KAKA! It's been so long since I last heard from you. haha. Well, rest well while you're recuperating! Hope to see you back on field soon! Which is next year's January. Boohoo. =(

Hmmmms. School was alright so far. Well, there's nothing much I could do but say that so far I think all my subjects is just plain boring. Too technical I guess. I'm more interested in Attractions Management. Apart from the fact that there's 2 transfer students from Finland in this subject. haha! Well, they are not in my class so yupps. haha!

I was having a comparison among the guys that I am attracted to, they are namely, KAKA, Chord Overstreet and Lee Min Ho. haha!

Well, some similarities I found in them are,

-They are good looking to me but somehow not to others.

-Their attractive eyes and stunning smile. hehe.

-Tall.

-Humorous.

-They gave me a sense of security. In someway or another. haha!

And the list goes on. The most important thing is, the feeling I had for them. haha! =P

I'm abit nuts but just somehow being random. haha!

Well, things look alright on the surface but I just dont feel ok. Hmmmms.

I had been wondering, sometimes, just maybe sometimes, I don't need and dont want any friends. I don't want to be thoughtful about them. Afraid they might get hurt or disappointed by me. I dont want to let them down. But sometimes I dont feel good when I'm somehow disappointed by them. They can dont like me. They can talk behind my back. And I don't like it when someone can be my so called friend in front of me and when I just leave a moment ago, she started saying things about me. I do that, yes, but I'm not going to do that anymore. Because this feeling really sucks. Yes, they can don't like me, it's their freedom. I mind but I dont really hold it to my heart for a long period of time. But to say in general all friends, it's somehow wrong because I'm being particular about some people. Well, guess no one can help me but myself. I'm sorry but I think I need some reflection time alone with God. I don't want to be anyone's friend, for now... =(