Third day when Ris Low is hosting the Shan, Rozz and Ris show, 4pm-8pm. So many things had happened for the past 2 days. Rozz had left and now it's Shan and Ris show. It's no longer funny anymore. It's just pure strange. The reason why Rozz left is because of Ris. What happened is that first day, Ris reported 2hours late that's ok. Because she mixed up the time. But yesterday, she left 2 hours early. Rozz could not take it anymore and just left in the midst of the show and was now, requesting for a transfer.

Hmmms. A bit of complication there. Hope everything will turn out fine.

Got to bring my lappy to repair on Sunday. Cause it's getting worst, so had no choice but to take a trip down to Orchard with dad. Hope everything will turn out fine. Cause school is reopening soon. 2 full weeks and a few days more to school reopen.

Tmr's April's fool! :)

Went back for GB today. The first meeting withouth the sec 4s. It was kinda messy. Drill was cancelled though. There's a mini gathering because the sec4s had something for these juniors of theirs. Practically everyone is crying. Tears of missing the Sec4s. Even the sec1s cried. I was shocked though because I thought the sec1s were suppose to be those i-dont-know-what-is-happening ones. haha. But their bond is there. Maybe the UG camp had really bond them.

Even though Orlena told me it's a total failure but what is worth commemorate for this failed UG camp is that the bonds between GB is definitely built up.

And now the girls are flooding my mail. With pop up coming once every 10 seconds. haha.

I'm entasked to sell next semester's textbook together with Sijin. Shall mail the teachers soon too.

Sending the comp to repair soon because, it's not going to make it anymore. More lines are appearing. haha. :)

That's all. :)

I tried to eat a piece of bitter gourd today. Because I'm curious whether am I still allergic to it. When I was younger, the itch will quickly kick in after the bite. But this time, it's not as worse as last time. Maybe because I only eat a small tiny one. haha. But the feeling is there. It's like ants crawling on me. Patches of itchy-ness. haha. That feeling, eeew, I don't want to have it anymore. And also, itch came in. But this time round, it's a minor one, no lotion is needed to treat it. :) I'm glad because my house does not have any.

Ris low joined 98.7fm today. Joining the crew of Shan and Ross, 4pm-8pm show. haha. She was late on the first day of her job, which is today. She was supposed to reach before 4pm to prepare for the 4pm show but yet, she came at 6pm. You know why? Cause she thought 1600hr is 6pm. haha. Can't blame her though, ppl do mix them up. It was o-kay. Just that the way she reported the news was abit strange. haha. But nonetheless, it was quite okay. :)

Going for GB tmr. Ms Chiam is not going to join us starting from tmr onwards because she's going to give birth anytime. Hope she will join us soon with her baby girl. :)

"Ask me if I'm alright?
I thought I am.
But then I realised. I'm not.
As yet.
Can you come back? Please?"

The sky had been lit with stars these two days. Not only a handful of stars but countless. :)

I didn't go to church today. Then the guilt kicked in because I overslept. Had been sleeping a lot because I'm tired. haha. The fatigue wave is over by now. Because I had been catching a lot of naps today.

Going to GBC tmr. Because I'm going to help one of my sec1 girl to buy a tie crest.

Talking about GB. I will always think it's such a big thing that is happening in my life. Because of GB, I knew Priscilia and Jieni and many other amazing people. :) Because of GB, I knew this amazing God and Jesus and what He had done for me, changing my life. I miss those times when the three of us, Pris Pris, Jieni and me, will be busy with our own squads and are never demoralised due to the number of girls we had in GB as compared to other UG.

I almost wanted to appeal out when I found out that I was posted to GB, a CCA I had never heard before and never knew. But lucky I didn't, cause if I did, it will be such a huge mistake. haha. My conclusion, stick to the thing which is given to you because it's God's plan and you will never regret. Grow in it. :)

God is looking for ordinary people for extraordinary work. :)

Enrolment is today. Woke up at 5.45am. Almost could not wake up in time because I slept in quite late the night before at around 12.45am. At least this year is not as hectic as last year's. Can counted that this year's parade is least complicated as compared to last year's.

Lunch at Manpuku with Shermeen, Sharon, HanLin, Jonathan and Ronney. Before that, bus-ed to Tamp1, saw Yirong. He's on the way to church. On the bus with him, saw Mr Bun and Yang Zhe.
The lunch was good. I was starving because I didnt had a proper breakfast. But the serving was big, I could not finish my Chicken Cutlet Set. Leongwei and Weisian joined us after that. We were all busy pulling toilet rolls using Ipod Touch.
Walked around and there was nothing to do. Went home at around 4plus.

Should be going to church tmr. It's been quite long since I last went. 3weeks? Hmmms. I don't know.

EARTH HOUR is TODAY! Remember to switch off everything. EVERYTHING. From 8.30pm -9.30pm. :)

That's all. :)



700th post. :)

I downloaded Mozilla Firefox just for the YOG thing. Because it only supported Internet 7 and Mozilla Firefox3. It seems nice.

Went back to sch today to help up at around 1pm. The weather was sweltering hot. There's rugby match today too. JYSS vs. Admiralty.

Got to wake up early tmr. That's all. :)




安静 by 周杰伦 perfectly describes how I felt now. Maybe this shall be the last time I'm going to feel this way. I shall move on. Today, reality had shown me that there's nothing more I can hold on to. Even though we are not in a relationship but biding goodbye to you seems like a breakup to me. It's even harder, more painful. But I know, I got to, because today reality showed me.

“你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开

我会学着放弃你."

Went to gym in the morning today. Prefer to go in the early morning when everyone was in bed. Meet baobao and have lunch then back to my house. It was pouring on the way home. Saw Ms Chiam and Mr. Tan at Tamp 1 though.

Went to Junyuan after that, didnt meet any of my Sec1s cause it's raining and all had went home but managed to return the name tag. The admin was quite pleased with this act but what is happy is that, he added credit to GB. :)

Thanks YinXuen for walking with me. :)

That's all for today.

It's this time of the year when both my good friend and good brother's birthday. haha. Yupps, it's Evon's and my elder brother's Birthday. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :)

I wanted to get a water bottle from a sports retail shop today so I went to look around with my little brother but I could not find any. So, instead, I went to Times and bought a book. haha. Was quite happy that I bought a book but I still want a water bottle. haha.

The book was titled, "Just Enough Light for the Step I'm on". :)

Okays, I'm going to save up, mainly to strike off those things I wanted to buy on my to-get list. haha. Firstly, I wanted a sports bag so when I go to gym, I could use it. Does not necessary applies to gym only but for camps and chalets and etc. :) Then I want to get a water bottle. And last but not least, a sports wear. :) That's all for now.

Oh, I found a Student Councilor's name tag. Going back to sch tmr, so will be returning it to that person if I chanced upon him. Or pass it to Vivian if I manage to see her. He's from IT/PA. Should be a malay because the name looks like a malay's.

Hmmms. That's all. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :)

"I found myself running back to you."

Far Away by Nickelback. :)

"What if everything remain the same

like last time when I see you in sch

today...?"

Labels: 506th day and it shall end...

Second visit to the Zoo for this year. But today we had an additional member. My elder brother's girlfriend. The total entrance fee cost $102.

But this time round, we managed to tour finish the Zoo, in 5 hours. It was fun, going to places that we missed last time. I want to go back there again. :)

The fatigue from the chalet had not over yet. Throughout the whole touring of the Zoo, I'm so restless. Haha. But at least, I keep myself awake. Went home at ard 3pm. I'm glad that it didnt really rained but it did drizzle at around 2plus but it didnt stop us from continuing walking.

Totally worn out. But it's worth it, both the chalet and the zoo trip.




