»Zero rest
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
These few days I keep thinking that I have a public transport syndrome whereby I get tired whenever I board public transports. But it seems to me that, it's not just public transportation but the problem lies in me. Whenever I remain stagnant, I got tired. Just like today's workshop. I can't take it. I feel like sleeping! I get restless easily nowadays. Probably because work had been taking a toll on my body. It's like there's no rest for me. haha. Whenever I had off day, I won't be at home resting. I took off because I have something on. I had been going out every day ever since I started working. I miss staying at home the whole day.
I just keep working that my life just seems so undisciplined. I stopped exercising, I keep eating and I somehow changed. I don't feel like me anymore. I don't know who I am now.
I feel so insecure and helpless now and I don't like it. Mainly because I'm somewhere between the line of graduating from Poly but am unsure of where to head next. I hope NTU or NUS get back to me. But with my current grade, it just seems like there's no hope. People around me, some thinks that I could get in, but some say I have to pray hard to get in. They don't understand those struggles. I can't be a little girl forever and I'm scared of how my world is slowly changing now.
If I can, I would hope to get into NTU's course. Because somehow, I had taken a liking to that course. But then, I like NUS's school atmosphere more. Still, who am I kidding, I am still on the waiting list. Just hoping they will consider me.
words spilled @ 11:48 PM /
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