It's been awhile since I last blogged. Probably because I had sent my laptop for repair awhile ago. I think last week. Somehow, my laptop had some parts corrupted thus the technician had to delete every single informations in my laptop. Now, it's like a brand new laptop. Still trying to recover the photos and videos which I had saved in the past.

Anyways, know my SIP result already. I think I will give thanks instead of being sad that I am not with my friends. But the fact that I am in the same company as my partners is something worth happy about. My job scope is to do project management and my worst subject is project management!! haha. Here's what my job scope is about,

What do you think? I felt stressed about it because I know nothing about it. But somehow I felt blessed because I will have experience in doing this job the next time when I hit society. haha.

Ohwell, Wish me luck! (:

Thank you Father for everything! =D

Annyeong~ =D
Life had been great lately! I'm enjoying my life! Looking forward to every single day! Every day is a new day, a new beginning. Staying happy is the best thing ever. I really thank God for this! Compare now and the past when everyday is a dread to move on, I really wonder why will I feel so lousy in the past. But somehow, I think, everyone has their ups and downs. Just that now, it's my ups! haha. Hope this up will stay longer. But nonetheless, if I'm experiencing my down, I should face it with a happy mindset! (: I have God, He gave me my family, He gave me my friends! That's enough! hehe.

Had just went for a Tumblr spree! hehe. Following lots of people. haha! =P

After the visit to HMV with Enni excuse me yesterday, I think that, if I can, I want to use my pay every month to get something I like. You may find me silly or impulsive, but I hope I could buy CDs. SNSD's, CN Blue's and Shinee's! haha. Recently I had added shinee to my Kpop list. hehe. =P Onew~ haha. =D

Alrights, shall head for bed now! =D

I'm waiting for 18th April to come, hopefully I could know my SIP result soon. Hopefully it's good news!!! =D

Sijin ahyi, Sharon bb and Evon monster went for their Mentor Training Camp also known as MTC. Somehow, I regretted not going interview with them, maybe I will be having fun in the camp now. But somehow, there's this mentality that keeps reminding why I don't want to go for the interview in the first place. The fact that I never like camps. haha. Poly camps were somehow better because of the freedom but I'm a nerd, I love staying at home. Therefore the idea of camp never appeal to me. But going camp with friends is a fun thing. haha.

End of inner conflict with myself, full stop. haha.

Stayed home today. Had been on youtube. hehe. Had been watching Shinee's Hello Baby. Onew makes me love chicken. haha! I feel like eating chicken now. =P

Other than that, I had been hopping around Youtube, watching variety shows with SNSD in it. There's still many more which I still hasn't watch.

Going to work tomorrow. It's a 2 days job at Suntec. Earn a little money for SIP.

Talking about SIP. Asked the teacher in-charge if I could know my result, he rejected. ='(

I was cool about it though cause results will be out in a week's time. I can wait.

But then slowly, friends around me started to know and makes me so tense about it. I'm worried about which company to go, who I'm going with. I don't want to split, definitely.

But one thing I'm glad is that, whenever I'm scared or worried, I can cast my worries and everything to God. Committing everything to Him. I should not worry!!!

Told bb that, if it's meant to be, we will be together but if not, we should not despair too. Let's just pray hard that we will be together and that let's promise each other to do our best no matter what happens! (:

Definitely, without God's help, I will be nothing. And really thank you Prispris. =D

Prispris is considered one of my rarest friend in a sense that, she is one of the few of my friends who are christians. And when one is down, nothing beats being comforted by God's Word. And I'm glad I had her, because we can encourage one another with God's Word, spurring one another on during this life journey walk with God. And I find it more easier to quote God's word to encourage others than using my own words. Usually are those standard lines, "You can do it de, jiayou jiayou!" etc. haha.

Because I give up what had been constantly hurting me and spoiling my life, I felt nothing but peacefulness. I felt the joy in giving up something which had been hurting me everyday. Letting go does not mean something bad but it may be something good and joyful. It's how you see things. So far, I had let go quite a number of things, I never regretted. Because those love, I don't expect them to be reciprocated and that, letting go is a wiser choice.

So for now, don't have to worry we will fall for the same person, I give up. I decided to back away. At least I know that, it won't hurt so much. Even though I say that it won't hurt so much, but you only see the superficial side of me. No one really understands each individual's pain. Everyone's experience are different. But this is the best I could do. Wish you two the best. (:

We are still too young to experience what true love mean between human beings. That may happen to people but it's of very rare cases. So for now, I give up humane love between a guy and a girl, I prefer to stay under God's tender love and care, at least I know that is one place which I really belong and also I know that God will always love me. No matter who I am. He knows and understands me inside and out and for who I am. (:

Had been reading a book, called 90 minutes in Heaven. Something which I learnt today. It's that, We don't let go of pain and hurt. We grow on it. To be stronger as before. Pain and hurt don't leave us but when we grow on it, we will be different.

(: