However, every time after daydreaming, I wished for the opposite because the things I had daydreamed about is something I fear. Because, when I daydreamed, I made myself believe that, it will happen. Then fear steps in, take away everything that I had hoped for. Every single thing. All that was left were emptiness and loneliness.

Well, everyone have their life to live. Who is good to them, they go to them. Standing true to one doesn't seem to match with the world now. Not everyone could be loyal from the beginning to the end. They just went off. Maybe this is call change. People always don't admit that they change, but change is the only constant in this world, isn't it?

Going through the period of projects now. Time to buck up. Time to set priorities. This time, everything felt so scary. They felt so real. The tense atmosphere, the competing mindset. Everyone wants to win. Everyone wants to do better than others. I just want to win, myself. History should not repeat itself. I must take the change. Even if it costs me. I told Sharon, Evon and niang that if I skip any lectures with effect from tmr, I will treat them starbucks coffee. It may be just a cup of starbucks coffee but this shows my determination.

Many a times, I always hope people could praise me, for my efforts that I thought I had put in enough. But then again, the praises always end up giving it to someone else. Disappointed but this spurs me to work harder. I told myself, I don't need praises from anyone but I only need Him to praise me. Father, I will work hard. (:

It's been raining since afternoon. It's cold and I think I should snuggle up in bed soon. (:

Attractions Management is driving me insane and emotional!

Goodnight everyone! I'm so upset that I didn't get to watch Glee today. =(

Probably tmr. (:

P.S If only I could lead a romance like Sam/Quinn. (: