Tired, restless, lethargic, moodless, hurt, helpless, whatever negative thoughts you can have is all here. Maybe that's life. I can't help but feeling ever so helpless about life.

If life is like the Game of Life, that will be easy, the path is chosen for you, laid right in front of you, all you do is spin the wheel and there you are, on your way to whatever situation is put in front of you.

Today's incident taught me a lot of things, or rather, the past few weeks. We can't always want things to go our way, acceptance is one thing I got to learn. Putting myself in other's shoe is one way. Accepting people's attitude, accepting the way they think. Acceptance.

Even though life is unfair but making it seems a lil unfair can be one way to turn the situation around. Changing of mindset, Accepting the fact, blah blah blah. haha.

But still, like what Prispris had once said, "When life gives you lemon, make a lemonade out of it."

P.S. Dear girl, I miss you. It hurts to see you in pain. Talk to me if you want to. I will always be there. Will be praying for you. =)



My life's been kinda dull since March. Need a rainbow to brighten it up.

But, when the light of life is being taken away by someone who meant a lot to me, can it be restored. I believe it could be but not instantly. Life sucks. Nah, I won't think it that way because that's where I will see my next breakthrough. God's test for me. I got to grow strong and that's what I'm going to do.

Projects are piling up. Counted the projects that will be in hand for the time to come. 7! Could go around boasting that 7 projects in hand for us! haha. Want me to name it out? They are,

Integrated Resorts Design and Development a.k.a IRDD (In progress, next thurs is presentation time!)
Space Planning (In progress, different due dates for different stages)
Fire and Life Safety Management a.k.a FLSM (In progress, somehow, it remained stagnant since the last submission. haha)
Psychology (In progress, still doing. Teacher is rushing us for the draft already when we don't even have time for it! =/)
Aircon and Hydraulics (In progress...)
Project Management (Coming!)
Security and Surveillance (Coming!)

Oh, I forgot about Apel2. And that marks the eighth one. =/

Now I understand the year 3s. About not sleeping during their time for projects. Awww. How I missed Year1.1's life...

I missed out so many things in life. =( Going to church! It's been a month plus since I went there. I miss my GB girls. =( I miss Jami. =( I miss my friends. =(

One thing which I had been feeling apologetic and guilty about is to God. Recently, I will pray till halfway and my mind will started to drift off. Waking up with both hands glasped together, numb. haha. That happens almost every night. =(
And I am amazed, I am going to turn 3years old in Christ this year and for the past 2years plus, I had been praying every night. Proud of this and I will want to maintain this! Jiayou! =D

P.S. Happy 2nd year for ystd, 23rd June... Hope you all remembers... =)

Happy Fathers' Day! =)

Hmmmms. Somehow, Fathers' Day is always not as anticipated by people as Mothers' Day. That's somehow what I think but still, I love my dad ttm! =D

There's not only my father, there's also my dear Heavenly Father! =D Happy Fathers' Day to both my daddy! =D

Life's being revolving around Irdd and Space Planning. Back to drawing my Space Planning! =)

School's starting tmr! (Y) =D

I think I'm back to being a depriver of sleep again. I think I had been that all along since the preparation of camp, with those meetings and wanting to get as many things done as possible in one night. I think since end of May I had been depriving of sleep.

Okays, this time round is not that bad. At least I got to sleep. Life had been like, wake up in the morning, bathe, go to school without any breakfast (boo-hoo), do projects, lunch, more projects and home, dinner and research time and it's 2am plus 3am then time for bed then at around 8plus am wake up again and everything starts again. Project cycle. haha. =( I'm not adapting to it but it's fun and very mind-occupying. =)

When did holidays becomes a project holiday. haha. I wonder...

I think I got to go to bed now. Waking up at 8.30am later and off to school to rush Irdd! I had not done Space Planning! =(

Ohya, choosen my cds alr. haha. 1st choice: Introduction to Marketing; 2nd choice: Basic Financial Accounting; 3rd choice: Leadership and character; 4th choice: Effective Internet Research and last but not least, 5th choice: Colors and Compositions. =)

I feel like eating now. Hot baked pasta. =( Had quite an early dinner today that's why. haha.