Biantai 3rd Chalet was awesome. Simply awesome. I had my fair share of fun. A little pity that Evon and Weisian could not make it but nonetheless, there's still next time. =]

Even though I brought a camera along but it's quite redundant. I didn't really used it. So, no photos for this post. :P If you want to see photos, can either go to FB or go to Shermeen's or Pris's blog. :)

It rained almost everyday during this 3 days. As usual, I could not go to sleep on the first night and it's cold. Super duper uper cold. Staring at the ceiling, sitting on the bed, many thoughts running across my mind. Because I didn't catch any winks, I had a massive headache the next day. Second night, I managed to sleep. Drifting in and out of my sleep.

Check out at ard 10am and we, LeongWei, Pong mama, Hanlin yeye and Sharon, walked under the rain to Downtown but I went off first because I got to go off first. But met up with them for lunch because was called back for a meeting in sch. Went back to sch with Sharon and afterwhich, went to church.
I think it's because of the rain that the train was delayed every two stops. A 16min train ride become a 30min ride.

Okays, guess I got to head for my bed now. hehe. I miss it. =]
Going Zoo tmr. =D Hope it wont rain tmr.

It's going to be another cold night...

Nothing can describe how I felt now. Nothing I can do to make myself feel alright and complete again.

It's back to the question again. Give up or wait.
I know it's dumb. I keep getting caught up by this question. I keep getting stumble. I need guidance, I want to know your thoughts. Some times it just suck to decode something which I can never know.

I tried giving up. I tried to think that maybe there's another alternative. But I gave up that thought. I simply can't let go, not now. It's been such a long wait. I had been trying to convince myself that maybe one day, something good may happen. This thought, seriously, became a huge blow to me when I stumble. I don't want others to know how I feel. I don't want others to see that I'm sad. Thus, I never show them how I felt when my heart aches. That some times, I just hid in one corner and cry it all out. Crying does help but nothing beats praying.

God told me to wait, at least I thought of all the things that had happened when I was praying and He showed me that perservere is the way. But I guess, I had to go against Him soon. Wait, I don't think I could wait anymore when I know that there's someone else in your mind and that she is irreplacable. I keep wanting to deny this fact but many things had shown to me that she is the one and not me.

I'm not afraid of losing. But losing you. I don't think I could do it. Maybe one day I will let go, but I know it's simply not now. Even though there's someone else, I will keep reminding myself that unless you tell me, if not, I will let time take over and let everything goes along the wind. It hurts a lot. Trust me, it's killing me, inside and outside.

Weighing all the pros and cons in the middle of the night the night before yesterday's. I told myself, I must face it. Face you, face the truth. But everytime I look at you, the image of she came out. It's like stabbing myself again and again.

Nothing's going to be right anymore. Give me time. To let go, to put down the hands held out for you, etc.
I'm sorry for being a coward. I'm sorry for not telling you how I felt because I fear rejection and avoidance, I'm sorry...

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»YOG

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Went for YOG briefing today with Sharon and Evon. Evon was offered the job post of Venue Operation Assistance. Whereas Sharon and me had gotten the job title of.... Floor Manager! hahah. By the name of it, we keep thinking of funny things that we will be doing. haha. Like before, during and after the competition, we are suppose to keep the floor clean at all times. hahaha.

But in the end, when we went for interview, we got to know that floor manager is quite an important role, firstly, you got to be able to manage your stress well. Because you got to coordinate all the things happening at the competition area. Like synchronising the music, cueing the athletics when they should come out, keeping track of the scores and many many more. haha.

But what we could do in the future is good cause we will be able to know how to plan events and many more. :)
Only 20,000 people in Singapore will have this YOG thing reflected in their resume. Haha. :D
We will be getting 2 uniforms, and 1 cargo like pants, when we are outdoor, we can detached the bottom part to become a knee length pants and while indoor it can be attached to become a long pant. haha. We will have caps and pouch given to us and our very own Ez Link card. hehe. Can be use after the YOG but have to top up the money our own. And while we are travelling during the period of YOG, transportation is free. And the best thing about the card is, it's PURPLE. hahaha. :D Sharon keep saying it's like senior citizen card. hahah.

Afterwhich went to Orchard with Pris, Ronney, Leongwei and Hanlin to check something. Then home after that.

Okays, chalet will be tmr! :D Hope everything will be fine. hehe. :)
Got to go sleep now. Head is spinning like mad. :(
Nights! :D

"Got to the stage of reminding myself repeatly that

that girl is just not me..."

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»Just don't give up on me

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Didnt went to church today cause dad's working and little brother is sick and if I go to church, he will be alone at home. So stayed at home.

I came upon this Sudoku yesterday and I'm trying to solve it but so far, I filled up only two boxes. hahah. It's hard, no doubt. haha. I could only handle those one star ranking ones but not this, 5 stars.

Adam Lambert is in town. hehe. :)
I used to think that Kris Allen is better than him but somehow, changed this opinion of mine. I think both have their own good but guess, I like Adam Lambert more now. haha. :)

"Every seconds that ticked by..."

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»Blogskin

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Came upon this blogskin and decided to change the old one away.

Received a phone call from a TP staff this morning and she called to tell me about this coming Wednesday's, 17th March, YOG meeting. She said it's a compulsory meeting and asked me if I still remembered her calling me months ago informing me about being appointed as a leader. So, my first task was to call the people from my course to read the email sent to them.

Should be giving it a try cause it's going to be a good experience earned but I'm scared I can't really commit due to many things, mainly examinations and projects. IRDD! Oh no. But decided to give myself a try. Push my personal boundary. Kris Allen's No boundaries! :) haha. Sharon will be going too. hehe. :)

Exam result should be coming out tmr.
I'm keeping myself from being rusty towards Chinese, I'm learning Chinese Idioms. haha. What I had read about are these two words, 按部就班 and 百年树人. haha. :P

Labels: 496th day

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»Rain

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

It rain early this morning around 4plus am. haha. Rain now seems such a great deal to everyone out there. hahaha. It used to be one of the hated weather but now, it's such a treasured one. haha. It not only rained once today but twice! haha. :P

Doubt it will rain again for today cause the sky is clear and hope it's not humid nor hot. Just hope it's cooling. :)

Yay! Raining while I'm sleeping is the best. Teehee. :D

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»Back!

Monday, March 8, 2010

Yupps yupps, had heard it over the radio that they will be back to Muttons to Midnight today! :D After so many weeks, they are finally back. I think it's been a month since they are gone. A month gone just like that. haha.

I remember the first time when I heard their programme over the air was when I was revising for my O lvl. I will be tuning in to 987fm every night while doing Maths. So they are my "buddies" during night time from 8pm till 12 mindnight. haha. Hilarious, is what I could describe them. :) Am very glad that they will be back tonight! :D

So, waiting for 8pm to come. In the meantime, time for some teevee programmes. :)

Or maybe, read the book which I had bought long long time ago yet am still at page 66. haha. :P

"Before We Say GoodBye" by Louise Candlish.

Thought of buying some Christian books but there's a range of books at Times Bookshop so I do not know which to get my hands on first. :)

"I felt, pain...

Heart-wrecking.

Agonizing pain..."

Labels: Letting go doesnt means giving up but rather is accepting the things which I could not change...

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»Things

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Holidays by now should be boring. But, I'm still enjoying every moments of it. :) Maybe because of the Main exams, I had learnt to cherish every single moment with which I could rest. haha. It seems that there's so many things for me to do yet I'm not progressing fast enough to catch up and do. Nevertheless, work hard but rest and play harder! :D

Met Jami in the morning for breakfast. haha. We didnt manage to finish the last toast which we ordered cause we were both too full and we saw this GB girl in her Full-U but she didnt wear cap nor her nametag! We were both so tempted to correct her but yet we didnt cause the girl's parents were there. Hope she will be told and change. :)
Went for GB today. :) Drill session is still the best. :D I miss Drill! Want to get my feets on it soon! hehe. :D

The weather, had been so hot lately, I believe everyone should have already noticed it. haha. So scared that the hair will just start burning while walking. hahah. Nah. haha. Must get use to this weather but make enough protection! If not, you will have serious sun burn. haha.

