everytime the blog asked me for title, i will crack my brain and think of one. therefore, i will name my post todae as "title-less". cool uh? hahas. =]

ok... a quick rush through abt wat i did todae. and my plan for tmr. here goes...

todae, i was late to go into class. i was singing the national atheme and pledge at the staircase because i went to find meishi. now i noe her class le. hahas. den had MT. we had our chinese TA. the time started at 7.45am and it ended at 8.45am. den i do, i do halfway and looked at the clock, 8.10am. i thought the exam end at 8.15 and i rushed through everything and when 8.15am came, i was waiting for my teacher to collect the paper, but instead, she sae we had 30min more. i was finding myself so stupid. den my friend told me that i didnt look at the whiteboard coz my teacher had worte the timing at there. hahas. i waited for 30min to pass and i had a feeling that i will fail. =[ how stupid can i be?

had lesson and had chinese remedial and was late for GB. lucky i had told ms tay before that. had drill and my hand hurts while marching and ms chiam uses the devotion time to have squad time. my squad is suppose to redecorate the gb notice board. and gb room's notice board.

went to play basketball wif sharon and evon they all. den we played match against some girls from hai xing catholic sch. they are very pretty and tall. they are sec2 though. hahas. we lost, 12-15. lucky i managed to contribute some points.

went home after that... i am very tired. =[

here's a short post on my results:

eng: not yet taken. but surely gone case... =[
emaths: 57.5; C5
a-maths: 75; A1
Chemistry: 73; A2
Physics: 61; B4
Chinese: not yet taken
Combined Humanities: 71; A2

here's my result. i will do harder! jia you! =]

today was a much happy day. because i had a lot of fun things happening in sch today that i am so happy abt.

first happy thing. i had my 2.4km test today. i broke my past records. last year my timing is 17mins plus. but today i gt 14min57secs. wohoo. i finally can get 4 marks for my 2.4km section. hehe. i was exhausted and i ran halfway, i almost vomit bacause i ran with an empty stomach. hahas.

second happy thing. i was studying my amaths since morning. and during assembly i didnt listen to it coz mayb its too boring. they keep saying standard english thingy den i study. my headache came at that time. had my retest at 3pm and my headache is still there and i wanna thank God that He had prevented me from my headache worsen and i did my test with a lot of confidence. i think should be able to pass ba. i hope. after i had handed in my paper, i wanna shout thank God. hahas. but i restricted myself coz others are still doin it.

third thing. i went to have my drill pratice after my retest and i learn two new things. turning right while marching and open ranks and close rank. wohoo...

all i could sae is... my energy is all drained out and i gonna start on my iconnexion tmr. muz chiong all by tmr night! jia you! =]

I felt as though i had lost my way in a desert where there seem to be no way out at all. my future is bleak. nothing came along and helped me. i am looking for God. i know He is there by my side but i just can't seem to find it. Lord, God, please guide me. i want to get out of this desert which i will name it "The maze in me" desert.



i am scared that i cant live to your standards. i guess that you wanted me to forget about him. is it the signs you are giving to me? the avoidance that he gave me. is it, Lord? i scared that if i keep on thinking and holding on to him, Lord, am i disobeying you? Lord, i wanted to be the child you yearns me to be. Lord. i wanted to hold on to him. but i also wanted to be the child you want me to be. Lord. what should i do?



these two days i had been thinking. i just cant seem to be thinking and sorting it out. all i know is to cry. Lord, am i a stupid and useless people? Lord. i am lost...



please create a miracle in him and mine relationship. i want him back. but am i disobeying you? Lord, tell me...

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todae is sat and it was a boring day. i had my lunch and packed my worksheets and put them into a ring file which i had bought ages to sort out my worksheets. and finally i did it. wohoo. after that, it was late afternoon already and i had dinner at 5pm. i was taking the boiling soup into a bowl and the soup didnt land in the bowl. it ended up on my fingers. it was so painful. hahas. i was looking at my finger which had turned red and was still continuing holding on the bowl when my dad was at my side wanting to take the bowl away from my hand. hahas.

it was painful until now. no moon to study. hhas. dun really feel lyk goin grandma hse tmr.
so far, todae i didnt talk more than 5 sentences todae. my mum and brothers were talkin to me and i either nod or shake my head. i dun feel lyk talking though. hahas.

mayb i am now suitable to become a mute because i didnt talk much now and dun wan to talk much. but i will still talk though. hahas. =]

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Doing exercises with the elderly!

