had been doing on Saturday. haha.
As for today, I also could not remember what exactly I had done. :P

Ohoh. I think Men's Health is a good magazine. Forget about the ahem part, I think it provides a good healthy guide as to what kind of food to abstain from and what kind of exercises are good. And the January 2010 ones had already been on the shelf already and my brother bought it already. ;)








Class Picnic today at Marina Barrage! :)
Suppose to meet class at Marina Bay MRT station at 3pm but in the end, late. We are.

Met Evon in the morning to do some marketing and then off to her house to cook some stuff. Then Sharon came and find us and we went off at around 2plus due to the cooking of food.
Everything was going alright until we took the wrong train. haha. Thinking that if we alight at City Hall Mrt station, we could just board the train opposite to Marina Bay. But in the end, it took us to Dhoby Ghaut station, opposite direction from Marina Bay. haha.

Oh, while waiting for the train, Sharon and me were fooling around, dancing the mass dance. We punched Evon in the face while doing a turn. haha! We were laughing so hard that I think the other passerbys saw it too. haha.

Went back around 6 plus and went to CP. So long since I last step foot into that Basketball court.

Came back from the 24 hrs E-Guides camp yesterday. All I can say abt the camp is, tired, fun, wet and noise. haha.

Went to register at 4.30pm. We were all separated into different groups. I'm in team ULA. Everybody sing a song, "ULA, ULA!" haha. I thought I will be alone though cause I had no other friends in there except for Christina's friend, Zu-er. Then Samantha came and she was in my group. =D

We had Icebreaking games. Till the sun went home then we had more games till dinner time at around 9plus. Had so called lectures for the knowledge of all the courses in Engineering school. Then we had mass dance! We learnt a new one. More lectures and we had supper. Was getting droppy at that time. Went around finding Sharon they all saying I need to get my adrenaline rushing. haha. Naughty-G, Red Bull, anything that can perk me up. haha. Had group time after that and we had another game. 3am in the morning, that's the first time I had played games so early. haha.
But, the night sky is really pretty at that time. I spot one star and when I look up the sky, the entire night sky is lit up with many many little stars. It was really really pretty. Lying at the triangular garden with the night breeze blowing and with those stars, it's really comfortable.
Games all the way till 6am. We had mass dance after awhile. My morning exercise. haha. Adrenaline rushing! haha. Cheers and mass dance keeps me up. haha. Had a late breakfast because the supplier could not get in time and thus, they bought roti prata for us instead. Had more games afterwards. All their games always made us wet. haha.
Everything ended at around 3plus in the afternoon. By then, I'm really desperate for a pillow. haha.
Had lunch with Sharon and Evon. And home after that. :)

Bathe and the next thing I knew, I fell asleep on the sofa. Dinner and fell asleep soon. Not good but this will only happen again when I got this kind of 24 hrs camp. haha.

Woke up in the morning. I overslept, I woke up at 7.30am. Throat is hurting due to excessive shouting. haha. I want to make my voice more man. So I keep shouting and shouting but yet, in the end, my voice is still the same. haha. Use too much diaphram. haha. Left shoulder aching, guess I knock onto something during the camp. haha.

Church in the morning. Late because I missed a train. There's a lot of people. Kaleo camp.

Want to congratulate Leong Wei and Wei Sian for attaining the Founders' Men award! Whees! Our two BianTais! =D
Trained home with Orlena after that. Home sweet home. =]

To summarise, I never notice the night sky is that pretty early in the morning. But now I know, I want to see it again. :) It's a sight not to be missed. =]

Off to camp in another 3 and 1/2 hours time. =]

Byes. =D










Tomorrow's the last paper. And here comes my 2 weeks happy holiday. =)
But still, Friday will be having a camp and follow by class picnic and I can enjoy my holidays. :) I had yet watched New Moon! And also, 2012! haha.

Sort of planned out my holidays already. Had been missing out on Sports for the past week, so I'm going to put on my running shoe. =D I really miss those days when I could train for the Campus Relay Run.

HolidaysHolidaysHolidaysHolidaysHolidays! =D



I'll not doubt, I'll let God decide for me.

Labels: Whether is it meant to be or not...

Had been to a wedding dinner last night at Meritus Mandrain Hotel. I heard this song which I find it very nice. =] It's From This Moment On from Shania Twain.

From This Moment On-Shania Twain
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breathe
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on


Okays. Two papers down, one more to go. :)



Only managed to finish revising one chapter of TBP yesterday. One chapter took up the whole of my afternoon. haha. Gotta start on my Maths later. =]

Had my Bible Study last night. The main topic is on, "love". I think the most famous phrase is "to love our enemies and do good to them."
Jami pointed out a point which I think I will be reflecting upon on. :) Why do God place those people in my life? Is it to test us or plain irritate us? Well, I think God place those people whom you don't like for a purpose. God place everyone in our life for a purpose. And I think that's very true. =]
Application, to love those whom you don't like more. But I can't think of any, so I shall love everyone more. =]
Something I had learnt through yesterday's Bible Study, "Because I am a Child Of God, I know Him and thus, I must keep His commandments and walk the talk and give uncondition love to everyone." =]

Everytime I will tell myself, the wait is worth it. I will see the breakthrough but now, I had no choice but to admit that, I'm raising the white flag soon. The will to move on, to continue to wait is fading.

Finally ended my Special Ocassion Speech yesterday. Was quite alright though. I'm starting to get use to my CDS class, smile when they are joking, volunteer when no one wanted to start their speech. Even though my presence made no difference to them, but I quite like this feeling, not getting any attention, being the background supporter. =]

I'm starting to love T1's Times bookshop, especially the back portion. I made a promise to myself today. I wanted to get a book every month, especially those Christian theologies. I'm quite attracted to the Children Biblical books. hehe. =D

Sharon went to watch New Moon with her cousin. I want to watch too. =[ But no time for it. Got to study and could only get to watch it after Term Test. Actually I could watch it a week ago, from the internet but yet the quality was, of course, not as good as the theatre's.

Felt really reluctant to wake up every morning. Head will start to ache after waking up. Every day became a cycle. Wake up, get ready for school, study, home for dinner, and time to study again and off to bed.

Facebook first then go study. hehe. =D

Labels: losing hope soon

Had been coughing real badly since Friday. The cold is back. Hope I could be better tmr cause I will be having my Public Speaking Special Ocassion Speech.

Term Test will be coming soon, next week. Should start my revision soon. Had started on Maths yesterday. Hope to be able to finish revising soon. =]

Gotta go prepare for tmr! =]

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