Feeling so down now.

As you can see, I'm the only Christian in the family and I'm glad that my parents had come to term to this but still, in life, there are some part of them which they don't really want to accept this truth. My parents are strong believers of Buddhism. And both my brothers follow suit too. I was once the same religion as them but I became a Christian from the day 10December2007. I never once regret this choice made. Never, I can say.
So, today my parents told us that they are going to go for "shao mu" on this particular day. And so coincidently, this day is Good Friday, which is coming soon, 10thApril. I was quite aggitated and say why choose this day. My mum told me if I don't want to go, I can don't go. But I can sense her reluctance. My dad dotes on me, the most I can say. And today, I saw his disappointed face. He was with me alone today and he came and ask me, "why do I choose Christianity over them. Why don't I follow them? What if one day my pastor came and ask me to get rid of my parents because they are not believers of Christ, will you do that?" At that point of time, I'm speechless. I know that reason why I accepted Christ, but yet, no words could express why I accepted Christ. And for the question of getting rid of them, I assured him once and again that my pastor will never do that because the Bible said so to honour our parents.
Then my dad said this which broke my heart. "If you believe too much into Christianity, I will disown you."

F.Y.I. Both my paternal and maternal side relatives are all buddhist. Strong believer of it. But there's still a relative of mine that believes in God. But it makes no difference. I'm still standing alone, fighting this unseen war. Whatever my parents do, I had to follow suit. I don't want to disappoint them but when I don't disappoint them, I'm disappointing God. I don't know what to do. But what I know is that, I will never regret accepting Christ and I believe God will have a way out for me and that my parents will one day, come fully to term to Christianity and respect it. I believe it's the lack of understanding of Christianity that leads them to misturst. That's the way to human relationships too. Lack of understanding equals to mistrust and doubt.

"I'm struggling"

At least I went out today. Went for GB. This time round, no more Sec4s. Felt abit weird. But nevertheless, GB is still going on with the love in it. I don't know what I'm talking about. I'm a bit mess up now. Okays, well, first thing first. GB started with announcements and stuff. Then they went for their badgeworks. Drill is next. I wanted to teach the sec 2s sizing today but they are still not sure about their rollcall so teach them. They are too giggly. But at least they learn some thing.
LeongWei's discharged. Rest Well! (:

I'm not feeling that well now...

I didn't go WWW with the girls today because I can't go. Today was not as hot as normal day so hope they had their fun. So, what did I do today other than rotting at home. Hmms. Luckily there's something called technology that was invented. So I woke up at 9plus 10am. I listened to my MP3 while waiting for mum to finish doing her laundry and then I wash up and had my breakfast. Then I started to watch tv if I'm not wrong. I had forgotten what I had done. I remembered watching television programme till now. I'm using the computer now. I know, what I had done today is very environmental unfriendly. Sorry people. One more thing is that I had exhausted my prepaid card. It's left with unsufficient amount. I still can call and message but not too much.

It's 4.40pm now. I'm bored. Going back to school tmr.

I realise that my blog posts had been lacking the "hahas" which I used to put many many of it in a post.
"If she is the one that you like, I'm willing to say goodbye. That was what I used to think. But now, I don't think I am that brave to say goodbye."

Went for mugging again today. I reached WestMac first then followed by WeiSian then Shermeen then Evon. We shifted to KFC after that because the weather is too hot and the air con in KFC is stronger than Mac's.

Labels: A Little Too Not Over You- David Archuleta

Today is the annual Enrolment service for GB and BB. Well, started off the day with a short skirt. My GB uniform had indeed turned short and I felt uncomfortable walking around with it. Afraid that the pants in there will be seen. hahas. Sec1s came and I helped them with the uniform. This is the first time which I feel so gan chiong man. My hands were trembling while helping them clipping their hairs and everything. During the parade, two of the Sec1s are not feeling well so was helping one of them out. She's Natasya. Her face totally went pale. And she just practically lie on the floor. After that, I went up to the hall waiting for everything to start.
Then we have the march in of colours and then principal's address. It was long as usual. hahas. Then Captain's reports. I had more interest on GB's. hahas. GB is love. (:
Then march off of colours and finish. Went down for lunch reception, didnt eat anything cause no appetite. Was talking with Calvin, Don and Javen. Have photo taking after that. Then sing vesper and done. Home sweet home.

