Tomorrow will be the first paper for Term Test and the worst thing is, it doesn't felt like it is term test tmr! I guess "Camp" this word had been domineering my mind for the past weeks or month that "Term Test" these words seems so far away. Even the tense feeling of oh-no-test-is-just-tomorrow is gone. Ok, there's still this worried feeling but still, I guess I could do nothing.

First paper tmr and it's Security and Surveillance. 3.30pm start and that means, I could use the morning to recap what I had learnt. I hope the calculations and mcqs could pull my scores up.
Tuesday will be a break for me then Wednesday will be IRDD. I'm glad there's only 2 chapters of IRDD but these 2 chapters had already taken almost 1/4 of my brain. haha. Then is Project Management on Thurs which I had not touched on, and there's 6 chapters to memorise! Gone case! Tsk. I should really discipline myself more. So, I shall stop using this lappy of mine and start heading for the books!

I want to pull up my GPA. Hope I could. =) So, I shall work harder and what can I do? I will pray and commit everything unto God's hand. =D
Jiayou everyone! =D

As much as I hate the sight of blood, but I think that Bleed by Hot Chelle Rae is a good song. Where's the link? Well, there's no link. haha.

I thought the feeling is gone. But somehow, it's resurfacing again. I don't want to turn back anymore. The pain. Just the thought of it, hurts. I don't want to get defeated by it anymore. I would really prefer the life now. Busy and depriving of sleep. But not the part of not getting to meet my friends as often as I could. I would want to be occupying myself with tonnes of things. So that the mind will stop wandering and wondering anymore.

It aches seeing how much love you gave. But somehow, in between the pain, I felt a tinge of happiness for you, cause at least I know, you found someone whom you really love. =) And me? I've grown up to accept the truth more easily. Thank you. =)

To end this post, lyrics of Bleed...








I'm feeling more energized than normal days. Probably because I had more sleep today. Slept at 2am and waking up at 9am. I was late meeting Sharon, Evon and En Ni though. Really sorry!

Space planning was cancelled because Mdm Boey had finished teaching what she wanted to teach so today, no class. 10am, FLSM lecture. No people went for lecture! I went in to find an empty lt except that there's Mr.Thong around. He's not feeling well and he asked me if I know will there be more people coming. Knowing the obvious, I didn't answer him truthfully, I said I'm not sure. He was being kind and understands that we had projects to rush. So he started the lesson with me alone in the LT. Awkward~ haha. But subsquently, there's about 2 people who came in which is not from FDM. At least things arent that awkward. haha. I managed to sit through the lecture and understand what he's teaching. =)

IRDD was fun today, even though it's doing online quiz and I managed to just pass. haha.
Went home early today.

I'm so deadmeat. It's Thursday already and I had not studied for Term Test! Gosh. I should start tmr after IRDD project meeting. I must score for it!

After which, CAMP! =)

That's me! haha. =)

Camp preparation are going to an end soon, I hope. haha. Hmmmms. There's still some things outstanding but should be ok. =)

Term Test will be next week! And guess what? I had not studied for them yet! Oh gosh. Should really buck up! But then, with time and energy not on my side, I'm going to juggle them well. God, is here! =)

Meet Prispris for lunch today at ITAS. =)

Yawns. I think I'm going to bed soon. I guess tonight is the earliest that I could sleep. Yawns. =)

Had been looking at the lappy's monitor since 10.30pm. My eyes hurt and it stings with pain. Time now is 3.24am. What a time. haha. It's been a week since I had been sleeping "early". Since last week, had been sleeping an average of 4hours per day. Morning most difficult task is to get up for school, it's getting harder and tougher each passing day. haha. I'm so tired!

I know it will all be worthwhile. Projects and camp preparation.
There's still many things left undone for the camp and project. I had not been having dinner at home almost every single night and I felt quite detached from home. But still, everytime when i set foot to the apartment, I will always have this Home-is-still-the-best feeling. =D

I want to get connected with my dear friends soon! Had been losing touch for quite some time! PrisPris, Shermeen jiejie, Pong mama and Biantai! I miss hanging out with you guys! =)

One recent team game I had played and it's awesome! Tug-o-war! Even though I'm left with some bruises and scars on my hands, the adrenaline rush feeling is superb! I want to play more! =D

Had IRDD group project discussion today, was quite productive, I guess. Matthew came! I had been doubting but guess I'm wrong, he's here! Phew! Haha. We had fun today while doing project research. I still can't figure out if he's a local or a foreigner. Hmmms. Shall ask him some day. haha.

