Hey people, i've changed my blogskin and added new things. hahas. although it was not as nice as other people's but i felt contended with it and was pleased that i could do such things. hahas.

Well, today was quite ok. just spending my time studying a few things about chemistry and reading "P.S I Love You". was about to finish it. So, after reading the book, will be reading other books that i had borrowed last night.

I'm going to church tmr and was looking forward to it. Because it had been a long time since i had set foot on GEFC. I had been hoping something will happen tmr and i had been praying for it. So, whether it will come true anot, i just hope it will come true. I know it will come true because i had prayed to God. AMEN! =) To trust in God is something i should do because i'm a child of God!

Time to blog. Actually now is the second time that i had on my com. I had not been online for a long time because i don't feel like it and i have no one to talk to. I still have someone to talk to last time. Last time we will crap a lot and i will always end up laughing my head off after talking crapping. But nowadays, he had been busy or away. wonder if he is tired of talking with me or something. i don't know. Last time, all my problems will go to him, he had been a very good listening ear to me. But, nowadays, when i am troubled with things, i will always have the tendency to talk to him but was afraid that he will be busy or anything. so the only form of communication that we will be having is tagging at his tagboard or sometimes seeing he in sch, will talk to him awhile but always end up he suaning me. and the time we talk will be very short so, was a bit sad about it. Maybe that's change. Change is something which i dreaded most, i tink almost everyone hated it. Change for the best is everyone's desire but in reality, it is always the way round, changing for the worst. A once close friend with everything to talk under the sun. Change came zooming by. And a once close friend became familiar stranger.
Because change exists, regrets will linger around in the world...

School was normal today during the lessons before recess but after recess was slacking time. Ms Neo didnt come today and me, kailin, sharon, evon, shermeen, kaiwei, weiling were at the round tables located outside the I-Hub and Eureka room. We were playing concentration game and games that games that i usually played in GB. we had a lot of fun. History was next. Mdm Lee didnt come and Ms Ross took over. I made a right choice to sit on the floor because we were released 15mins earlier. (:

Actually planned to study Redox Reaction to wait for 2pm to come but was distracted by the BB boys because they had camp and talking to them awhile. Because my mood was not so good therefore i had went to talk to them because talking to them never fail to left me a smile on my face. talking to them was somewhat enjoyable.
Actually wanted to skip RELC course because amanda didnt go again. Today, lesson was somewhat horrible for me. I didnt mean anything but my tears keep welling up on my eyes. I had the tendecy to cry and left the course halfway but i know that i must stay strong and must not disappoint my teacher, Mr Jagjit. He was a good teacher, i must say.
You know, I no longer like you. I don't know why. The feelings had fade. But i always had the tendency to fall in love with you again whenever i see you. Maybe after i graduate and seeing less of you, the feelings will go away but i don't want to forget you. Hope we will still stay in touch and continues to be friends. Another reason that i had stop loving you is because mayb i had fell in love with someone else. But i had understood that the person i had like is not someone like you. As compared, You are better than him but it was because of his presence that makes me felt secure. But he will never like me. I am not somewhere near his ex. His ex is someone way prettier than me. Way better than me. All i could do now is talking to God, day dreaming about being with him and about you coming back to my side. But i know, all that is just a illusion... How i wish i could be with someone i love... Which is you and him and of course, Him. =)

There's no chemistry test tmr. But in exchange for it, there's a history mock test no.2 on monday. It's a SEQ on causes on World War 2.

Tmr taking back pure physics paper and social studies. I confirm flunk both of the papers because i didnt finish my SS paper and i don't understand what it was about. Physics confirm fail because it was a tough paper. But i just want to hope that i can pass my ss paper and my physics will not fail till so badly.

Lessons was normal and actually wanted to skip RELC because i'm having headache again. I wonder why i am always having headache. There was once i read a book it said that a guy keep complaining of headache and didnt go to see doctor but when he finally went to the doc, he was diagnosed with a brain tumor. man, that time i was so scared but i know that God will protect me and if it was time to go, i will go.
After sitting for a moment, i decided to go to the course because i cant help feeling guilty. i plucked up my courage to go into the class as i was late for about half an hour. time went past quite quickly today and 5pm came quite fast.

I miss you...

These few days were lessons, lessons and more lessons. I'm late for the first two days. hahas.
Thinking about it, there are a lot of areas which i should improve on for myself.

1) I should have a sense of emergency, not dilly-dally when it was time for lessons or meeting up friends.
2) I should be more thrifty. I am spending way too much this few days.

Lessons were as per normal. RELC course was ok too.

Last night, i suddenly had a craving to have cup noodle for my breakfast so i decided to wake up at 6.30 in the morning to go to Prime Supermarket to get my cup noodle. but, in the morning, i could not wake up because i was really tired so i gave up on eating my cup noodle. I thought i could never satisfy my craving of eating my cup noodle today but, something happen. hahas. during our recess break for our bridging programme, jade suggested to go to cheers to have cup noodles. hahas. i was jubilated. hahas. indeed, my craving was satisfy and the cup noodle that i had eaten was very nice even though it was my first try on it. it was indeed nice. saw leong wei and his friend on the way back to sch.

Physics was next. many was not around because they don't want to have physics lesson? hahas. We learnt transformer today and there's this primary coil and secondary coil. ms neo keep saying sendary instead of secondary. shermeen was saying that we will be all get influenced by her one day saying that we are studying in junyuan sendary school.

Eng, not bad. read essays written by koksoon, gerald and sean. not bad very nice. hahas. if i could write as good as theirs.
met ms chiam, jieni and pris. i got my rank! i got my staff sergeant rank! wohoo. and also my pioneer pin! yeah! thank God! As ms chiam was saying about the critirial to get a pioneer brigader broach, i was terrified because i does not possess what a leader should have and for the 4 days i does not have priscilia and jieni to rely on. but i will commit everything into God's hands. i believe as long as i abide in Him, i will be able to get it. =) jiayou!

Eng course, RELC, was next. 2pm-5pm. it rained halfway and the AVA room was cold. and must thanks amanda for solving my critical problem. hahas.

well, i got a 45/100 for my emaths. and i am glad that i didnt got a F9 for it. AMEN! =)

Finally it's over. my butterlies in my stomach had flew away. hahas. as i walked into the hall, i was so so scared and nervous but i know that i am not alone so i conquered my fears. As i was doing the paper, i had forgotten all about my surroundings, even though it was cold and super uper windy, i focused on my paper. paper was ok, paper 1 was okay too. paper 2, my mcq part scored a total of 21/30. i dont tink i could get an A1. because to get an A1, my written compre must get 30plus marks/40. which is impossible, but i must believe in myself. (:
all is left is mother tongue listening and oral. must practise to overcome my fear of facing examiners and also learn to prick up my ears to listen. i should not dissapoint linan laoshi, nan mama. hahas. received alot of jiayou msgs. Thank you very much!

saw yirong under my block today, didnt know that he will be there. he was waiting for me to get keith mama's birthday cake. thank God that i bought it the night before if not, things will be very very awkward. hahas. thank God! walked halfway to sch, then remembered that i forgotten to get a lighter. he went to buy one. my leg was hurting and i don't know why. hahas. reached sch, they played with cockcroaches, mama's worst fears. mama overturned it and everything just flew out. after singing birthday song, went to find nan mama. they were smashing cake at each other and i was lucky that i didnt got smash. wuahaha.

my head was hurting. i tink i will go see the doctor one day. my mood was super duper bad today. i didnt had my lunch and i was starving till i fell asleep, partly because i was having a massive headache.

