»Shit happens, what to do? Flush the toilet bowl.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
haha. I know, the title is a little gross. But what to do? I'm feeling so shitty now. haha. At times like this, I just feel like sleeping. Heading for bed after this.
Major Project is creating a Major Problem for me. I have to change my mindset starting from tomorrow! Got to work harder! Hopefully the skeleton ppt that was done by Priya and I was ok. Hopefully everything is ok.
School's starting in less than a week and I have all my morning(s) free except for Thursday. hehe. I can go for some alone time, jogging~ ^^
Felt really sorry for throwing my temper at dad. :( I just feel so exhausted. At times like this, I feel so alone and helpless. But I thank God for He guides me back to where I am.
He makes me realise that, I have doting parents, caring siblings and wonderful friends. He makes me realise how good everything in my life is so far.
I will work hard, to be the girl that my Father wants me to be. I'm gonna stand strong and firm. I will pray. Because this is the only thing that makes me grow from weak to strong.
Alrights, got to get ready for a full packed day tomorrow! At a brighter note, Prispris is coming back home soon. ^^
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»19 must help Vanessa grow
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Officially turned 19 years old a few days ago. Throughout this 19 years I think the most happiest day of my life falls on 10th December 2007. The day when I decided to accept Christ. No days will beat this day as my happiest day of my life.
That day was the day when I made the most correct choice I had ever made. A choice I believe, I will never regret. :)
This year was a blast. I had my internship and it is the longest job I had ever worked for. 19 weeks and 2 days. Not to mention, 10 September 2011, my first ever concert. SHINee World Concert in Singapore. The most surreal night ever. I got to see my 5 celebrities and also Onew oppa. Keke. ^^
I believe the road ahead will be full of ups and downs cause this is life. Every year, I'm preparing myself to be a better person. And now, I'm preparing for my 20th year on Earth. For now, I'm going to grow up. Everyone's chasing after something and I should not be exempted from it. I will continue to live this life fully and I want to walk even more closely with God.
So, what I'm going to do is, I want to make myself healthier, grow spiritually, maturely, study harder, work harder, play harder and learn my third language. And last but not least, cherishing all my friends and family. ^^
I'm gonna chase down my dreams even if I'm laughed at. Hwaiting! ^^
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»I don't know why
Monday, October 3, 2011
I don't know why but I feel like crap now. In a mess. I think I had lost touch of stress for too long that now when I felt it, it's too much to handle! I need to run away!
It's 3 weeks before school starts and I thought I could be free to do everything which I want to do but more and more things are piling up. Especially Major Project. Few days ago I was thinking what's the problem with Major Project, I don't feel anything towards it. And now, I felt things are getting out of hand because I felt the importance of it. :|
Have to do many reports and REVIT! :| Hopefully everything will be alright and when our school supervisor sees it, he will nod head and say ok.
Things can be done, reports could be done in a day and I don't know why I felt so stress because of it. I guess the result matters. It's 12 Credit Units! :|
But no matter what result I get, it's from God and I know everything will be alright. He will be there to help me.
I think I need a jog everyday to kick start my day. To make myself feel good and ok. I finished 2 reports today and what's left will be reading of Project Management book, doing a mindmap for shutters, render Revit images and build on the overall report and lastly a flowchart. Hope Priya could make the ROI ok, if not, I'm gonna bang head against the wall. :|
I tried watching videos to make me feel ok but I guess it's just a temporary getaway. I need to go to Korea now. haha. Onew oppa will be away to Taiwan on my birthday, I shall go to Taiwan. haha! If only.
Alrights, I should de-stress myself now. Got to think of positive things! Thinking that mommy will not be working tomorrow. Getting my pay tomorrow. (:
Shall slowly finish whatever things on hand! God will guide me through!
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»What Psychologists said
Sunday, October 2, 2011
I saw this post on Facebook and find that I really like how the Psychologist wrote us in this way.
Shall translate this;
Psychologist says:
"不要看輕那些追求韓國明星的孩子,他們的心靈比任何人都還要純潔,
"Do not underestimate teenagers who are fans of Korean Idols, their hearts are as pure as anyone else,
他們勇於去愛,他們會想盡辦法去克服一切障礙,
they have the courage to love and they will think of any ways to overcome every obstacles,
語言上的障礙,種族上的障礙,國家上的障礙.
in terms of language barriers, racial barriers, nationality barriers.
他們象徵著和平,他們沒有種族鄙視,
They symbolizes peace and they do not have racial contempt,
他們會跟來自不同地區的有共同興趣的人成為朋友,
They will befriend anyone of common interest who comes from different regions,
他們比任何人都還要熱情親切.
They are friendlier than anyone else.
他們不容易背叛他們喜歡的人,不容易放棄一切堅持.
They do not easily betray people whom they like, not easy to give up their beliefs.
他們的內心比任何人都要堅強,
They are stronger than anyone else, intrinsically,
因為在他們愛著韓星的時候,他們經歷到生命中從未遇到的挫折.
Because while they are adoring their stars, they are experiencing setbacks that are rare in life.
他們都是感性的孩子,很容易為了一件事感動流淚許久.
They are sentimental kids, will tear over things that touches them easily for a long time.
經過調查,他們大部份都懂得感恩.
After investigation, most of them understands what is being grateful.
他們的心理跟其他人不同,
Their mindsets are different from others.
他們不會容易被愛情沖昏頭,
They do not get carried away by love easily,
他們不會有做壞事的念頭,
They do not have the thought of doing bad,
而且他們一般選對象的眼光非常高,除了外表,更看重個性,
But their standards for an ideal type are exceptionally high, other than looks, character is more important.
所以他們的結婚率不高,但離婚率也少為極少.
Therefore, their marriage rate is not high, but divorce rate are the least.
他們的記憶力很好,可以輕易記住自己根本就不懂的韓文歌詞,
They have good memory, able to remember Korean lyrics which they do not understand,
而且配合力也很強. 一般都是開朗的孩子, 不是很自閉的那種.
and their level of cooperation is very high. They are usually happy children and not those anti-social type.
而且他們的毅力很大,可以為了買到一個有關自己喜歡的明星的東西而堅持不懈.
They also have strong perseverance, having the ability to not give in until they finally bought the merchandises which are related to their idols.
總之,這些孩子的心靈跟其他人的心靈有很大的差別,
Overall, the mindset of this group of children and the other children are very different.
Overall, the mindset of this group of children and the other children are very different.
他們的思想也不容易了解,
Their thoughts are not easy to fathom,
一般都是要靠那些跟自己有相同興趣的人才能進入到他們的世界"
Usually they have to rely on those with similar interests to enter into their world."
However, these are just some thoughts which I think most of them are quite real to me, but I don't meant that non-Korean fans are anti-social or anything bad. We just have different likings.
Anyways, tomorrow onwards, should start on my Major Project! Shall start planning what I should do and try and finish it up by school starts. 3 more weeks to school! New and final semester.
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