Term Test is coming soon! 31st May, 2nd June and 3rd June and time for Term Break! Even though it's Term Break, I don't think I will be able to have time to relax cause first week is packed with camp and afterwhich, time to rush IRDD! =(

I can do it! Because God is here! I can do it and the sense of achievement after all these is a great rewarding sleep! haha. =D

Goodnight and Goodmorning! =D

"Life is fulfilling. Even though it's packed with activities, I'm happy that it's packed so I don't have time to think of those things which I don't want to.
Life is fulfilling and I thank God, my Father, for it! =)"

P.S. Sharon is coming over to my house tmr. Which is today, Sunday. For what? PROJECT! haha. =)

i hate that feeling, when you feel hungry, but you don't want any food you see, and you can't figure out what food you want, and you don't think it even exists, but then you realize that what you want is to see the person you're missing.

´Sometimes, people choose to leave not because of selfish reasons, but because they know that things will get worse if they stay..´

I still think of you every now and then. But I never had the intention of turning back anymore. Because I know, if I turn and run back, I am getting myself into more pains and sorrows which, you will never know…

Maybe I had lost faith. Because I don't trust love as much as I do in the past. But there's only one love which I completely trust in, that's God's unfailiing love. =)

TIRED! haha.

But still, I gotta hang on there! =)

Last remaining week for the camp! Got to apply Project Management skills in it! Got to finish all those small little details that is still outstanding! =)
What's for breakfast? What's for lunch? What's for dinner? and What's for supper? hahah. =)

And also! My homeworks! Got to juggle them real well and with God, I could! =D
Thank you Jami! A bible study session every week is definitely the best thing for the week! =D

What to do now? What to do now? Got to study FLSM to rush that report and also do my Psycho quiz and also, study Security! =)

Lastly, I want to buy a study bible for myself! =)










I know you are suffering. I hope I could find a way to ease your pain. I had been busy. I had not been playing with you lately and I truly regretted it now. Because I could no longer utter to you, "Good night my baby bobs, I love you", anymore. I know I'm gonna miss you. You are the reason why I still believe that miracles are true. Because you showed me how to stand strong in the midst of difficult times.
















Thursday is always the longest and most stress day in the week.

Fire and Life Safety Management quiz today. I'm gonna flunk it, no doubt. I felt quite terrible about it. Cause it's Multiple Choice Questions. The more I should score well for it. And all the questions, the answer is I had read it before in the book. I'm too confident. I overestimated. =( I felt quite terrible about it. Not gonna let history repeats itself again. I'm gonna study hard now.

I'm gonna turn into a mountain tortoise soon. haha. Lessons are all at the last block and I never set foot in the concourse during lunch time and eating in the canteen seems so far back ago. Seeing familiar faces is not a everyday thing anymore.

CCN day tmr and my class is not gonna do anything. Hehe. =D
Lessons are still resuming tmr. =)

And I keep forgetting things lately. I keep bringing people to the wrong places. Like Psycho class yesterday. I remembered clearly in my head is 5th floor. Because we are going to be late, Evon, Enni and me ran. I was at the front, I barge into the classroom and lucky the class doesnt have much people. I see unfamiliar faces and I knew instantly that I went to the wrong class. I double checked the timetable. It reflected the class is at the 4th floor. Stupid. hahaha.

Okays then. Shall update till here. Keeping my blog alive. hehe. =D

Happy Sunday is here again. =)

I planned out a lot of things on my mind on what to do but I did nothing but just one thing. I read a few pages of my Psycho book. $36 you know! haha.

Everytime after reading Pris's blog I had the sudden motivation running in me. Adrenaline rush, most probably! haha. I don't know but I suddenly felt motivations running in every part of my body. That reminds me, I should go and do my Psycho Quiz NOW and my research on Unusual Hotels in Europe. And Foodmin works. And if there's nothing else, I shall end my blog post here! =)

P.S. I changed my blogsong to Wherever You Will Go by The Calling. =)

God, Thank YOU! =)
For renewing me. =)

Putting GOD first in my life. Love God. Love Life. Love Others. Heart Of God Church! <3

Hello,
I am Vanessa Quek!


I blog to pen down my thoughts and also to remember the important milestones in my life!

I'm someone who has faith in God and the God within me!

I'm working hard to be in likeness to Christ! Be radical for Him! Giving Him the best years of my life!

HOGC

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