Taking a break for now from all my preparation works till tmr. :)

Byes. :D

"Pondering. Wondering.

And my mind started wandering...

Is it me or her...?

If only...

But what if? :("

Labels: 491 days

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»Did You know?

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Did you know? Jogging/running could aid in improving your eye sight? Not only does jogging is a good exercise but it's also a good way to improve your eye sight. Well, I knew that through Mens' Health. haha. Come to think of it, I read it halfway through. Forgotten to continue ever since, hmmmms, Saturday? haha. Okok, shall continue tmr. :)

Having holidays now. :) Everyone's asking me if I'm going to find a job when I go to the market with mom. haha. hmmms. I'm not sure but the possibility should be not. :)

The weather is really hot. Read the newspaper, yeap, it's because of the Global Warming thing, called Elmino? The paper says this kind of weather will last till around June. haha. Guess I will be sweating everyday. haha. Remember! 27th March, it's Earth hour! :) Remember to switch off your lights from 8.30pm till 9.30pm. I used to not give a notice to this kind of stuffs but had been watching too much Animal Planet with little brother that I had been conscious about what is happening to the world because of Global Warming. Esp. those poor animals. :( Now i know why little brother so loves those animals. :) Cause I'm loving them too. :)
One role model whom I will look up to will be Steve Irwin. Even though he's dead but I still look up to him. :)

Okays, I'm going to bed now cause I'm hungry. :P

Nights nights! :)

"Your thoughts, I can't decipher,

don't think that I will ever be able

to solve it.

Can you tell me?

So I know what I can do.

I had been thinking so much recently.

I really felt like knowing how you felt,

towards me.

If only you could tell me,

I will do the rest..."

Labels: It's all the "WHAT IFs" which hurts the most.

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»Happy Birthday, WenSu!

Monday, March 1, 2010

Happy 21st Birthday, Wensu! :D

I'm a day late posting this but by the time I'm back home last night, it's abit too late and I want to go to bed alr after my bath. haha.

But nonetheless, Happy 21st Birthday Wensu! :)

Went to Church in the morning yesterday, almost could not make it because I overslept by 15mins. I woke up at 7.15am. Sleeping less than 6hrs, I woke up in a flust. haha. The thought of not going out almost hit me but, nopes, I went to Church in the end. haha. Train-ed back with Sze Ying after that.

Watched Teevee awhile then off to meet Evon to get Wensu's present. We got him a pen with his name craved on it. The font is abit too small. haha. :P Anyways, it's something for him from the four of us, Evon, KaiLin, Sharon and me. Hope he likes it. :)

Went to his chalet at Pasir Ris Coasta Sands after Shermeen jiejie came. Reached at about 6pm and not people are there. So we went up the room to play Dai-Dee. Luck is definitely not with me cause I had been an ass-hole for consecutively for don't know how many times. haha.

Went down for a grab for awhile and Kailin was deciding whether should she bus home or cab home. Waited for her decision to be made for half an hour. haha.

Went up and played Blackjack for awhile and off we go at 9.45pm. Kailin was rushing and there's no cab in sight, those available ones. haha. KaiLin waited till 10.10pm for her cab to come while the three of us waited till 10.30pm. 45mins of waiting. We played Dai-Dee while waiting and in the cab too. hahah.

Thank you jiejie for paying for the cab fare and also to drop me somewhere nearer to my house. haha. Thank you! :D

"What could I do?

To know your thoughts..."

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I'm someone who has faith in God and the God within me!

I'm working hard to be in likeness to Christ! Be radical for Him! Giving Him the best years of my life!

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