Went out in the afternoon after that to teach WeiSian together with Shermeen and Evon. hahas. I'm his Science and Chinese teacher(: But today didnt touch on Science. Was studying Maths. Study study till about 6.15pm. Then went off after that. To some place. hahas.

My shoulder is aching. hahas. I wanted to read Evon's post on OCH but I don't dare. These few days, suddenly develope a phobia. I'm suddenly afraid of the dark and walking home alone. So I was walking very fast on the way home alone. To boost myself up, I had turned on the music so that I will feel less afraid.

"INeedYou."



Went out in the afternoon to meet Evon and then to meet Sharon and HanLin. Sharon and me wanted to pay for our ezlink card but that person told us that after 30th then we will be able to make it. So we decided to go back to school. We walked back. The weather today was scorching hot. We were walking under the hot sun and finally we reached school. We walked in through the side gate because it was open and there was no security guards in sight. We saw WeiSian at the basketball court and HanLin went to play with him and the three of us went to the toilet first and after that heard from WeiSian that HanLin was chased out by the security guard.

Went to canteen to have our lunch. Ms Chiam joined us and after lunch, drank HL milk. After drinking that, was not feeling well. Yesterday I didn't sleep really well. Then after that, I went choir with Evon and Sharon and I went off after awhile because they are starting their training soon. Oh man, I feel so guilty because I cause my Don didi to have his phone confiscated. So sorry. WeiSian was finding someone and he could only regconise that someone by her shoe. hahas.

Training was alright. They are doing better than last few times and they are acting more like a team. I was alone at first, playing with the Drill Cane. Then Calvin saw me sitting alone, playing with the drill cane and he came over and tell me that last few trainings I have LeongWei to play with but now I don't have. Have to play with the drill cane instead. Javen was fighting with me over the drill cane. Then I was watching the Chinese Dance dancing. JieNi came after that, so was less lonely. Trained till around 6plus and went home.

I bought the Melon flavoured vitasoy. It tasted melon-y. I think about 99% melon and 1% milk. I could not taste the milk.

"Life feels less lonelier with you around. But..."
"I can't believe I cried 5 times yesterday. Whatever I do, my nose went sour. The moment I talked, I breakdown. The moment I started thinking, I breakdown. I miss you but yet, I still think that I am still not your "someone"..."

I had a dream last night. An unusual dream. I think it's two dreams instead of one. First dream is an encounter with the vampires. Think I'm too into Twilight and stuff. I remembered that turning into vampire and I could no longer be with my friends and family and I don't know why, I can vividly feel the fear and dejection of not being able to see them. Then there's this climax. Another vampire is coming to get me. Too drama I think. Then this dream tranform. Transform into some strange things. I remembered having the occupation of being a fireman. I was in this shophouse. There's three kids lying on the floor, after inhaling too much smokes, I managed to save one of the kids. I felt this fear, the fear that the bomb might trigger off anytime. Then I woke up. Both dreams had this life at stake kind of situation. And I was having this kind of feeling that something bad is going to happen but yet I don't know what is it.

Was in the phone with Sharon today for about more than an hour. Going back to school tmr.




I'm going to change my blog song and my blog skin(: because I have nothing to do. This week is going to end soon again. It's another fast week. It's Thursday already. Staying at home today. I shall do the things I want to do today(:
I studied Chem just now. Moles! hahas. I'm going to read a chinese book later(:

I'm going to skip my lunch later. I have no appetite these few days. I lose 1.5kg. The cough is not going away. I drank a lot of water, it did helps(: Mum bought a cough syrup for me. But I tried once yesterday and decided to skip it. Because I don't like it. hahas. =p

I was blog hopping and found this song. Lyrics and rythm are nice(:
It's 江语晨's 喜欢一个人的心情.