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Day 1:
everyone in class was feeling rather sian about it coz dunno wat we gonna do and wat is it all about and the sch is quite empty coz there's only sec1 and the graduating classes left. goodbye to those goin camp. gonna miss them... hahas. Lou Wei is our three day trainer and she is a pretty lady. shermeen sae she was a mix blood but jus cant guess which country she is from. she look very young lyk one of us. but she is very unique coz she speak she will zhou ying. hahahs. had lecture and everyone are half dead after awhile. most of them slept and was woke up. had a 15min break and next mega event is we had to make a giant wheel made of newspaper and masking tape and can house 21 ppl. hahas. in the end, it broke and we tore the newspaper into many many many many pieces. had a 45 min break after that and went back to lecture again. hahas. had another 15min break and next mega event is every class is to send one person to act as PCK and we send gerald and my classmates are shouting lyk mad. and my ear drums are lyk bursting. hahas. 4e2 won. went home at 5pm. my mood is not so good today. mayb coz they all went obs le ba.

day 2:
the parade square is not as many ppl as yesterday because most of the people are not interested in the program. hahas. todae time past quite fast though. had a total of 3 breaks as usual and had fun in the lecture and mood is not so good oso. hahas.

day 3:
last day and realli bonded well with lou wei and we had fun together and she is very good to us. but today's mega event is concerning water and after eveything we were playing with water splashing each other. lucky no one splash me. haha. den on the way back to class, jian xin and willy fight and was beating one another and i pulled jian xin away to prevent them from fighting even more. scared they will hit each other even more. so scary la. i was pulling jian xin. i almost fall while pulling him. he jus wont go away. go back class and lou wei was telling them to apologise to each other and willy was crying lyk dunno wat happen. lou wei treat us kfc and pizza. take photos and todae gonna upload some photos! hahas. p.s.: weisian. i upload photos let u see. hahas. =]

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woke up at 6.30am and was having a bad sore throat. felt lyk crying. it hurts. bath and went off and took bus 293 and off to tampines interchange to meet jieni and pris. i'm late. sorry. bought our breakfast and off to take bus 72. actually was goin to take bus 81 which is a straight bus to go there but dunno morining so early gt operate not so jus in case, we took bus 72. the bus came and we went to the upper deck and the good thing is that morning there's veri few passengers and we had took the seats which are empty at the back. was chatting and gt down and the bus 81 jus don't come and we waited for quite long. reached there and we were late. den we had brefing and off to worship hall and we sang songs to praise God and had a lot of fun. we gt file and a GB foolscape pad. hehe. den had a talk by ms. Carol.

She is a mentor and role model to many girls in a local Girls' Home in Singapore as well as in many schools she is invited to speak at. In her teens, her turning point came when she was facing life's toughest moment along and someone came alongside her, believed in her, and guided her through. Her story was featured in The Yellow Ribbon Project docu-drama. "The Turning Point" in 2006. Today, Carol does consultancy on Volunteer Management with Food From The Heart, as well as works very closely with girls from the Girls' Home. Her heartwarming and inspiring story often opens her up to many valuable lessons she shares with her audience of all ages.

her speech goes abt 1hr and it was interesting. was separate through the colour of file. blue and purple and green and grey. i gt the grey one and pris and jieni had the blue de. i gt so panic i faster swap the file den in the end i managed to be wif them. hahas.

went to another room and had another talk. by Mr Glenn Lim.

He is an inspiring role model and gifted public speaker. As a young rock musician he came close to a life sentence for importing drugs in his youth. Lucky he gt a second chance. He won alot alot of awards.
can u imagine that? from a 30years sentence and 24 strokes of cane to 6 months only. that was realli a miracle and it was the work of God! God is magnificent! =] his talk ended 2hrs later...

had lunch after that and had another 2 more talks.

next talk is about ETHICS by mr Martin Tan. he is the executive director of Halogen. learnt a lot of things. E stands for examples. T stand for tested. H stands for honesty. I stands for individuality. C stands for courage. S stands for standard. he tell us his story. he actually had three children. but his eldest son died after birth. his son was 22weeks and 3 days in his mother's womb and she gave birth in her house and he rushed home and the paramedics noticed that the baby's heart was not beating but after a while, it beated faintly a while and was sent to kk hospital. which was next street only. the doctors had get the baby a life support machine. he had to make a decision whether to off the machine or continue it. at first i was listening to it and it was lyk drama series. and i dunno that it happens in real life too. the baby was our palm size onli and he will be blind if he continues to live coz his eyes are not yet fully developed. and will die automatically at 8 years old. he prayed wif his friend and he decided to off the machine. he told the doctor. if he off the machine and his son is still alive and had get past the criteria time and he will have to do anything to keep his son alive. but he saw his son's heartbeat slowly dropped to zero 3hrs later. i could see that he felt awful. he sae he had 2 beautiful daughters after that and showed us the pictures and indeed. they are beautiful. small kids. God blessed. 2hrs past and next talk arrived...

by a pastor and his speech was quite ok. not so interesting. actually was too tired and didnt absorb much. 2hrs past slowlllllyyyyy....

had another talk by ms pearl pang, our gb offical. she tell us abt her life journey and how she joined gb. and showed us some photos and wat was happening recently...

had dinner after that and had campfire after that. the phillipines's BB and GB had came over and joined us our campfire ad we had fun. went home after that which ended at 9pm.

jieni went aunt hse, pris oso. jieni is heading jurong while pris headin to lakeside. i'm heading to tampines. went to take the mrt wif pris until outram park and separate. she went to lakeside whereas i go the other side mrt to go back to tampines. felt so lonely. realli wan to have someone to accompany me though. hahas...

actually the journey is long den wanna sms someone to talk wif me but dun wanna disturb anyone though... so didnt sms anyone. reached home an hour and a half later. i love the feeling of goin home late though. hahas. so cooling and quiet. hahas. =]

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hey people! changed my template to this and i admit that i am lousy at everything. hahahs. look at where my tagboard is situated and the colours i had picked. hahas. it's so shit. hahas. the tagboard is placed right at the bottom and the colours jus don't match with the background and the everything. all i could say is, "it's a disaster" hahas. =P

now i had been learning how to fold heart out of straws and it seems that i am not going very well. hahahs. it was so confusing and i was thinking, after i had folded all those hearts, what am i gonna do with it. todae i brought it to sch and everyone was folding it and it was a lot. hahas. it was fun looking them fold and hope that one day i could be lyk them. hahahs. i will perservere. anyone interested folding with me? hahahas.

there's a night market a.k.a pasar malan downstair at my house and it was so cool! hahahas. so, everyday i gonna stand at my room's window and looking at everyone and see what are they doing. hahhas. who wan go night market with me? hahas.

i had a serious muscleache. hahahs. coz that time pe ran 6 rounds and my energy is totally drained and the rest of the lesson i had been sleeping with my eyes open. hahaas. no la. was so tired that every teacher's teaching was lyk chanting. and it's making me sleep-ier and sleep-ier. hahahs. =P had chinese ta and a bird dropped i almost cried. hahas. but i didnt. coz it was so poor thing. jus born and it was dropped from a tall height. before that i was doin my ta and was thinking what if there's a earthquake and the birds will die den the next min weiling was laughing and i gt shocked coz the bird dropped "dead". it didnt la. hahas. dunno who go put it back to it's nest. although its noisy but muz respect it coz its also a living thing. =] conclusion is "i so gonna fluck my amaths ta till very very badly. coz even 4e3 had 11 passers and i am definitly not one if them." i dun wan drop though. so, i will study hard and be good. =]

wanna wish everyone happy belated valentines day. after sch went eat wif kailin and evon they all and while walking towards the bus stop situated at the ex side gate and i heard basketball noises. and i gt excited and min ning was saying i gt a basketball at home and i gt so hyper that i asked evon and we crap abt out senses. hahas. i see, i hear, i smell, i touch and i tasted. hahahs. only evon, mim ning and kai lin and me noe abt this secret. hahas. after that, basketball court gt ppl. =[ benjamin they all had the half court whereas leslie(yirong's friend) had the other half court and we sat on the benches staring at blank spaces (one of my fav habit) hahas. huiji came and saw weisian oso. coz he went to make ezlink card. hahas. they played poker and after that, sharon came and i went home. i suddenly had a thought. i dun feel lyk walking home. hahas. too tired already and felt lyk dropping on the ground and jus sleep there. hahahs. but its impossible la. hahas.

had chinese remedial after sch and it was another mock test. =[ had lunch wif pris after that and was thinking that it was a very fast week this week and next week whole sch will be in camp except the grad classes gt wat stupid courses. "I Am A Young Achiever" course and it was gonna be monday to wed 8am-5pm. hahas. gonna die inside. but wanna wish those sec2s goin adventure camp have fun and take care. and those sec3s goin obs, wanna hope they had fun and take care of themselves. =]

sorry for the long long post. actually its a post that summarises the three days, wed, thurs n fri. hahas. weisian was complaining that my post was getting shorter and shorter and thus i did a long one todae. hahas. =]

there's leadership conference tmr, 8.30am-8.30pm. ahh.. i gonna die and rot tmr. gonna miss gb parade and kaleo's organised programme. argghh. hahas. its ok. i'll be good and stay anti-die and anti-rot during leadership conference. =]

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todae is everyone's birthday. coz its the 7th day of lunar new year. so gonna wish everyone:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =D

tmr is cherie's birthday and valentines day. gonna give everyone chocolates. hehe. not able to make it to cherie's birthday party this sat coz gt leadership conference. from morning 8.30am to night 8.30pm. because of leadership conference, i missed a lot of things... i can't go for parade, i can't go church coz kaleo having a fun gathering wif games and songs and worshipping! i so sad la. opportunity to meet up wif my church friends but cant go coz of leadership conference. but its ok. goin leadership conference can promote. hehe. den somemore can go wif pris and jieni. =]

Todae manage not to go out for this week. hahahs. This whole week had been goin out and todae i didnt go out. and that makes me earn less money. my younger bro had earn $20 coz there was a tradition? which is when we visit a relative's hse, we will get hong bao and i totally forgotten abt it! and i didnt went out because i gt scam. when i was abt to step out of my hse, my friend sms me and asked me is there physics ta on mon and i paniced coz i realli wanted to do well for my physics or else ms neo will nag and look down on me lor. my parents went out and i looked at my timetable. guess wat? TMR THERE IS NO PHYSICS LESSON!!! argghhh. i so gonna kill jian xin. hahas.

never mind... i revised my amaths. remainder and factor theorem. actually wanna continue on circles but was too lazy. hehe..so i planned already. tmr, 11/02 study circles. 12/02 study trigo den 13/02 off to test. hahas. i so gonna fluck it. hahas.

Finally it's friday. Didnt really enjoyed these few days. Coz it's lyk super duper bored.
The things i enjoyed is able to stay up late at night and oso able to see my 2 beloved grandmother.

Todae my paternal side's relatives came to our house and my cousin came first wif her mother, husband and son. she is a teacher teaching at nanyang poly, nursing course. den her husband is a doctor. den slowly more n more ppl came and hse was so lively. hahas. My brother's girlfriend came our house for awhile and den after that, they went out awhile den after that, went maternal grandma hse. my brother and his girlfriend reached first. they were so loving and when one go aways, the other follows. and they had been together for a yr already, still so loving. den i suddenly thought of someone. thought of how i neglected him and not accompanying him. its right that he dun wan me though. how i wish time could realli turn back. but since time could not turn back, i wanna hope that he will be alright and fine and hope that he will find one girl that will be nice to him. and he is happy jiu ok le. =]

i've been tinking too much lately and resulted in lack of tears. actually had been lacking of tear since long long time ago. dunno why. cant realli cry these few months. hahas. valentines day coming. haha. its gonna be another day.that had no special meaning. =[ i thought it will be a special one.if time could be rewinded...

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these few days... although new yr is coming, not realli have the i-am-so-looking-forward-to-it mood.

hmm... tuesday... no sch... at night, went out at 12midnight. so cool la. hahahs. the night breeze is so cooling that i almost wanted to shift hse and move to the road side. hahas. its gonna be so cooling at night. walk around wif mum and dad. whereas my brother had went to eat dinner wif his girlfriend. walked from prime supermarket to yes supermarket. at yes supermarket, i saw a guy, while sweeping the floor, he was catching a nap. it was so funny la. hahas. but i felt sorry for him though. it was so late and still need to clean up the mess.

wed. new yr's eve... had been slacking at home and did amaths homework onli. hahahs. had reunion dinner and it was yummy. hahahs. went to grandma hse den went some where and was so tired. online at 12am plus. den off to bed at 2 plus goin to 3am...

todae... woke up at 9am. so tired. hahahs. went out at 12pm den off to paternal and maternal grandma hse... hahas. collected quite a number of hong bao. hehe. so happy. planning to buy a second hand hp. wat kind of brand should i buy? i so picky can. i wan a push up phone, wif nice typing keypads. able to put songs. ok le. hahahs. =]

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shall blog abt todae. during chem lesson ms neo came in to class and she announce those who are able to continue with their pure sciences. i am needed to collapse it. i have a choice. either to collapse or continue it. i might consider collapsing it.

emaths is next. hahahs. my emaths ta gt a c5. sad... kailin gt a b3 and she cried. haiz.. if she cried den i might as well jump off building le. mood was abit get affected by her. almost cried in front of jia wei and thinking that shall not get affected by her and therefore had been avoiding her to give each other a time of quietness. hahahas. went to buy mineral water and saw yi rong and chat wif him awhile. found out that we really had no topic to talk abt. not lyk last time. many many things to talk abt. hahahas. miss those days though. =[

had physics and was not listening to the lesson. hahahs. was doin my eng hm/wk. hahahs. manage to listen and do. my new found skill. hahahs. half listen half doin things. hahahs. cool uh?

den went to hall. love the performances. louis n beadsly(dunno how to spell) hahahs. they are so cute. hahas. although sec1, they are veri talented. how i wish i can be lyk them. i wan to learn hip hop dancing! =] hehe.

went to eat my lunch at mac wif pris and kailin. den send kailin off at the bus stop and went to the barber shop wif pris. she cut-ed her hair. all i can sae is that she realli is veri pretty wif her new haircut and her old haircut. hahahs. no matter wat, she's veri pretty.

went to bus stop and saw two guys wearing ladies dress and putting make up. transvertite. if i didnt spell wrongly. change sex ppl. me and pris was lyk. err... the cold wind was blowing and we were... hahahs. felt so bad. home-ed after that...

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todae after sch, went around and slack in sch and went to find pris at 2.15pm and she gt rehearsal at the hall for CNY tmr.

the shows performed are not bad. wushu is the first to start den 3t1's skit, 4e6's skit. den the rest follows as such den in between, gt duman secondary and ngee ann secondary's volleyball team came in. heard that they are having competition at our sch hall. den they used the second half of the hall. they played ping pong at the second half of the hall too. hahahs. so the hall was in a veri chaotic situation.

finally, i noe why my head had been feeling so pain le. was touching my head and found a dent on my head. i tink should be alright ba. nothing will be wrong de. hahahs.

p.s: wei sian, me update le. hahahs. i did my part as a blooger le! u oso muz! hhahahs. =D

finally... finally i finish my report on the interview with Ms Pearl Pang. since i had nothing to do yesterday so might as well finish it. it was long. hahhas. should be able to put ppl to slp ba. jieni send to ms chiam yesterday too. now left priscilia. in GB, i'm left with a few more meetings, a leadership conference, enrolment service and PBB selection camp and GB day and i'm stepping down. at the thought of it, i'm depressed! i hate to step down and once i step down, i'm on my own. no more care from GB nothing else. i hate to leave my family of GB. it was GB which made me know God a lot. it was GB that makes me found my leadership skills. it was GB. GB had made up mostly of my life.

O level will come veri fast after stepping down and leaving the sch oso made me felt more n more depressed. that means not being able to see my friends anymore. i cant see him anymore and many many ppl. depressed mood. =[

todae i am touching my head and i found a dent on it. hahahs. when touched, it will be pain abit. hahahs. should be alright ba.

i've got to learn a lot of things. and 1 of them is to learning how to let go... which i dun wan to...

gonna blog abt this week. this week was awesome but thur is the most awesome of all. hahahs. well, why is it thur is the most awesome? onli i noe the reason. hahahs. not gonna say it.

todae after sch, gt gb parade but we were excused. the we's are jieni, pris and me. we are going gb centre to do a project, interviewing one of the officers. Miss Pearl Pang was our interviewee. she is nice and friendly and she shares alot of things wif us. we took bus 81 there and it was a 50mins-1hr trip and we settle our lunch in the bus. hahahs. Mac. after interviewing her, went into gb shoppe. it was a place where we can shop. hahhas. there gt sell alot of small gifts, bags, books and many many things! i wanna buy books when the next time i'm visiting it. it will be at 16feb if i'm not wrong. gt leadership conference. but dunno gt time not. hmm... den jieni bought something for us. hahahs.

take cab back sch to give them a surprise and it was fun and we learned new song, "firm foundation" it was our theme song for this yr. nice nice song.

my title doesnt match my blog details. hahahs. well, why overwhelm? coz was thinking of something and wanna ask someone something and it was realli impossible to let that person agree to it. the chances are near zero. actually its zero... =[

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Hello,
I am Vanessa Quek!


I blog to pen down my thoughts and also to remember the important milestones in my life!

I'm someone who has faith in God and the God within me!

I'm working hard to be in likeness to Christ! Be radical for Him! Giving Him the best years of my life!

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