Am quite proud of myself for facing books whole day long. Face text books during the day and facebook at night. haha!


Ever felt the satisfaction after a long run? Or in the context now, ever felt the sense of achievement after completing piles and piles of projects? Now, is the last lap for my Sem2.1's Main Exam. I will be concentrating all my focus onto this exam and nothing should tempt me anymore. Well, forget about not using comp, it's just too big a temptation but I managed to cut down the usage time, I hope I did. haha.

Anyways, I changed my blogskin into something much more simpler. And added a blogsong called, "King Of Anything". I heard it over the radio and find it quite catchy and nice. Since it's been a while since my blog had any songs playing.

Hmmms, back to studying now. I dread everyday because I have to memorise my text but I think this should be a time to cherish cause every paper taken, and the result shown is how much of our effort had been put in. The sweat and the decreasing brain memory. haha.
I think I prefer doing Maths question than memorising though and through this memorising process it makes me realise that going to lectures are very very important so to make it a point, I will not skip lectures anymore unless I have no choice. haha.

Well, finishing Chapter 4 of IRDD soon. This freaking chapter took me 2 days to memorise. haha! I still have 4chapters of Security, 3 chapters of Aircon, 1 chapter of IRDD and 9 chapters of Project Management. Wish me luck and wish everyone good luck! =)

P.S. It's the final lap, make it count! =)

Guess I used up all the optimism for the day and now, I'm like a squeezed lemon, all squeezed up and no more juice left. Not even a drip.

Reached home exhausted and drained. Ask myself, "Why am I such a failure? When little things I can't even do well." Well, there's a lot of things that I am rebuking myself of, like studies, friends, etc etc.

Studies wise, can't be blamed. Procrastinate somemore and end up like me. Exam is coming in a week plus and yet I'm still lagging behind. I know there are people who had not even started due to YOG but at least, they did something meaningful and seeing their comments saying how proud they are to volunteer and never regret joining just stabs my heart. I know, I can't blame anyone but myself. Yupps, I have no intention of blaming anyone but myself. So many things in life, I could participate yet because of me, I withdraw. This is not the first time already. That I really wanted to scold myself the f word. I held on. I can't break down. I just could not.

I have so many things to say yet I tell no one. Why? It's not because I don't trust others but it's myself, again. I just could not overcome myself. I can't break down the barriers around me. I can't, I just could not. The only one that I will confide in, is none other than God. I will tell no one stuff about myself because I just don't like the idea of others getting their attention towards me. I hate being the center of attention, I don't like getting attention, that's what I am like since young. I don't mean that people who confide to their best friend as getting attention, it's just my way of thinking. Sorry if I offended anyone. I does envy people with close friends, telling them every little secrets they had but I'm just not the one who can do that. I can listen but not talk. To express myself, how I feel, needs a lot of courage to be summoned up within me. That's the reason why I prefer texting than talking face to face. And I could never help my friend or give them advises immediately, because I just don't know how to express myself. Guess I'm not cut out to be a good friend to anyone. I don't need to be one but guess life made me do it.

What's life? It can be good at times, it can be really worse at times. This is life. Ups and downs.

Sorry that I had been ranting. I'm just lost, I'm very lost and confused. I think because of studies. I think I should put away my lappy from now till end of exam. If not, I guess I will hate myself even more.

And throughout this holiday, it makes me realised that, I love to stay at home than going out. Because home is where I could be myself, I don't need to talk all day, I just know that home is where I belong.

"I told myself not to think of you,
yet, you still remains there."

haha! I like this. I'm always questioning myself with this but I guess I had been quite controlling of myself for the usage of my lappy. I'm going to finish 1 chapter of IRDD alr. I adopt a brand new study strategy with effect from tmr. Hope it works! =)

Okays, I'm going for English Oral on Wednesday alr. I'm quite or rather, very reluctant to go! I might escape and run away at the eleventh minute! haha. =P
Nah, just joking. I will work hard. =)

I want to buy more story books. Probably after my exams, I could visit the library. =D Or even Times bookstore. =D

Okays, shall go watch teevee now while studying! 7 more slides to go! =D

Currently, studying. Chapter 3, slide no.3. haha.

Glad that raymond wong only test us on 3 chapters for main exam. Phew. =)
Project Management killed me, 12 chapters to go through. I can do it!! =D

BS later. And after that, back to study again! Hwaiting! =D


I WILL! haha.

That's particularly true because I had been doing that. =/ If only I woke up early and go for a jog, if only I could be more discipline in my studies. haha.

But, I studied today. *Applause* haha. Even though it's not a lot but I managed to study 1 chapter of Security. I will continue to jiayou! Hwaiting! =D

Hmmms. Nothing much to blog about. Lesser usage of lappy! More study time! =D



My world is turning mad. I'm turning mad, losing my mind. haha. Choices, decisions, rights and wrongs. Arghhh! I'm losing my mind! Soon! haha.

One week past, I had yet started studying. What's worst? I'm broke. Like totally. Left with $5 in my wallet, there's still tmr to survive. I don't want to withdraw anymore money from the bank anymore. Because I had been the regular patron of the ATM recently. I should cut down on food, cut down on movies, cut down on many many things! I should really stay at home and be a girl that should be studying for her main exams! haha.

Turn down a job opportunity today. Was quite sad but somehow relieve. Hmmms. How to say, the pay is definitely attractive but it's not at all attractive to my Main Exams. haha. I think I should consider working after my exams. YOG is tmr! Jiayou to all my friends participating, whether is it volunteering or anything. =)

I'm recently attracted to Girls' Generation. hahas. I love their songs! However, a 9-girl band, I could only regconise some. Still learning to memorise their names and regconise their faces. =)

Okays, I shall go watch teevee now and off to bed! Flag day tmr! haha. (With $5 in my pocket.) =/




Awww. I do felt a little regret for withdrawing from YOG. Basically because, firstly, it's basketball! Secondly is, the experience learned. But nevertheless, the reason why I wanted to withdraw is always more important than joining. So, I should not regret!

To make myself not regret, I should really use this chance to study. Make the best use of time and really really, study for exam. Hmmms. Yes, that's what I should do! I know GPA confirm drop, at least let it dont drop too drastically. =)

Regret Regret Regret! This word shall not conquer me! I'm starting a brand new life, with only me and God. My friends and families too. =)
Jiayou! =))



A little hint of heartache.
But, I'm going to say goodbye to you. =)



Happy 17th Birthday to WONG WEISIAN!

I missed to blog yesterday because I fell asleep again. But still, I had my fun yesterday and hope he does too. =)

Finally projects are over and I could really have my fun. But sore throat attacks me and now, I have to refrain myself from eating. Because everytime I eats, this vomit sensation, came right to my throat and this feeling sucks. haha. But nonetheless, one thing I know is that, after this sore throat, the rest of my holidays, no more sore throat! haha. =)

So many things to do yet dont know where and what to start on. =)

Firstly, study for main exams! =)

Space Planning, my final project. And I am going to hand them in tmr. Because Priya forgot to bring them today. Tmr, and I'm free. But however, there will be nothing to do anymore. Empty! =/

Office

I'm going to do that SOON! haha. Last project submission will be this coming Thursday! And after that, I will be free, I tell you, FREE! I could already smell the freedom coming soon! =)

Conquered all 8 projects within such a short time, is truly a hard core one but we managed to finished it, praised to be GOD!

Projects makes me realise many things, firstly, 24hrs a day is not enough. Planning what to do for the day always land myself finishing 1/4 of the work at the end of the day. I procrastinate. I fell asleep. We are all in this together. Experience is learned and a memorable one. I love it. I gained weight instead of losing it. I should exercise during the holidays. Last but not least, bed is very important to me, and I'm depriving of sleep! haha.

Psycho presentation tmr! I'm sort of nervous but is anticipating it to end tmr! =)
Jiayou jiayou! =D

A quick post before I go to bed. So far, had been able to submit all my projects in time. Last week, 3 more projects and it's the end of sem 2.1. The feeling is, unexpressable. Firstly is, the moment spent with my friends and those whom I had never spent before are memorable and enjoyable. Secondly is, I really hope I could have a good sleep! And last but not least is, at least I will not think of things which I don't want to when I'm preoccupied by works. This is truly a lesson learnt, a good experience.

Putting GOD first in my life. Love God. Love Life. Love Others. Heart Of God Church! <3

Hello,
I am Vanessa Quek!


I blog to pen down my thoughts and also to remember the important milestones in my life!

I'm someone who has faith in God and the God within me!

I'm working hard to be in likeness to Christ! Be radical for Him! Giving Him the best years of my life!

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