Museum! =D

"Just like a flower, it grows, endure hardships and blooms. Then it withers off. In this growing journey, it's alone yet still, endures the hardship and continues to bloom to show it's beautiful breakthrough, even though it's only for a short brief moment. I want to be like a flower..."








What does it feels like being at the top of the world? I believe the feeling is good but amidst the good and shiock-ness, I believe negative things will follow like pride, wanting to be more famous will come following it.

I don't want to be that, I just simply wants to be more than a follower. I don't want to be lead by the nose anymore. Especially when now, I don't even know what my project mates are doing for the project. This, of course, does not benefits me. I have to be more active. More initiative. This sudden urge of not-simply-just-being-a-follower feeling suddenly came crashing down like a wave to me. I shall rise up! Rise up against the problems. Because I know God is with me! =)

Last week to rush finish my projects! No more procrastinating! This, I must work on it! One good example is today. Initially wanted to use the whole of the Sunday afternoon to finish up my Space Planning and I ended up sleeping! A total waste of time and now, I shall use this time to try and finish as many as I could. =)

I must continue to run this race! Both physically and mentally must be prepared. I know life kinda suck now but I'm holding on to see my next breakthrough! =)

JIAYOU!!!

CAMP IS OVER, JUST LIKE THAT. I'm still in camp mood! I really really miss camp! Before the camp, all over my mind is just "camp, camp and more camp" words forming. Now that it's over, I felt so EMPTY! =(

I miss working with my bunch of camp comms and helpers! Whether they are GLs, Programmers, Logistics or Foodmins, I miss working with them. Camp really pass by oh-so fast. Those times without sleep and stuff, it's really, memorable. It's like, when we are awake, we will be busy doing things, when it's time for bed, we will sleep, even though I didn't manage to sleep for 2 days. haha. It's sort of a break record for me. haha. In about 80hrs, I only slept for 3hrs and 45mins. haha. I know there are still people who didn't sleep but yupps, I'm proud to be working hard for this camp. =) Hopes to contributes as many as I could. =D

Frankly speaking, through this camp, I made a bunch of cool friends! haha. Camp comms include Brandon, Bryan, Suting, CJ, Sijin and many more. And also helpers too! As for those whom I had already known, I felt much more bonded with them through this camp, like for example, my class. =D

This camp, is amazing. Even though there's chaos, but I like the part where we made it through as a team. Even though there are hiccups happenings, but there are things which we made it through as a team. I love time spent at Log room! haha. Going to sports comp and bathe tgt as five-some or even with those guys early in the morning. haha.

There's so many things which I want to say but it will make this post long. So in one word, I just want to say this camp is "AMAZING!" I love this camp! =)

Those 4 days, are just the best. =)

Lunched with Pris Pris today and we are all bloated, I suppose. hahaha. Did space planning, which I only managed to draw a manager's office. haha. Gonna rush my projects now! =)



Yes! Last paper which is on today, is finally over. Even though jubilated doesn't rings in me but I'm glad that papers are over. =)
I still don't feel the happiness but who cares! No more memorising of things, for now. haha.

Camp is up next. I'm looking forward to it somehow yet somehow not looking forward to it. hmmms. Contradicting but yes, it's like you are longing for something yet there are things which made you don't look forward to it. One contributing factor for making me not looking forward to this camp is, the helpers. Not that I don't like them but, they wanted to go for this camp yet, they don't really wants to contribute. Not as a whole but there are people who don't want to do things though. hmmms.

Projects will be next. There are about 4 projects in hand. IRDD, Psycho, Space planning, FLSM. Shucks! I totally forgotten about FLSM! haha. Oppps. As for IRDD, well, something that I'm glad is, Matthew is not as bad as we thought he is going to be. He does contributes. Raymond Wong says he is a good photographer. He's been to many countries because he's rich and his exposure to many countries could really be a great help to us. A tennis player, a photographer. haha. Hope everything turns out well. =)

Well, time for bed though. Even though I'm addicted to Baking Life. haha. =D

Goodnight everyone! =D

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I am Vanessa Quek!


I blog to pen down my thoughts and also to remember the important milestones in my life!

I'm someone who has faith in God and the God within me!

I'm working hard to be in likeness to Christ! Be radical for Him! Giving Him the best years of my life!

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