有人说聪明女孩别陷入恋爱里
会变多疑 会常生气 变得失去自己
有人说过爱情 不如想象那样甜蜜
我却无法戒掉爱情 整个世界都是你
遇见你天空更亮丽 喜欢的我不想逃避
希望和你一起 分享分分秒秒的两颗真心
即使感情结成了冰 回首时有你的足迹
就会开心 温暖我飞翔的旅途中曾有你

路上每辆蓝色的车都以为是你
像是蓝天 随时放晴 现在就想见到你
但是我不想为爱情看不见自己
给两人都留些空间 期待下一次相见
遇见你天空更亮丽 喜欢的我不想逃避
希望和你一起 分享分分秒秒的两颗真心
即使感情结成了冰 回首时有你的足迹
就会开心 温暖我飞翔的旅途中曾有你

漫步在茫茫人海 思念你的背影
我提醒自己 别为浪漫上了瘾
彩色爱情诱惑 不停地考验我们
还是喜欢你 说我傻也没关系
遇见你天空更亮丽 喜欢的我不想逃避
希望和你一起 分享分分秒秒的两颗真心
即使感情结成了冰 回首时有你的足迹
就会开心 温暖我飞翔的旅途中曾有你

Went back to school today. When I reach school, nobody's around. Everyone's in the hall. So I waited under the umbrella(:
The colour party are here plus Sir "Bun". hahas. And LeongWei. We went to the hall and train. We could only use half the hall because of the VolleyBall girls. So, when there's volleyball training, there will be balls flying around everywhere. So LeongWei and me were playing with the volleyballs. hahas. We tried to keep one in the store but thinking that it's bad so we returned it. hahas. Outdoor training and then home(:

Friday had to go back. So can't go Vivo with Sharon, Evon they all. =[
Saturday, had to reach school by 8am. Am anticipating it. (:

"Know the reason why I'm happy and contended?(:"

Went back for GB as usual in the afternoon. Was with JieNi because the Sec1s are doing their Brigade Knowledge test and so WenSu came and show us magic again. After that is drill session. Well what can I say. I think I'm a bad teacher. I try my best to be less lenient on them yet still am labelled lenient by my junior who is helping me to teach. Everytime drill session with the Sec2s always left me disappointment and dejection. When I'm serious, they joke with me. When I'm giving up they don't sense that I'm trying my best. I am tired to be lecturing them. When I lecture, they will not care. When I don't care, they don't care even more. Drill was always my favourite component in GB but now, I am not sure anymore. They want to teach the sec1s drill. I hope I could give them to teach but yet their syllabuses are not done yet. I could do nothing at all. God, I really am out of ideas to teach them anymore. ]=

Okays, away with the negative. In with the positive(:
After GB, stayed awhile. Then went to IHub to find Evon. Then we left and boarded the packed bus. When we reached there, Shermeen, Sharon, Jonathan mama, LeongWei and WeiSian are there already. So we took MRT and then to Ehub. We make a reservation at NewYorkNewYork because not all of us are there yet so we headed to the arcade. I am not allowed to go in because I am wearing my GB tee. But Evon monster lend me her jacket. Thanks! hahas. We played and MinNing came. Ronney and HanLin came next then Pris. We went back down to have our meal. Pris didnt eat. Take Care! I ordered something nice but I forget the name. They bought a slice of cake for Evon and we sang birthday song and she make her wishes. hahas. Then forfeit time. I had to hold hands with LeongWei and look at each other for 5 sec. hahas.
Then we went home. We were deciding whether to take a bus or a cab. In the end we took a cab. hahas.

Anyways,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EVON AND JEREMY GORGOR!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! (:

I'm happy that when some part of life is down, I always have BianTai to cheer me on. Thanks. I never regret forming BianTai.

"Do wishes come true?"


Today is my gor gor and Evon monster's birthday(: Evon and me had calculated that there are 6 other more people whom birthday falls on the same day as her but she still could not find one that falls on the same year as hers. hahas. I want to find one that is the same as mine too! (: hahas.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY GOR GOR(:


HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY EVON MONSTER(:

Also want to wish those who are born on this day. (:

May the good Lord bless you! =]

Yea! Today is another great day. hahas. First thing in the morning I met up with Evon for our usual stuff. hahas. It's been a while since I went out in the morning with her. hahas. Okays. We headed to the newly opened PLAYGROUND! Yay! It's big and we could play Blind Mice and I think it would need lots of catcher. hahas. Come I show you. (:





Another nice song found(:

I wrote this song it's not too long
cause I've been thinking about you
I wrote this song maybe I'm wrong
To be caught up about you

Well I don't know what you think 'bout me
Maybe you think nothing at all
But maybe you could just lie to me
And we could be in love you see

Oh it's a sing along song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can sing along maybe if you want to
cause baby I wrote this I wrote this for you

I wrote this song it's not too long
Cause I'm the one who loves you
I wrote this song this can't be wrong
I don't wanna smile without you

Well I just want to make you happy
but maybe you want nothing at all
and now I wish that you're meant to be
forever and a day with me

Oh it's a sing along song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can sing along maybe if you want to
Cause baby I wrote this I wrote this for you

In everyway you mean more to me than you'll ever know
Girl I'll do my best to show these words are true
and if you'd like to make a song and be a perfect harmony with me
I'd find the greatest words to sing so we could write our own romance

Oh it's a sing along song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can sing along maybe if you want to
Cause baby I wrote this I wrote this for you (x2)

Labels: It's hard to sing alone, why not sing along? [=

This week is gonna end. This week passes away fast maybe because I had things to do. (:
But next week is going to be great too! With Evon and my elder brother's birthday and enrolment! Next week is going to be packed too(: Let's see... Monday, nothing. Tuesday, GB and enrolment rehearsal and dinner. Wednesday, Enrolment training, Thursday, home, Friday, Enrolment training and Sat, Enrolment! (: Yea! A packed week! (: hahas. I sound excited(:

I was looking out of the window yesterday and I saw this stretch of rainbow. It was nice. (:

I was thinking of BianTai when I realised that most BianTai-ians has unique surname. (:
BianTai-C: Cherie CHNG
BianTai-D: HO LeongWei
BianTai-E: Evon YOUW
BianTai-H: NG HanLin
BianTai-J: Jonathan PONG
BianTai-K: SEE KiatWee
BianTai-M: Shermeen CHUA
BianTai-P: Priscilia LIEW
BianTai-R: Ronney POH
BianTai-S: Sharon LUM
BianTai-T: Pearcesley TAN
BianTai-V: Vanessa QUEK
BianTai-W: WONG WeiSian

Yea all 13 of us. All are LOVED(:

Oh oh. I had a great dream yesterday. =D

Wake up early in the morning to cook breakfast for my dad and usually I would sleep back until my phone's alarm rings again but this time, I did not sleep back. I was lying on the bed, with eyes big. hahaa. Then no choice, could no longer sleep so, get up and get ready for GB. I wear mufti today to GB since I had not wore it for so long already. Saw Orlena and Valerie outside and we went in together. Then WenSu was there with ShaoHui. WenSu did a magic trick and it's time to fall in. Did preparation for the enrolment stuffs. Then the girls and boys went to the classroom for their, "Yes, I do." things. hahaa.
OiLam came today, teaching the colour party. There's a change in the boys. LeongWei was not the flag bearer anymore. Cause OiLam says he's lame and now LeongWei is the RSM. Then WeiSian will have other role, he's not the excort anymore. Don replaced him while Calvin replace LeongWei. They did fairly good. But I believe they can do it. (:

Went home and my throat was dry and itchy. Was coughing like there's no tmr for hours. Finally now, it had stopped. hahas.

"To be able to see you without needing any reasons."

Labels: Aspiration

Went out in the afternoon to school to collect my O level cert. Met Pris, Shermeen, Evon, Sharon, WeiLing and HanLin. Even though it's school holiday now, the school is still packed with people. People having CCA, having camps, having lessons. I miss school!

After collecting the cert, we headed to Big Bookshop and then to the prata shop which is located near school. Then after lunch, we went to TP to use the com and then I rush off to school for the Enrolment rehearsal. So, the flag bearers are Valerie and LeongWei; Excorts are Orlena, Javen and WeiSian. WeiSian could not come due to his high fever. (Take care!) LeongWei could not really march because of his leg injury. (You must take care too!)