Hope everyday will be like this. to be able to see you and talk with u... i.m.y

"My eyes are hurting and i don't know why. I didnt cried not rubbed it. It justs hurt. Maybe it's reflecting the hurt i had been feeling for the past few months. My heart aches but the pain subsides everytime but it always sours my nose. My tears had gone, i don't know where had it flowed to. Maybe God had kept it away from me. I know He loves me, He doesn't want to see me cry. but God, I love you too. I know it hurts to see someone you love to cry but crying seems a pretty easy way to vent out the feelings that were bottled up. The hurt that i had been feeling had completely invaded my body. I felt nothing but numb-ness.
Whenever i saw you, there's always a common thing that will happen and a common thing that was lost. You will avoid talking or standing near me. A common thing that was lost is the friendship we once used to have, the feelings we once felt for each other. We had become a completely stranger. maybe that is why elva had came up with the song, the most familiar stranger.
I could just ignore you and pretend that i don't know you. I could just walk out and get rid of the past and stop living in misery. But. for me, it's not easy to say goodbye. I'm trying hard, i am doing a favour for both you and me. i know you don't want me to be part of your life. i know that, you don't have to say, the feeling is there, for me to realise. The way you treat me and treat the others are so so different, even the blind could even felt it.
Everyday, it's a different kind of pain. Everyday, pain will happen, pain will linger. The once happy me had died, it died months ago. Like Jade wangwang said, our generation is the emo generation. well, some are happy, some are not. even if i laugh or joke, its just a way i wanted to make my friends happy.
Deep down, there's still pain lingering. Will you do me a big favour? Just be my friend again... Just this one.. I had never thought of being with you again. because this wish will only happen in fairytales. this is the reality. nothing of this sort will happen ever again. the only way was to study and study to keep my mind occupied. that's all i could do..."

-Above are the feelings i felt, don't ask me anything, i will not say a thing about it. it's just my feeling. nothing else. end of it...

Labels: Please do me a favour

today is the last day of sch but its not for us. having mother tongue o's on mon which make me so scared and panic. because the thought of wanting to get an A1 is very far.i always thought i could easily clinched an A1 but after the mock paper, the thought of easily getting an A1 was pui! hahas. Drean on man.


I'm seriously super duper upset and disappointed with myself. i did really really badly for my mock exams.

my eng mock is tmr and yet, i'm still here, blogging and slacking. my emaths was a gone case because it was really really hard. its a paper compiled from unity sec and whitley sec's last yr prelim paper. i was obviously broking out into cold sweat throughout the paper. i was very tired but i had to keep doing and doing. i seriously had the urge to cry but i cant because if i dun try, my hope will be dashed. i keep doing and doing until the end of the paper.

amaths, i failed. i gt an e8 for it. i gt 33/80. i thought i could get a passing mark, i thought i could. but seems like "the higher the hope, the more hurt you got". indeed, when my name was not announced, i seriously felt numb. my heart was beating seriously seriously fast as though i am going to have an heart attack.

today, i had my physics mock and the combined science paper 1 was seriously easy. (: but the paper 2 was quite okay. but but the sad thing is pure physics paper was super duper uper difficult. i think i will get a single digit. believe it or not, i so gonna drop it. i dun wan to drop to combined science but my physics really cannot take it. i always tell kailin that i will want to drop to combined science, she will sae i ps her. it is not that i want to drop. if i had the chance, i will also dun wan to drop, but sometimes, somethings are not within my control. i know you have the ability to get distinction for both maths and sciences. but i am not you, my maths and sciences simply sucks to the core. i dun have the money to go for tuition, i am not as sociable as you. you have outside friends to help you but i dun have. you is you; me is me. i dunno why but i cant help feeling inferior each day when i am with you, as time goes by, i seriously dunno what to do anymore.

chem is the last paper. i gonna strive hard and aim an distinction(if i could). gonna take the combined chem paper on 25 june. i must jia you!

mother tongue, i am disappointed in it. i gt a b4. i gt a 64.6/100 for both papers 1 and 2. my paper 1 pulled me down. my paper 1, section 1 gt a 11/20; paper 1, section 2 a 29/50. i did really badly for my essay. whereas, paper 2 i gt a 50.5/70. (: mother tongue o'level is on next monday and i must aim a distinction for it! so that i dun regret.

today gt to know that mr bai yi hao is leaving tmr. me bai is a very very good teacher, every physics remedial lesson he will be there to solve our problems and its very sad that he is leaving. i told kaiwei that if mr bai is our age group, i might like him. hahas. kaiwei sae she might too. hahas. mr benny is leaving on friday too. so that's very saddening because all the good teachers are leaving. man, well, just wanna hope that they will be successful after they leave the sch. (:

I believed that the news on the China's earthquake must have reached everyone and it hit the headline on almost every newspaper. i was watching a television show on tv, it was a taiwan show, its like a donation show and theirs was a really unique one. they had a lot a lot of taiwan celebrities at the back of the scene, listening to phone calls which the citizens of the taiwan ppl call in and donate amount of money for the sichuan's earthquake.

they said stories that was really saddening. one of them is that there was a mother of a three months old baby, she used her body to shield her three months old baby from the tumbling walls and between the baby and the mother, there was a phone which had a text that wrote, "baby, if you are still alive, mummy wanted to tell you that i love you." that was really touching.
another story was that there was a seven-year old boy piggy backing his three years old baby sister walking aimlessly around wanted to escape from the earthquake messes and the most saddening thing was that their parents was gone.

even though i couldnt donate any amount but i will do my part by praying for them. i know that its impossible for me to be able to help all of the victims but i know with God, everything was possible! i know God will be able to help every single victims out of the rubble.

my 100th post. hahas. i had forgotten what is my first post but i'm glad that i had made it to the 100th post. (:

today was suppose to study but i'm being lazy. my mind was full of watching television show and playing computer. even though there's no show today and there's nothing i could do when i on the com. whenever i on the com, all i could do was to reading other ppl's blog and then went off to write my blog and i seldom chat so its a bit boring.

the weather was seriously melting me and it was really unbearable. next week there's gonna be three mock exam and the first on is on tuesday, emaths. wed, physics. thurs, eng. i had not even study on physics so was abit worry. i wanted to go mac study but in the end didnt go out due to some reasons. either the weather's too hot or my mum dun let me go. she sae why must i go out and study when i could study at home. is it not that i dun wan study at home it was because staying at home, most of the time i will not be studying. i will end up playing the com or watching television. at least there's some sort of invisible motivation lingering when i'm outside and i could really study. i dun care, i gonna go out on monday to study.

mr chaw migrate off to melbourne yesterday. it was saddening to hear the news that he was leaving. he was one of the best teacher i had ever had. he really was a good teacher. but, i hope that he will be happy there and the obstacles he encountered will be overcomed. (:

phew.. another mock paper was over. it was the amaths paper and i felt really really relieved after that. i had been doing practises after practises since last night. i went to mac after my eng remedial yesterday and saw jieying and jieni. went to study amaths with shermeen and pris and studied till 6pm and did revision at home. from 8pm all the way till 2am. but all the revision i had done, was.. quite futile? because the things i learn went into my head but came out after a new thing went in. i slept for 4hrs and went to sch, not feeling tired at all. (:
den, mother tongue lesson, was learning amaths and mother tongue together and chemistry was great because ms zaleha didnt come and we are able to revise more amaths. (:
ss was next, we did essay and recess, after that was emaths and emaths lesson, we did revision on amaths too! (: what a great day! AMEN!
was planning to skip mother tongue seeding program but went in the end due to some problems. went in awhile and wrote a one paragraph essay. today was the last lesson so, it was quite sad. beginning to miss the teacher though. hahas. continued study amaths after that.
finally, the time had come and the first few questions was great! i know how to do. muahaha. (:
but the rest of them was quite disappointing. i tink i will get either borderline pass or fail. i was hoping to get at least a B. or an A even better but. hahas. no.

i was also hoping to get a good grade for my mother tongue olvl, which is on the week after the next but we could never focus on it! Mock exams are surrounding it!! i am really hopping mad! i tink not only am i the one hoping mad but the rest too. i promise to be a good girl and study well.

but, after all the examinations, i will want to relax myself first because i am going crazy after all the exams. i have a PBB selection camp on 12june to 15june. what is PBB, u might wonder. well, it's Pioneer Brigaders' Brooch selection camp. its the highest title that a GB girl could attain. jieni and pris will be going as well. i hope the three of us could get it! to bring glory to GB 56th! (:
jiayou!

today is the marking day and and there's no sch! hahas. i used the time to study my amaths and i managed to study till chapter 12 and i left with 7 chapters. hahas. i gonna study the whole 7 chapters tmr! had been hearing the term "mug". they used it for studying. wonder wat's that. hahas. anyways, gonna mug tomorrow. (:
because of the mock exam, i will be very busy! wohoo! my schedule is gonna be full.
tmr, there's a mother tongue mock exam and i hope i could get an A at least. but since last yr, the most i could get is a B. i hope i could do well tmr.
anyways, this is my schedule:
Wed, mother tongue mock exam, 4-5.15pm: physics extra lesson, after that, home and study
Thur: no exams or tests(: mayb ask pris whether can i go kfc study with her not. gonna revise for my amaths.
Fri: organic chem test. last lesson for mother tongue seeding program. 4pm-6pm will have amaths mock test. gonna rest but will study the next day
sat: gonna go mac and study, mayb study emaths and physics.

holidays are nearing and so, that will means, i'm leaving sch soon. therefore, i gonna enjoy my last few months stay in sch. and make it worth while. (:

its official, i so gonna flunk both my history and ss. wuahahas. i should not have injured my left wrist. because of the injury, my writing speed was slowed down and i felt really depressed about it. hahas. i seriously did not know wat the crap was ss talking about and therefore in return, i wrote craps back. (:
i know how to do history! but i spend too much time on ss le and i didnt do finish the history paper. well, gonna get scolded by mdm lee le. haiyo. die le.

sch was as usual. but today was a quiet sch day. there was only the sec3s and sec4s assemble in the morning and the sec3s went home after their examination and we stay until 4plus. had our chem SPA and we did experiment on the sulphur. the place was so stink up and it was like someone just puke in it. the stench was unbearable. hahas.

i had finally finished my book on the memoir of the gangster's daughter, its call "yakuza moon". it was a nice book and now, i'm starting on a new book. name the "P.S. I Love You". it was not bad. nice book. recommended. hahas.

4e4 was now known as the bird shop simply because of the amount of birds living at the corner of our classroom and creating a dim outside causing us unable to study. hahas.

i had a step mother today, he is jonathan. hahas. too bad, mother's day over. hahas.

tomorrow, there's no sch and i am gonna study amaths the whole day because test was on friday and i only study 4 out of 19 chapters. hahas. there's still tonnes of homework waiting for me.

my dun-really-feel-like-sleeping mood is back.wheneveri am feeling down,iwill not want to sleep at night. i wonder why. ijustwannasaethatidunwannaplaythehideandseekgameanymore.iamtiredofit.canustopactinglikeachildren,ihadsensethatuhad
grownupalreadybutiwonderisitmysensitive-nessorwhat,isensethatuareavoidingmeagain.sometimesthingshadchangeandithinkiwill stoplikinguanymore.becauseyourattitudesimplymademereallyheartaching.nomatterwhathappenbetweenusinthepast,letsputitaway andbefriendsagain.eventhoughitinkudunwantobemyfriendsagain.

forget it, manchested united won first place yesterday! wohoo! i simply love cristiano ronaldo! (:

wohoo! today is Mother's Day! wanna wish every mother in the whole world a

Labels: I love my mummy, mummy and mama

i recently found a song that was very nice. (: the song is call 传说. it is sang by 刘力扬&林宥嘉.
actually i didnt know gt this song but i found it on mama's blog and i found it very nice.
at first i listen to this song, tears brimmed up on my eyes. i dunno why though. these few days so so emotional. hahas.
today, had a bandage on my left wrist, i tink i twisted it. =X
today i learnt something during chemistry lesson. ms zaleha was saying about mother's day and telling us that we should really care for our mother and be grateful to them. during the time when she was giving birth to us, the cervics was only about 10cm long and our head will be bigger than that. then when something is bigger is going through something small, the thing will tear open. imagine, the skin tore up. the thought of it aches me. and if the skin dun tear, it will be cutted up. man, that was hurting! really, this made me dun wanna give birth. hahas. but must see who wanna marry me first. hahas. then, after hearing this, i am really grateful that my mum gave birth to me despite all the pain she had to go through and yet she gave birth to the three of us, the pain must be unbearable! MUM, I LOVE YOU! THANK YOU!
sunday is mother's day and i dunno what to get for my mum!
after sch was mother tongue seeding program and after that, went to KFC to study with pris. evon and sharon went to find us awhile.

刘：宇宙洪荒那时候
第一句爱是谁说出口
当时的他 如何形容
对方 听懂不懂
林：开天辟地了以后
第一对恋人什么结果
洞穴湖泊 日升月落
他们 爱了多久
林：如果我们那时就相遇
会不会爱得比较放心
林&刘：也许分离 还没被发明
来折磨爱情
林：一千次轮回都不错过
刘：一万里相随都不放手
林&刘：在每个尽头 再约好碰头
再睁开眼 就认出你我
刘：一千次轮回足不足够
林：一万里漂泊又算什么
林&刘： 这人海辽阔 爱总被蹉跎
总该留一篇传说 (x2)

林&刘：我会尽我全力 抵抗时间的侵袭
不停的爱你 HOHO......
林：一千次轮回都不错过
刘：一万里相随都不放手
林&刘：在每个尽头 再约好碰头
再睁开眼 就认出你我
刘：一千次轮回足不足够
林：一万里漂泊又算什么
林&刘： 这人海辽阔 爱总被蹉跎
总该留一篇传说
刘：OH 还好我有你
刘：幸好你有我
林&刘：一起写一篇传说

Labels: 传说

my planner had never been so full. this month's and last month's planner was full and i never had such a packed schedule. apparently, everything is coming at one go.
on next monday, we will have chemistry SPA and chemistry was at the last period. then we will have our ss mock exam and straight after the ss paper, we will have our history paper. i wonder how my brain will absorb so many stuffs in.
this coming friday, i will be going to study with pris at kfc. we will study till about 5pm. we will start studying every friday from this week onwards. guai kia leh. (:
next sat which is 17may, there might be an outing for GB, BB and Kaleo. i wonder jieni and pris will go not. hahas. hope they will go, to unwind ourselves. hahas.
mayb they will want to unwind themselves after the mock exam bah. (:
i wonder how can i expand the spaces of my brain so that i could put all the info i had read in.

today pe was great! due to the weather, we were asked to go to the hall and we only had choices like volleyball and captain ball. in the end, i played volleyball awhile and played basketball. hahas. smart uh? hahas. actually the smart one is not me, its jian xin. he started first then i follow suit. hahas. after that, physics was okay, learned the SPA skill 3 and ss was next. the fun thing abt wed's ss lesson is that it was only a period and we could be very slack. (:
next was recess and we didnt go down. mother tongue, we had test and i am not confidence abt it though. next is amaths and we learn the last things we need to learn and tmr we will be in to revision. CME period was in the hall and watch video and went out to lunch after that. saw mama! (: went big book shop and went back sch. wanna tell weiling not ot be sad. must smile. (:
went to mr bai's class and and i learn quite alot of things. (:
home sweet home! (:

Labels: packed schedule

today ever since after emaths period, my headache is back in action. looking at those numbers seriously was a headache man.
physics was next. i didnt listen the whole physics lesson. hahas. i was writing on my handbook. scribbling things. my planer was full. wohoo.
eng was next. man, i tink i gonna flunk it man. i write the essays like writing on my blog. but letter writing should be okay. but i have no confidence in it. english was always my worst subject. i had no problem writing on blogs. but i have lot and lots of problem in writing my essays. mayb blogs were free writing whereas essays were controlled by some topics.
had maths remedial and i went home after that. today i didnt study because of my headache.
but i will study tmr.

today i came to realised that i had to take both pure and combined physics paper. which means i had to stay back till 6.30pm. i tink physics have then chemistry might have.

i feel like running away from this freaky world! =[

Man, life is so hard nowadays. i'm going crazy just thinking about it.
the sec1s-sec3s are all having their midyear examinations and the sec4s were happily having lessons. but the nightmare had yet to come. i rather have midyear examinations than having mock exam! at least midyear's topics were lesser and studying them will be less tedious. mock exams were like bombs dropping down on us from nowhere. we were like having out mother tongue O'level at 26may and the mock exams are surrounding it. how can we concentrate on mother tongue when we had to study for the rest of the subjects? and and FYI, if we didnt score well for our mock exams, be it pure sciences or amaths, we had to dropped it. man. i always wanted to score well for my mother tongue. looks like its a gone case man.
tmr there's a english paper1 examination for us. mdm saleha sae it was a mock exam and i gt a shocked. paper 1, both sections. didnt give me any time to prepare. my english was like a goner. and now had to test on both sections. fate is playing a fool on me man.

and and, while others were having their june holidays, we were in school studying and having our exam. i know i had one paper which is on the 28may, it was a june holiday.
i wonder how i could withstand the stress. these few days problems keep popping out from nowhere and i was really moody about it. well, gt an advise. not to think about it. (:
i'm not gonna think about it! (:

call me crazy and i will answer. hahas. yes, today, i officially became a nutty person. hahas.
i began to start studying for my mock exam and i managed to study for 4hrs. a good beginning uh? hahas. in this 4hrs, i studied my emaths chapters 1 and 2, amaths chapter 1 and 2, excluding logarithms.
i had made up my mind to study real hard for my any upcoming exams and tests. and i also try my best to not use the computer for so long. mayb not using it too. (:
but i tink that's impossible. hahas.
i didnt go to grandma hse today and i felt bad because last wk i also didnt go. but i will go next wk definitely. (:

reading through ppl's blog. there's always something in common. ppl falling in love, ppl falling out of love. ppl heart broken, ppl heart rejoicing. there's always something in common between human beings, love.
What if the world had gone out of love? wouldnt that be the saddest thing on earth?

anyways, i am deciding whether should i skip my dinner like thurs? hahas. and go on and broke my records of 25hr and 13min. hahas. but i dun think so bah. coz i promise shermeen jiejie already. =]
but i lazy go out buy and i also dun wanna eat alone outside. =[

jiayou to those taking examinations tmr. heard that the chinese paper is tough but dun give up! there's still other papers you still can score for it! dun keep thinking abt one paper and gave up on the others. that's not the spirit. (:

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What Vanessa Means

V is for Virginal A is for Ambitious N is for Neglected E is for Enchanting S is for Sincere S is for Sassy A is for Alert

Found this in Shermeen jiejie's blog and thought of trying it. hahas.
Who says i'm not alert. i am, okays. =D

I changed my blogskin. My blogskins will be very boring because there's something wrong with my computer. I can't seems to be able to have those nice blogskins. I could only use blogskins that are found in blogger. so. that's very sad. anyways. this new blogskins of mine is not bad. I tink. (:

Starting Afresh. yeap. that's wat I gonna do. no point pinning hopes and grabbing at them. i gave up on those thoughts. i will let things go on naturally. God had a plan for me. Watever is going to happen will happen. I can't predict what will happen the next moment. so, i gonna live my life right. let things happen. not stop them. even if i'm gonna die the next moment i will let it happen.

I sound quite nonchalent abt my life. but i do care about my life. hahas. I am glad to have a lot of friends around me. (:

Yesterday. someone really pissed me off. stop talking bad about other ppl if you dun like someone. keep your comments to yourself! By saying bad things abt others, you are not bringing glory to God. you are not, okay. you always think others are not as good as you. well, what about yourself? i know others will like you. yes, i like to be your friend. but if you keep that attitude of yours. no way am i gonna be your friend anymore! i want the real you. i dun wan the fake you. so, get a life! will you!

i sound so agitated. hahas. i shall stop here. (:

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I'm so proud of myself! wohoo! i manage to broke my personal record (:
i manage to not eat any foods or sweets or anything, just plain water. for 25hrs and 13mins. (: its more than one day!
i stopped eating after ystd's lunch which is at 2pm.
i had lessons today and one good news! Ms Linan came back le! (:
so happy. today's morning weather is also nice.
okays, chem lesson was not boring too. wat a nice day today uh? It's all God'd doings! (:
ss lesson. gt scolded again. the whole class not me alone. hahas. i know its hard for her but she cant possibly threw all her stress on us. we are human beings too.
recess. sat outside the classroom. coz classroom was locked up. they didnt eat during recess. it had been a trend in our class that most of the chinese girls didnt eat during recess.
den emaths. i seriously dun understand the tree diagram. man. more things for me to work hard for.

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Happy Labour Day! hahas. okays, labour day is something we dun really celebrate but its a public holiday. so i tink its a day worth celebrate bah.
i woke up and had a headache. i had my breakfast and went to online awhile and i was a bit moody though. den to stop thinking of sad things, i went to study. recently, i found out that whenever i am feeling sad, i will go and head for study land. oh my, i'm turning into a nerd, a bookworm! to say it in a nicer tone, i'm a guai kia! (:
i study all the way from 1pm and stop for lunch at 1.30pm and continue to study till 4.30pm. i watch tv and watch halfway, at abt 5.30pm, i received a phone call from yirong and i heard keith mama's voice and huiji. they asked me wanna go out not den i was in the blur situation and den yirong take over ask me wan go out not, den i sae i will confirm with them again. i went to ask my dad who was sleeping and i was afraid that he will scold me and not let me go out but thank God! he let me out! Amen! i went to bath and out i go.
the bus was very late and i reached at 6.15pm. they were later then me and they went to buy ice cream. and i was not feeling well, i didnt eat. i was a bit feverish. went to LJS and huiji had to left and i was the only girl and i felt strange because i never went out with a bunch of guys with me alone. i didnt ever went out with guys even though i am with my friend so this is my first experience. they were playing jokes on me. the usual jokes that they will say when they see me. den, yirong said something which i tink it hurts alot. i walked away, in a nice way, saying i wanna go home. den i walked out. yirong grabbed my thing and we were in the situation where we are snatching things. den he was asking me why i'm leaving den i saw pris, she helped me and i walked away after taking my things. but i walked back after that, i dunno why but my legs had took me back. they were at the arcade after that, they played alot of things and the most worth saying is, they played the para para dancing machine. they were dancing. hahas. i didnt dare to play. while they were playing, there were lots of ppl attracted to them and i noticed a couple, the woman was pregnant and the guy was hugging on her and was dancing with her and moved her along with the machine and i can sae that they looked sweet. next time i also want to find someone who will love me. but now, i dunno.
went home at 8plus 9pm. reached home at 9.20pm and luckily, dad didnt scold me. thank God.
next time i also want to go out with them but with huiji along with me. i also hope to have more ppl though. the more the merrier. (:
thanks eunice sister for cheering me up in my midst of sadness. thanks jieni too for caring for me. i had a bunch of good friend and sisters. (:
tmr, the hamsters will be going back to their rightful owner again. ):

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Putting GOD first in my life. Love God. Love Life. Love Others. Heart Of God Church! <3

Hello,
I am Vanessa Quek!


I blog to pen down my thoughts and also to remember the important milestones in my life!

I'm someone who has faith in God and the God within me!

I'm working hard to be in likeness to Christ! Be radical for Him! Giving Him the best years of my life!

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