My throat is itchy and aching. hahas.

"You had become a habit to me..."

Labels: Habit dies hard

I had been searching for this song years ago. 3 years? Finally I'd found this because I was watching MTV Vault and they are interviewing Kelly Clarkson and therefore I found this song when it was played. I think Kelly Clarkson is a good singer and her songs were nice(:

Seems just like yesterday, you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong

Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I've cried
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything, opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright, for once in my life
Now all that's left of me, is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside

Cause I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I've cried
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me, then spit me out
For having you I blame myself
Seeing you, it kills me now
No I don't cry on the outside
Anymore

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I've cried
Behind these hazel eyes (x2)

Labels: Broken up, deep inside

I just got shocked. hahahaa. I went over to Evon monster's blog and played the Tic tatoo. Then suddenly a face came appearing out of nowhere and there's a screaming and I was using the ear piece. So... ouch. hahahaha. I think thanks to the unfriendly dogs at OCH, they had bolden me up. hahahas. Usually what I will do if I saw these things, I will run away from the com as far as possible. But this time, I was staring at the face. hahahaaa.

This week passes so fast. It's Thursday already. Going back to school on both Friday and Saturday. (:

I BROKE MY RECORD! I woke up at 12.30pm today. =P

I'm losing my voice soon. My left calf muscle is strained and my right hand muscle is strained too.

I had a fun time taggin back! Tag more people! (: hahaha

"God, I knew what your way is. And now, it's time to wait! (:"

Yea! I'm back from BianTai's first ever Chalet! It was a successful one, credits to those who planned for it! Three Cheers for you guys and girls! =D This chalet is a three days two nights chalet. I was able to stay for the second night and I'm happy already even though there's a lot of mozzies and bugs. hahas. From mozzies to ants of different sizes to millipede. hahahaa.



The pressure is sumounting. I don't know what will become of tmr. I could feel the pressure that monster had. But I still want to thank God in the midst of all this chaotic-ness. At least things started to become more clear than it originally was. The power of praying. Just like the psalms verses which I had read during QT, "when the weak cries, the Lord hears." Indeed, God hears me. I'm proud to be His child.
I believe what will happen tmr will happen, so no use thinking so much about it. I just want to commit everything unto God's Way. He had chartered everything, my path, my life, out and the problem lies in whether I had faith anot. So, whatever it is, I commit everything to God. (:

Stay strong! (:

Suddenly my mind had these words came by, "Don't be brought down by disappointment, grow strong through it." I heard You! (:

"There's still some things which I'm afraid of. I don't know what to do..."

Labels: Dont be brought down by disappointment, grow strong through it

Went out working today. This is just a one day job. It's Cherie's family business, her aunt's tuition centre. So, as usual, we did the flyers jobs. Going block to block giving out flyers. Evon paired up with me and the building, we separate it into left and right. I went to the left while she goes to the right section. Consider belated Friday's 13th, I encountered five dogs and Evon had none. Actually there's one she had encountered with but the dog is playing. Not that I don't like dogs, haha, it's the bark that makes me jump. hahas. And they are behind the closed door. Man. hahas.

Anyways, today's Drill competition, it's a bit regret that I could not go and root for them. But they got bronze! Yay! You might think that bronze is nothing as compared to silver and gold. But to us, it's a significant that the effort of the girls had been paid off. (:

Watching the Match between Manchester United and LiverPool now. And it's 1-1. The one score from Man U is from Cristiano Ronaldo. (: hehe.

"Will a sweet dream turns into ugly reality?"

Went out shopping with Shermeen, Pris, Evon and WeiLing. I cannot believe the word shopping will come popping up in my blog. hahas. Because I don't really like shopping in the past. But now, I think I'm getting the hang of it. hahas. We headed to Bugis for our lunch first. Had LongJohn and the five of us are practically squeezing into the two small tables whereas beside us there's a six seater but it's occupied by two ladies. We should switch place. hahas.

We started off by going to Levis because Shermeen wanna buy Jeans. She said that she saw the jeans are sold at two for $99.90. But when we went there, there's an extra number 1 in the front, so it's $199.90 instead of $99.90. hahas. Then we went to Bugis Street. We shopped and shopped but could not find the ones that we like. They were looking for vests. Then we went to a shop where the five of us bought a shirt each. But WeiLing and Shermeen bought two. So we were having the thought that we finally bought something home. hahas. Then we saw this super cool shirt. It's like there's a word in the middle of the shirt, for example, the word, Nerdy. But when you look into the mirror, the nerdy changed into geek. So it's like so cool. hahas. Shermeen went off after that and then we headed to Far East. We shopped and headed to Han's for dinner. Only Pris and me eat. Then we decided to shop for awhile and then we headed home. Pris and me were changing the lyrics of a song so it was like hilarious. hahas.
Finally, home sweet home. (:

I'm tired! hahas. Tmr, will be working. Sunday will not be free and monday, off to BianTai Chalet! (:
Anyways, I love my button shirt(: hahas.

"I had a bad feeling."

Have you ever tried Vitasoy? hahas. I'd been drinking this for days. It's not exactly milk but soyabean milk? I don't know but I think it taste great. hahas. Okok, for me it tastes great. hahas.

Anyways, went out in the morning with mummy till around 12plus. My younger brother is having his one week holiday already. Tmr is his Meet the parent session.

This is my first year, after years of studying, without my March holidays. hahas. But apart from the boring march holidays I had been through, this year's is going to be awesome. Just the mere starting three days will be cool. BianTai Chalet! wohoo! Then on Thursday and Friday, I think I have Drill Camp. For the Sec 1s and 2s respectively. Then after March Holidays, Evon's birthday will be next. Then enrolment, then TP orientation things. Then school reopens. I had lost touch of studying already. Had to restart my study engine and go! hahas. =D

My elder brother is having his one month holiday before his attachment. He's attached to a gym called "True Fitness". It used to be called "Planet Fitness" but brother says that it's been brought over and thus the change of name. I think that planet fitness sounds nicer. hahas.

Okok, anyways, Kailin's flying off to Japan this coming Friday. Bon Voyage! And Cherie's flying off to DisneyLand in 19 more days. Bon Voyage to you too! hahas. okok, I shall end here. =D

Meet Evon in the morning to do exercises. hahas. As usual, had much fun with her. (: hahas. We did abnormal things today. What we did can't be revealed because it's something not nice. hahas. Okok. Anyways, went home around 11am. Then get ready for GB in the afternoon.


During GB, was with the Sec1s for their Brigade Knowledge. Then had drill with the Sec 2s. Teach them new things. (: Then after parade, went to see the rest of the girls who are busy preparing for their Drill Competition this Saturday. It's so cool. But must be very tiring for them. Had to juggle schoolworks, GB and family time and friend time. Somemore heard that their TA1 just over and now they had TA2. This is madness man.

Anyways, I hope all the best for their competition this coming Saturday. (: Jiayou! =D

I love today(: Because today both my parents are not working. Family time(:

Went for a jog with Evon in the morning. Then as usual, we started chit chatting after doing our sit ups. Then we went to 840 playground to continue chatting.(:
Went home at 11plus am. Almost fell off my bike. hahas. Due to the narrow road and a hump.

Went home bathe and then dad drove me to SATA to collect my medical report. There's no people today and so my report is collected in less than 5minutes time. Had lunch with daddy. It's been ages since I had lunch with my dad alone. (:

GB tmr. (:
BianTai Chalet in a week more(:

I did a test analyse that I saw from WeiLing and Shermeen's blogs. So try it for the sake of fun. But still, there's part that's really true. (:
Oh man. When I was about to copy the codes to the house, I clicked on the cross on the right hand corner of the window and there goes my house. Man. =[

But still, here's the result:
You are sensitive and indecisive at times. You are good at making friends and when the joyful moment arrives, you make the most out of it. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes.

When it comes to love, you shut yourself off. It's difficult to win your heart because you have decided to keep your feelings deep inside. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people.

You added flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

I went to church today because I didn't went last week and am not able to go next week. Meeting HuiYan and SzeYing at Tampines Mrt Control Station. So instead of taking a bus, I walked there because of the adult fare.
Saw Jade at bus inter. It's been so long since I last saw her. She's still the same. (: hahas. Then while waiting for them, saw Eunice and we board the same train together. Meet YunQian in the train. Was talking to Eunice and I realised that she's very stress about her studies. Will pray hard for her. She's just Sec3 and she's so stress already. I remember when I'm in Sec3, I'm still playing. Maybe because she's in 3e3 that's why so stress.
Reached church and we are early! (:
Praise and worship then sermon. Talked to Jami. Then they went for Kaleo while I went home. While walking home, I was thinking about the sermon and there's this urge that I am feeling. I want to reach out and have more people receive Christ! I want to help people and I want them to know Christ! So, I aim to invite friends to come to my church! (: I hope BianTai could come to my church one day. That will be a great feeling! (: God, help me! I want to reach out. (:

Enrolment will be on the 28th of March, Saturday. Will be held in School. 10am-12.30pm. (:

Everybody's got something
They had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday
That just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways
To let you go

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you, yeah
Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
And so my road can never be'cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering

How it should be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways
To let you go
I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will
You know you will, oh baby
You'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
It's no use looking back or wondering

Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye, no, no, no, no
I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words
to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where like takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be with you,
Over...

I don't like the weather now. For some unknown reason, there's been a row of countless lightnings and thunders. So, while typing, there's lightning flashing at the corner of my eyes. So, when it's time to cover my ears, I will stop typing and start covering my ears. So the scene is like typing and covering, typing and covering. I don't like thunder. I like rainy days without lightning flashing on the already gloomy dark sky. The rain is heavy outside. It's raining like nobody's business. Think it's going to rain till it's happy maybe because it didn't rain yesterday.

Oh oh. The previous post about the questionnaire thing, I remember there's one animal starting with the alphabet V! Vultures! [= hahas.

Today is not a really good day. Not because of the weather outside now but because of some reasons. Because I had nothing to do, I spent lots of time thinking or rather, reflecting. Some problems solved, while some still remains as a mystery. God will guide me. (:

Oh oh. Receive a msg from Jieying yesterday asking me whether could I teach drill on the 16th. But I've got BianTai Chalet on that day. But if time allows, I might join BianTai after that. Maybe, maybe not. I don't know. See how things goes first. (:

It's either this or that, we can't enjoy both.

It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real; nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name: Vanessa
2. A four letter word: Void
3. A boy's name: Victor
4. A girl's name: Victoria
5. An occupation: Vet
6. A colour: Violet
7. Something you'll wear: V-neck shirt? (I don't know hahas)
8. A food: Vegetable
9. Something found in the bathroom: Vanish detergent! hahas.
10. A place: Vivo City
11. A reason for being late: Vaccuming (will I? hahas.)
12. Something you'd shout: Very funny ah?! hahas =p
13. A movie title: Valkyrie
14. Something you would drink: I can't think of any drinks which I would drink with the alphabet V. Vodka is what I could think of but I don't drink that. hahas.
15. A musical group: Veronica (In my subconscious I think there's a group call this)
16. An animal: Nah. I can't think of any.
17. A street name: Victoria street?
18. A type of car: Volvo
19. The title of a song: Viva la vida by coldplay

Taggies! Anyone will do but if you had done it, must tell me! I want to see(:

Meet Evon at CP's big clock in the afternoon. Sorry I'm late! Off to meet Pris and WeiLing at Inter Small Mac and off to Ehub. Reach there at 1pm and we went to arcade and play because the cafe had not open yet.
Then at 2pm we ordered our foods. Ronney, HanLin, LeongWei and WeiSian came and we started playing the first game. It's call Jurassic Park if I'm not wrong. It's sort of a forfeit game. Then we break into two teams. The guys played Uno stacker then we play a game call Kill Doctor Lucky. hahas. We played till we surrender. hahas. Cause we could not manage to kill the doctor. He's sure is lucky. hahas. (:
Then we play the forfeit game again. Then at around 5plus 6pm we went to arcade to play for awhile and we left at around 6.30pm. The guys took cab and we waited for the bus. Walk home and home sweet home.

It's been awhile since I've last jogged. hahas.

Go forth or back away? No matter which step I decide to take, it needs courage.

Labels: 有种拥有 叫作放手

I was blog hopping and I "hopped" to Jade's livejournal and I've discovered something. Here's what she said, "...God takes gossiping so seriously, He records down every single thing we say that we might, because of what we say, no longer belong to the Kingdom of God."
Man, from this moment onwards, I will never gossip anymore! I won't want to because of gossiping and lose God. And so, Vanessa shall not gossip from this moment on. =D

Okays, this is what is going to happen. Tomorrow, outing with Priscilia, Evon and WeiLing. My LaoYiJia gathering. hahas.
Saturday, no GB. So will be home.
Sunday, nothing too.
Monday, nothing.
Tuesday, GB.
Then, guess that Wednesday onwards, will be home all the way till March Holiday! BianTai Chalet. hahas. Thinking back, I think it had been a month since I went to TM. hahas. I can survive without shopping malls. (:
Enrolment will be on 28th March. Saturday. (:

I was in my elder brother's room watching tv and during the commercial break, I saw a stack of magazine he was reading recently. It's called "Men's Health".



No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
In my hand in the fire
Sooner or later I get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
The truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you(I'll always have you)

Sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I've gotta be strong and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you(I'll always have you)

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
There's still a part of me in you
I will never regret
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do, oh

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken(yeah)
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction(don't look back)
I loved you once, needed protection(no, no)
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

I can't waste time so give it a moment(i can't waste time)
I realized nothing broken
No need to worry about everything I've done(no need to worry)
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction(don't you ever look back)
I loved you once and I needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

Somehow the cycle is broken today. No more sunny morning then rainy afternoon. It seems that today it's raining the whole day. Went out in the afternoon, around 1.45pm, to meet up with Sharon and Evon. Saw ShiJie there and he was waiting for his friend and so we sat at the bus stop together. Then it started drizzling then the cold wind keep blowing. Wait and wait till about 3pm and saw my brother's girlfriend and her cousin and then saw Kristel, Clarie and Jasmine and Eunice. Then ShiJie's friend came and we left for school.
When I reach school, only the Sec1s and 2s and 5s and Mrs.Sim were at the 2nd floor of the library. Then Ms.Chiam and JieYing came and I left halfway of GB cause there's nothing to do and Sharon Evon had reached school(:
Then we went to the hall to watch the choir sing. Then walk past BB room and chat with LeongWei, WeiSian awhile then saw Jonathan mama. We went to the first floor and went to General Office. Ronney and HanLin were opposite of the school and we waited for LeongWei and WeiSian. Then they started playing with a tennis ball. Went to Mac for a quick bite and we went to Central Park. Went to LeongWei's house but when Evon, Sharon, Ronney and me reached, he was already gone. Ronney went down the lift whereas we walked down the stairs. Found them at the basketball court. Humph. hahas.
Had a quick match and home. (:

P.S/ I think I can stay for the chalet. =D Mum say if I wanna go, then go. Hope that more of the girls could stay. (:

"The truth is starting to becoming more and more obvious. The more I think, the bigger the possibility that what I'm thinking is real. I want to hide myself from the truth because I know that you never felt the way I thought it was before. I had fallen too deep but the truth still remains there. I pray hard but still absence made everything more obvious, that I had fallen deep. There are times I wanted so hard to confess but still, I stopped myself in time because there is a big possibility that I could not handle the consequence. If only things could be simplier. If only I could have the key to enter..." -The work of daydreaming(:

Went to SATA today morning. Reach there at 10 and I'm number 97. There's a lot of people. Then had my tests done and left at around 1pm. When I left, there's still a lot of people queueing up.



Gym in the morning with Evon. LeongWei, WeiSian, HanLin and Ronney were there too. The gym was packed cause it's Sunday. hahas.
Cramps all over. Maybe because had been straining myself since last week. But it's ok. (:
Went home and bathe, and went over to grandma's house. Home and have an early dinner.

These few days' weather was like a cycle. Sunny in the morning and rainny so heavily in the afternoon. But it's good that the plants were back to their usual green. (:

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